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Summary

Rezvani Koepka, also known as Radio Black, shares her inspiring journey at TEDx Bangkok, discussing her struggles with online negativity and her transformation into a confident, strong individual. Despite facing criticism as an adult film actress, she emphasizes the importance of self-love and resilience. Koepka explains how she overcame depression, embraced Muay Thai, and stopped relying on others for happiness. Her speech encourages the audience to recognize their inner power, telling them to define their own identity and life story, and to become fighters in their own lives.

Takeaways

• 🌟 Introduction of Vivadi, also known as Radio Black, sharing her journey in Bangkok, Thailand, and revealing her Thai name Revathi.
• 🔍 She addresses misconceptions about her life story, especially false narratives found on the internet, and emphasizes that she is not living the dramatic life portrayed online.
• 💔 Vivadi shares her struggles with negative comments online, particularly due to her profession as an adult film actress, and how they have affected her emotionally and mentally.
• 🧠 She highlights the power of words and how they can have a lasting impact, making it difficult to ignore hurtful comments.
• 😔 Vivadi opens up about her experiences with depression, extreme weight loss, and lack of energy, showing how deeply the online negativity affected her.
• 💡 She describes the turning point in her life—realizing that she was the one holding onto negativity by focusing on the comments, and deciding to take responsibility for her own happiness.
• 🥋 Vivadi shares her newfound passion for Muay Thai, explaining how it empowered her and made her feel strong, both physically and mentally.
• 💪 She emphasizes the importance of doing things for oneself, rather than seeking validation from others, and how this shift in mindset helped her rebuild confidence.
• 🌍 Outside of her career, Vivadi reveals she holds a law and politics degree, owns a company, is a professional gamer, a world traveler, and a food blogger, showcasing her multifaceted identity.
• 🗣️ Vivadi challenges the audience to reflect on their own identity, encouraging them to find their true life story and unleash their inner strength, just as she has.

Q & A

Who is the speaker in this transcript?

The speaker introduces herself as Vivadi, also known as Radio Black or Revathi, depending on the context. She is an adult film actress and a multi-talented individual.

What misconceptions does the speaker clarify about herself?

The speaker clarifies that the internet spreads misinformation about her, such as her height and a fabricated life story involving revenge against the Japanese Yakuza. She emphasizes that these stories are fictional and not her true life.

What is the speaker's main message at TEDx Bangkok?

The speaker’s main message focuses on self-care, mental health, and the importance of self-confidence. She encourages people to listen to their inner voices and prioritize their own well-being, despite external negativity.

What challenges has the speaker faced in her profession?

The speaker mentions facing a lot of negativity due to her profession as an adult film actress. This includes receiving hurtful comments, rude emails, and judgmental opinions that affected her self-confidence and mental health.

How did the speaker regain her confidence?

The speaker regained her confidence by realizing that she was the one who was allowing negativity to affect her. She made a promise to herself to focus on making herself happy rather than expecting others to do so. She also started practicing Muay Thai, which gave her a sense of strength and control.

What role did Muay Thai play in the speaker’s transformation?

Muay Thai helped the speaker feel empowered and strong. It allowed her to shift her mindset from seeking validation from others to focusing on her own growth and strength as a 'fighter for life.'

How does the speaker view the impact of internet negativity?

The speaker acknowledges that internet negativity is powerful and difficult to ignore. She explains how hurtful comments can linger and affect one's mental health, but she also emphasizes the importance of choosing not to engage with negativity.

What does the speaker mean by 'we human is environment'?

The speaker suggests that humans are part of the environment, and just as we strive to protect the natural world, we must also take care of ourselves. She emphasizes that self-care is as important as caring for the environment.

What is the speaker’s educational and professional background outside of her adult film career?

In addition to being an adult film actress, the speaker holds a degree in law and politics, is a company owner, a professional gamer, a world traveler, and a food blogger. These aspects of her life are often overlooked due to her career in the adult industry.

What final question does the speaker leave the audience with?

The speaker asks the audience to reflect on their own identity and life story, encouraging them to think about what they want the world to know about them and the power they hold within.

Outlines

00:00

🌍 Introduction and Personal Background

The speaker, Vivadi, also known as Radio Black, introduces herself on the TEDx Bangkok stage. She shares that while some people may know her through her adult film career, many misconceptions exist about her online persona. She clarifies that the internet has fabricated stories about her life, including exaggerated details like her height and fictional events such as losing her parents to the Japanese Yakuza. Despite these false narratives, she asserts that her real life is far from the dramatic stories found online.

05:02

💔 Coping with Online Negativity

The speaker opens up about the emotional toll of receiving negative comments and judgments due to her career. She describes the hurtful nature of the messages she receives, from being called ugly to being told her existence is meaningless. She admits that while some believe it's easy to ignore such negativity, it's actually impossible for her to forget or disregard these words. The constant barrage of hurtful remarks deeply affects her mental health, leading to depression, isolation, and a loss of self-confidence.

10:07

💪 Overcoming Adversity and Finding Inner Strength

Despite the challenges, the speaker shares how she began to regain control over her happiness. She realized that by constantly exposing herself to negativity, she was contributing to her own misery. She made a conscious decision to focus on her own happiness rather than relying on others for validation. This shift in mindset empowered her to embrace her accomplishments beyond her adult film career, including her degrees, company ownership, professional gaming, and food blogging. She also proudly announces that she has started training as a Muay Thai fighter, symbolizing her strength and resilience.

🥊 Embracing Muay Thai and Fighting for Herself

The speaker explains how training in Muay Thai has transformed her life, giving her a sense of empowerment and strength. She no longer seeks validation from others or allows negative comments to dictate her self-worth. Through Muay Thai, she has found a way to feel strong and confident, both physically and emotionally. She emphasizes that the opinions of others no longer define her, as she now recognizes her own value and power. The speaker encourages the audience to reflect on their true identity and share their own stories with the world.

Keywords

💡Identity

In the script, identity is a central theme, as the speaker explores how their personal and public identities differ. The speaker is labeled by the internet as an 'adult film actress,' but they highlight the many other facets of who they truly are, such as a law graduate and a Muay Thai fighter. The concept of identity in the video is about reclaiming the narrative and defining oneself beyond societal labels.

💡Confidence

Confidence is a key theme, where the speaker discusses their struggle with negative comments online and how it impacted their self-worth. They share how they lost confidence due to external judgments but eventually rebuilt it through personal empowerment and self-care. Confidence here is portrayed as something that comes from within rather than external validation.

💡Negativity

Negativity in the script refers to the harmful, judgmental comments the speaker receives on the internet. The speaker describes the emotional toll of being labeled 'ugly' or 'worthless,' and how this negativity led to depression and self-doubt. However, they learn to manage these negative influences by choosing not to engage with them, focusing instead on self-growth.

💡Muay Thai

Muay Thai symbolizes empowerment and personal growth for the speaker. After facing negativity and losing confidence, the speaker turns to Muay Thai as a form of physical and emotional strength. It becomes a tool for self-reclamation, allowing them to feel powerful and capable of fighting not just in the ring but in life. Muay Thai represents resilience and self-care in the script.

💡Self-care

Self-care in the script refers to the actions the speaker takes to maintain their mental and emotional well-being. After experiencing deep lows, such as not eating or showering for days, the speaker learns to prioritize their happiness and health. Self-care is a crucial part of their recovery and is shown as a daily effort to make oneself happy.

💡Labels

The speaker addresses the concept of labels, specifically how they are labeled by others as an 'adult film actress.' This label oversimplifies their identity and often leads to judgment. The speaker challenges these labels by revealing their multifaceted life, including achievements outside of adult films. Labels, in this context, represent how society's narrow definitions can limit personal expression.

💡Internet perception

The script discusses how the internet creates false perceptions of people. The speaker shares how online sources inaccurately portray their life story, such as exaggerating their height or fabricating dramatic events. This highlights the disparity between the online persona and real life, emphasizing the importance of controlling one’s narrative instead of letting the internet define it.

💡Strength

Strength is both physical and emotional in the speaker’s journey. They describe their physical transformation through Muay Thai, but more importantly, they highlight the emotional strength required to overcome the negativity they face online. The speaker’s story is about building strength from vulnerability and learning to fight against external judgments.

💡Mental health

Mental health is a significant underlying theme as the speaker describes the depression and struggles they faced due to online negativity. The inability to get out of bed, eat, or function normally reflects the toll that mental health challenges can take. The speaker’s journey to self-care and empowerment is framed as a recovery of their mental well-being.

💡Empowerment

Empowerment is the core of the speaker’s message. They move from a place of self-doubt and depression to becoming empowered through self-awareness and physical activities like Muay Thai. The speaker emphasizes that empowerment comes from within, and that everyone has the power to define their own story and identity despite what others may say.

Highlights

Vivadi, also known as Radio Black, introduces herself and clarifies common misconceptions about her background.

Vivadi humorously debunks the false information on the internet, including her height and a fabricated life story involving the Yakuza.

She discusses her profession as an adult film actress and addresses the negative comments and judgments she receives online.

Vivadi shares the impact of online negativity, explaining how hurtful comments have affected her mental health and self-confidence.

She reveals her personal struggle with depression and how it led to a period of inactivity, low energy, and self-neglect.

A turning point occurs when Vivadi realizes that she is the one engaging with the negativity by reading and internalizing harmful messages.

Vivadi makes a commitment to prioritize her own happiness and stop relying on external validation from others.

She emphasizes that although ignoring negative comments isn't easy, she has learned to focus on making herself happy every day.

In addition to being an adult film actress, Vivadi shares that she is also a law and politics graduate, a company owner, a professional gamer, and a world traveler.

She proudly states that she is now a Muay Thai beginner, explaining how martial arts have empowered her and helped her regain confidence.

Vivadi reflects on her past obsession with the gym and how external criticism led her to stop exercising, but Muay Thai gave her a new sense of strength.

Through Muay Thai, she has redefined her relationship with exercise, focusing on feeling strong and fighting for her own well-being.

Vivadi concludes that the value others place on her no longer matters because she now knows that she can make herself happy.

She urges the audience to reflect on their own identity and what they want the world to know about them.

Vivadi's final message is about unleashing one's inner power and embracing personal identity, ending with the powerful statement that she is a fighter for life.

Transcripts

Transcriber: LYONNH Q Reviewer: Dana Sarhan

Sorry. Hi.

My name is.

Vivadi. Some people know me as Radio Black.

Some people doesn't know about me, of course,

but today I'm here in my favourite place, Bangkok, Thailand.

So I want to stand this beautiful stage with my beautiful Thai name, Revathi.

Thank you.

For some people who doesn't know about me, I recommend you to search my name.

Rey Lee-lo black on internet.

You may find some interesting information about me.

According to the internet, they say that my height is 175 , Clearly not.

I am 152

and they told me that I lost my parents because of Japanese yakuza,

and I learned kung fu for the revenge. That sounds like a cool action movie.

Yes, but

that is not my life story. That is the internet. Want you to believe.

That is the story that internet wants you to believe.

An adult film actress with crazy life story. That's not my story.

Some people must be now wondering,

why is this adult film actress from Japan in Thailand doing here? For this.

Ted x Bangkok. I know that there are some several topics for this Ted x Bangkok,

but the main topic is environment. See the unheard here? The unseen. Yes.

Thinking about the environment. Saving our nature.

Yes, it's very important, But think about it. We human is environment.

We belong to nature. Sometimes we take other things too seriously before we take

care of ourselves, our heart.

So today, let's hear our ignored voices of our heart. Why am I saying this?

Because every single day, from young to old, from all over the world,

asking me how can I be so confident?

I lost my confidence because people talk shit about me on the internet.

because of the internet. Some people have to face those struggles in daily basis.

That's why I'm here to give you guys some tips.

Yes, because of my profession as adult film actress, I get a lot of negativities.

Bad comments, rude emails, judgemental opinion. Yes.

Some people might think that I can ignore. I can ignore this.

But let me tell you something.

The power of the world is so powerful that once you see it, once you hear it,

you cannot forget. You cannot ignore. I cannot ignore. It's impossible.

It's stuck in your head. Can you imagine getting messages saying, oh,

you're ugly. You're fat. You're not beautiful.

Your existence means anything, doesn't mean anything. I don't know this person.

No, I don't know. But seeing people saying that I am meaningless,

it's so hurtful. Then how do I deal with it? How do I deal with it?

Here is my secret. Don't see. Don't listen . Yes, it's against our theme.

See it unheard here. And yes, I know, I remember, but.

But in this world there are some things which doesn't have to be seen or heard.

I have to admit, it gets me sometime. It eats me from inside.

I cried, I got depressed until I cannot move, move out from bed.

I couldn't eat at some point. My weight was 3635 kilo.

Sometimes I couldn't take shower for, like a week. Seven days. No shower.

It was tough. I had no energy to do basic stuff. I had no energy to feel.

I want to live.

But one day I was scrolling down my phone in my bed, no energy, and realized.

I am the one who is touching the phone. Who is touching those negativities.

Yes, I was the one who was making myself sad, miserable, unconfident.

The moment I realized I promised one thing to myself

to try keep making myself happy every single day

and stop expecting others to make me happy.

Is it easy? No, of course not. It's not. But now I know that one person.

This person is trying to make me happy every day.

And that gives me the confidence in what I have done,

what I have overcome and what I have became today as rewarding.

Some people sees me in one dimension as adult film actress. Very little black.

Yes that's true. But

outside of the lenses, I am.

Yes, Raven, a girl with law and politics degree, a company owner,

a professional gamer, a world traveler, food blogger.

And today, thanks to everybody. I became a speaker of TEDx Bangkok.

Thank you so much.

But most importantly, there is one additional statement which is added to my

light. Can you guess what it is? Can you guess? Don't say.

I am now a beginner of Muay Thai fighter.

Yes, I used to be a big gym lover. I was going to gym every single day.

I was lifting weights. I was doing squats. But

how hard I tried, how good I was in shape.

Every single day I get messages saying you're ugly, you're fat.

You don't have to go to gym because you're ugly anyway.

And then eventually I got overwhelmed and then stopped going to the gym.

But the day I first time trained Muay Thai , I felt like a fighter.

Of course it was day one. It was not like this. It was.

But still every single movement gave me the power,

the feeling that I'm strong and that I can fight with anything.

Fight against the world. Now I do exercise

for myself. I was not living life for myself,

but now I do Muay Thai to feel good, to feel strong, to pick up better myself

as a fighter of life. Now the value other people put me doesn't matter to me

anymore because I know that this person can make me happy.

This person is a fighter. This person can fight with anything.

Any people. Everyone can think anything about me

because not everyone can meet me and know. Get to know me.

Get to know my true personality. Get to know my true life story.

Get to know my real identity. But I know that

this person can make me happy. And then I'm a fighter for life.

I'm a strong, beautiful fighter for life, and that matters to me now. So

here's a question. Who are you?

What is your identity that you want people to know?

What is your true life story that you want this world to know about you.

Your power inside is waiting to be unleashed.

So today, let's hear your story. Let's hear your life story.

It was nice meeting you. My name is Rezvani Koepka.

Whoa!

Whoa whoa whoa.

Whoa, whoa.