Nurse Dies and Gets Shown the Truth About Energy and Moments (Powerful NDE)
Summary
TLDRPenny Whitbroat recounts her near-death experience in 2015 due to an allergic reaction. She describes being neglected in the ER, administering her own epinephrine, and slipping into a coma. Penny shares her out-of-body experience, meeting her deceased grandmother, and a profound encounter with God. She discusses the messages of purpose, love, and forgiveness she received, which transformed her life and inspired her to share her story with others.
Takeaways
- 🆘 Penny Whitbroat had a near-death experience due to an allergic reaction in 2015.
- 🏥 Despite having an EpiPen and previous medical training, she received inadequate care at the hospital, leading to a life-threatening situation.
- 💔 Penny experienced a sense of abandonment and distrust in the healthcare system due to the nurse's initial response.
- 🚑 Penny had to self-administer a second EpiPen dose while waiting for proper care in the ER.
- 🏃♀️ A doctor's quick response to Penny's worsening condition saved her life after she coded.
- 🛌 Penny was placed in a medically induced coma and flown to another hospital for treatment.
- 🤔 During her coma, Penny had a profound out-of-body experience, questioning her existence and reality.
- 👵 She encountered a spiritual presence that she believed to be her deceased grandmother, offering comfort and insight.
- 🌟 Penny was shown the impact of her actions and the interconnectedness of all people by a divine being.
- 🔬 The experience led Penny to a deeper understanding of her purpose and the importance of compassion and forgiveness.
- 💬 Penny decided to share her story to inspire others and spread a message of hope and purpose.
Q & A
What was the cause of Penny Whitbroat's near-death experience?
-Penny Whitbroat had a near-death experience due to an allergic reaction, which caused her to quit breathing.
Why did Penny go to the hospital?
-Penny went to the hospital because she was experiencing an allergic reaction and had difficulty breathing.
What was Penny's concern about the nurse at the hospital?
-Penny was worried about the kind of care she would receive from a particular nurse she knew from her previous work at the hospital, who initially seemed to misunderstand the seriousness of her anaphylaxis.
Why did Penny use her EpiPen before going to the hospital?
-Penny used her EpiPen because she had an established allergy to shellfish and was experiencing an allergic reaction.
How did Penny feel when she was placed in a wheelchair in the hospital?
-Penny felt that her condition was worsening and she thought she was going to die as she was left in a hallway in a wheelchair where no one could see her.
What happened when Penny gave herself the second dose of EpiPen?
-After giving herself the second dose of EpiPen, Penny's condition temporarily stabilized for about 15 minutes before her breathing issues returned.
How did Penny's medical situation change when she was moved to a room with a bed?
-Once in a room with a bed, Penny's condition deteriorated further, making it difficult for medical staff to insert an IV due to her anaphylaxis, leading to additional treatments and eventual respiratory failure.
What was Penny's experience during her time in a coma?
-While in a coma, Penny described experiencing vivid sensations of being in a dark place, struggling to breathe, and having a sense of isolation and claustrophobia.
How did Penny's perception of reality change during her near-death experience?
-Penny's perception of reality shifted dramatically as she had an out-of-body experience, observing her own body from above and interacting with a spiritual presence that she believed to be her grandmother.
What message did Penny receive from the divine presence during her NDE?
-Penny received a message of love, acceptance, and purpose from the divine presence, which reassured her that she was created on purpose for a purpose.
What decision did Penny make after her near-death experience?
-After her near-death experience, Penny decided to embrace her purpose and stop building walls around herself, choosing to live more fully and share her experience with others.
Outlines
🚑 Emergency Room Allergy Crisis
Penny Whitbroat recounts her near-death experience in 2015 due to an allergic reaction. She visited the hospital with difficulty breathing and used her EpiPen for an allergy to shellfish. Despite knowing the nurse, she was concerned about the quality of care she would receive. The nurse's initial skepticism about her condition and the lack of immediate medical attention escalated Penny's health crisis. Left in a wheelchair in an isolated hallway, her condition worsened. After self-administering a second EpiPen dose, a doctor's intervention saved her just in time. She experienced a code blue, an out-of-body experience, and was eventually placed on life support and transferred to another hospital for treatment.
🌌 Out-of-Body Experience and Darkness
Penny describes her out-of-body experience during her medical crisis. She found herself floating above her hospital bed, observing her daughter and the medical staff. She attempted to interact with her daughter but was unable to. Penny then experienced a period of darkness and isolation, which she likened to being trapped in a jail of her own making due to past emotional wounds. This黑暗, disorienting experience left her questioning her existence and reality.
👼 Encounter with Deceased Grandmother
In the darkness, Penny had a profound spiritual encounter with a large, bright spirit that turned out to be her deceased grandmother. Her grandmother reassured her of the continuity of life after death and explained the concept of energy conservation as a divine law. This meeting brought Penny comfort and a sense of connection to something greater than herself, offering her a new perspective on life and death.
🔍 Life Review and Divine Correction
Penny experienced a life review where she witnessed the impact of her actions, both positive and negative. She saw how a small act of kindness towards a stranger in a grocery store had a ripple effect that continued to help others. Conversely, she was shown how her silent judgments and negative thoughts about a coworker affected that person negatively. God corrected her, emphasizing the importance of controlling her thoughts and focusing on the good in others.
🧬 Divine DNA and Purpose
Penny was shown the interconnectedness of all things through a journey along the spirals of her DNA, culminating in a revelation that God is present even in the so-called 'junk DNA.' This experience solidified her understanding that she, and all people, are created with a purpose. She grappled with the idea of returning to life to fulfill that purpose, rather than remaining in the divine presence. Upon deciding to return, she awoke in the hospital with a renewed sense of purpose and a mission to share her story.
Mindmap
Keywords
💡Near-death experience
💡Anaphylaxis
💡EpiPen
💡Coma
💡Ventilator
💡Intravenous (IV)
💡Benadryl
💡Steroids
💡Spirituality
💡Afterlife
💡Purpose
💡DNA
Highlights
Penny Whitbroat had a near-death experience due to an allergic reaction in 2015.
She had an established allergy to shellfish and used an EpiPen.
At the hospital, she faced skepticism from a nurse about the severity of her condition.
Penny had to administer her second EpiPen dose herself due to the nurse's lack of immediate action.
She experienced stridor, indicating her airway was closing.
A doctor finally intervened after hearing Penny's stridor.
Difficulties in finding a vein led to a decision to take Penny across the hall for treatment.
Penny went into cardiac arrest and was placed on a ventilator and life flight to Lexington.
She spent five days in an induced coma.
Penny had an out-of-body experience, observing her own body from above.
She felt her daughter's fear and emotions from the out-of-body perspective.
Penny was frustrated by her inability to interact with her physical body.
She realized she had built a metaphorical wall around herself after her divorce.
Penny's grandmother appeared as a spirit, providing comfort and insight.
She was told by her grandmother that there's no death, only a change of forms.
Penny experienced a vision of God, who confirmed her purpose and existence.
God showed her the impact of a small act of kindness she had done years prior.
Penny learned the importance of controlling her thoughts and focusing on the good in others.
She was given a message to share her experience with the world.
Penny's decision to return to life and fulfill her purpose.
Her experience led to a significant change in her perspective on life and relationships.
Transcripts
my name's penny whitbroat and in 2015 i had a near-death experience when i had an allergic
reaction and i quit breathing so i had gone to the hospital wasn't sure what i was having a
reaction to and i had an epipen because i had an established allergy to shellfish so i had
used that i got to the hospital the nurse that was there i knew because i had worked at that hospital
and i was a little worried about the kind of care i would get not necessarily from the hospital but
that particular nurse and so when i walked in she said you know what do you need to be seen
for and i'm wheezing and looking up and i can't breathe and and so i barely can speak and i'm like
i'm having an allergic reaction and and i set the empty epipen on the counter so she could see that
i had taken that and she's like well if you took that why did you come here and i thought oh great
you know i'm gonna die she doesn't even understand the basics of anaphylaxis and to be fair we don't
see a ton of it in the er but we do see it so she takes me back and she says you know we don't have
a bed so i'm gonna put you in a wheelchair they had a clean room but not a bed i'm like i don't
need a bed she's like no no you have to wait till we get to bed so she puts me in a wheelchair and
rolls me down this hallway that leads to the bathroom and the doctor's sleeping quarters
so nobody's down there and i'm just sitting in this hall by myself where no one can see
me and it's just getting worse and worse and i was having to look up to be able to breathe and
and i thought i'm gonna die and so luckily epipens come in two packs so i went ahead in the er gave
myself my second dose and that held me for i don't know maybe another 15 minutes and then i started
having strider which is this really squeaky breathing sound you have as your airway closes and
a doctor heard it and she stuck her head down the hall and she's like oh my gosh so she runs down
the hall gets the wheelchair wheels me into the room that has a bed and they get me up there and
now because i'm in anaphylaxis my veins have all kind of flattened out they can't get an iv in me
it's a very very bad position to be in she's like we're going across the hall and i thought oh no
they're going to end up coding me because that's trauma you know and i worked there so i know what
the trauma room's for and i had nurses on either side trying to put ivs in and they were all just
really sketchy and like this thing's not going to hold up and they're giving me shots of benadryl
and shots of steroids and more epinephrine and more epinephrine and by the time my husband got
there he walked in and i'm sitting straight up in the bed looking up and just you know tears
because i couldn't breathe and he gets the doctor he's like you got to do something she's going to
quit breathing and the doctor's like oh no no we've we've got plenty of time and i remember
hearing that and then everything kind of started feeling very like i was in a tunnel or something
not like a tunnel of light but if you've ever passed out that kind of distant feeling where
voices sound far away and and i thought that this is it and so i quit breathing fell over and they
called the code and i was out of my body at that point looking down and i didn't recognize me and
i thought oh man she's in rough shape she's the one that's coding you know i hope she does okay
and i saw everybody run in and kind of as they were running in my husband was being pushed
out of the room and that's it you know i didn't wake up so they induced a coma and put me on the
ventilator put me on a life flight to lexington put drilled an iv into my shin which i didn't know
could be done funny as a nurse you'd think i'd know that but yeah they've got like a little
dremel and they just screw that thing right into your shin bone and they can give you
drugs that way so that was good so they take me off to lexington and i spend i want to say
five days in an induced coma before i can come off the ventilator but in that time
the first thing that happened was i kind of came back too and i was in my sister's car
and she lived in wisconsin at the time and she was driving to get to kentucky and it was pouring rain
late at night and i'm like what is she doing out this late the weather's terrible you know
i wonder if something's happened to the kids and and so she pulls over at this gas station
underneath this canopy and she puts her hand in her purse and pulls out her phone and so i lean
over and her clothes are wrinkled and mismatched and i'm like what the did she like get dressed
in the dark what is going on here you know so she pulls out her phone and she types in hang on kiddo
i'm coming which was kind of interesting because i saw that after i came out of the coma and you
know had a confirmation of it then you know i saw that and then i was back in this dark place so i'm
in this place and it's dark like a lot of people haven't really experienced complete darkness but
it was completely dark and i couldn't determine how big it was how small it was because it was
so dark but i had an image of me there somehow i couldn't figure out like what was holding me
and i try to move and i can't move and it feels like something's holding me down and it feels like
i'm really having to struggle to breathe and i'm super claustrophobic so that totally freaked me
out and i had like this panic attack and then this i called it the deep sleep the deep sleep would
just come and like take over and then i would be asleep and i'd wake up and this goes on and on
for i always tell people if i had to give it a time what it felt like compared to time here
because time there is so different it was about 10 years and i keep going in and out and i'm
what am i doing here what is this place have i died did i ever exist and it went on for so long
that i started to question if i'd ever really existed i thought maybe i've been here so long
maybe something terrible happened and you know i was cast away to this place and i've just made up
that whole life just to have something to think about and cling to and you know why is no one
looking for me and and i just i couldn't figure out what was going on and something tells me
or i get this inclination to lean forward and so when i say lean forward i don't mean like at the
waist i mean lean forward like this and when i did it all of me went like that like a plank the
direction that i was pointed in i could move that direction and i'm like oh my gosh i can move this
is incredible and so i saw like a light way off on the left and i thought okay i'll go that way so i
turn my body and i'm now flying crazy fast that direction and you can't see anything super dark
and i'm thinking man i hope i'm in an open space or i'm gonna you know run right into something so
i get to that light section it's kind of like a barrier and there's something on the other side
and so i just kind of kept staring and kept staring and eventually it got clear and i could
see me laying in a hospital bed on the other side and my daughter was there and she was standing to
my right but kind of behind me in front of the ventilator i remember looking at her shirt and
for some reason i knew it was summer i had that in my head and i thought why is she wearing a flannel
shirt in the summer you know she's so funny that way and i looked at the from where i was which i
would say was felt like you know maybe 30 feet away i could see the fabric on that shirt and i
knew what it would feel like and i'm like whoa that's weird and i knew what she was thinking
which was weird because i never know what she's thinking she's a very private person i started
kind of taking you know surveying the room i could see that i was in soft restraints so that i
couldn't move my hands i looked to see what drugs i was on and i looked at my vital signs and i'm
like okay i'm critical but stable i'm in a coma because i know what those drugs are used for and
apparently i'm just in a coma or something and i'll wake up and i'll be all back together again
and i thought well this is great you know hopefully i survive and i can get back in or i
die and things get straightened out over here so i'm not stuck in this dark place and i kind
of refocused and was looking at my daughter and i could feel her feelings and hear her thoughts
and she was scared and she's like the most stoic person i've ever met and it just broke my heart
that she was scared because it's not anything she would ever even tell me you know and so i
put my hands out to to grab her and pull her to me and hug her and my hands hit the wall and i
just lost it i don't know what's going on here i was sure that you know it had something to do with
god and i was like what are you doing you know why would you torment me like this you know what have
i done that's that's earned me this and i just was so frustrated and enraged and i got sucked
back into the darkness and so i wake up again and i'm like okay you know how to move now let's go
so i go back toward the left i get to the light and the barrier and the barrier instead of being
hard this time is more like a bubble and so i put my hand to touch it and my hand went through
and i'm like oh that's so cool and so i put my other hand through and i'm like okay do i just
like can i just pop in over there and i did i just went right through and i was over me and i was
looking down at the bed and i made it over like what do i do now do i like lay down on top of me
and will i get sucked back in and then i'll wake up and everything will be okay or i wasn't sure
what to do you don't get instructions or anything it's crazy and so i was staring at the me in the
bed and i was trying to get her to open her eyes and i'm like come on you know open your eyes and
i'm just trying to will it and it's not happening and so i'm getting mad and i thought okay now calm
down you don't want to get mad and get sucked back and it's too big let's just get her to move
her finger you know that would be something i'm looking at at my finger in the bed and i'm like
come on move your finger move your damn it she won't move her finger you know and it just i was
it's the most frustrating thing i've ever done and so i got sucked back but just onto the other side
of the wall i didn't get sucked all the way back and i started thinking i'm like okay this can't be
accidental i must be here for a reason there's got to be something i'm supposed to figure out
or learn how did i get in this place and just kind of like from my spirit it comes out you
made this place i wasn't even shocked by it i heard it and i'm like that's true i did
so when i was on this side after my divorce i had just kind of closed myself off because
i'd been so hurt by that and more so hurt about the abandonment of the kids you know that just
broke my heart and i thought you know i'm never going to get into another relationship and people
like i enjoyed working and had friends at work i didn't socialize with anybody outside of work i
have social anxiety anyway and so like i would get really stressed at answering the phone or
and it was just getting worse and worse and so i had just completely kind of built this wall
around myself to protect me from ever being hurt again and you know the things that you build up
here are stored up in heaven and you have to deal with them whether they're good or bad you know and
so that's what this was this was this physical manifestation of this isolation the jail that
i had built imprisoned myself in thinking i was somehow safe maybe i was safe but i wasn't living
and so when i realized that there was this crack and then where the crack happened and light
started coming through and i was over the moon i was like oh my gosh there's i'm gonna get out i'm
gonna get out of this this is great and so this whole thing is cracking open almost like an egg
and this big big bright spirit starts coming toward me and i'm like oh my gosh there's other
people or things or whatever here i'm not alone you know and so this this spirit who's female
comes to me and she's just huge she's huge she's grand you know not just big in size she puts her
arms out and i'm immediately drawn into her arms without her touching me and she's holding me to
her chest and these the darkness is breaking apart in shards and it's she's got this like whirlwind
of energy that's going around us and as the shards would come and hit her energy they would
be flung off and then they would be gone they couldn't fly around anymore they disappeared
and so she was like just with her energy casting away the darkness and it just was getting brighter
and brighter and i'm crying like ugly crying i mean i was just overwhelmed that there was
somebody there and i didn't initially know who she was and so i'm freaking out and she says um
calm yourself dear one just in her mind and i hear it in my mind i always tell people if you've ever
had surgery when they start giving you that drug to put you to sleep you can't fight it
but you feel it course through you and that's what it was like it was like her words broke down
and coursed through my body and caused exactly what she wanted to have happened to happen
and so then i was calm and and i thought okay who who is she she's so familiar and so i look up and
she's got these brilliant green eyes and and i look up further and then on the top of her head
it looks like flames and it's this orange red hair and i knew who she was i'm like oh my gosh it's my
grandma it was amazing to see her on that side she died when i was nine or ten and so i looked at her
and i'm like you're alive and she's like of course i'm alive and she's like there's no death you know
this you learn this and i'm like no i don't think so and she's like yes you learned this when you
were really little remember she says energy can't be created or destroyed it just changes
forms that's god's law borrowed by man and i was like of course of course that makes perfect sense
i had all i'd always been a believer and i had believed in god and was hoping there was heaven
you know we're all hoping for that but i didn't feel like i had any real assurance of it and there
she was giving me this assurance based on science you know that you do you do go on it we can't
extinguish your light it has to become something else and she was just so comforting to me and she
was holding me and just very very sweet and i kind of got lost in that and when i came back
to myself i realized i was alone and i was just floating in the light you know just was enjoying
it it was really nice and and then all of a sudden everything shook it was more like an earthquake
from the beginning of time to the end of time like things that didn't even exist yet were shaking it
was crazy i could feel it all the way to my middle and and i knew it was god and so i immediately
tried to start thinking of good things that i had done because i'm like he can read my mind
you know pull something good up to the front because i don't know you know i mean there's been
some bad and i don't want him to lead with that and i couldn't think of anything i've been a nurse
i mean i could have thought of a million things but i was stumped and all of a sudden there's this
light and it's much brighter than the light that i'm in and it gets closer and closer and he says
i am and i had heard that a million times you know the great i am all these different things
and i never really understood it but you know he was making this declaration and that the creator
of everything was here and i really understood it in that moment when he said that you know i am i'm
the one who made you i'm the creator of everything you know everything exists as i will it so and
it was just crazy and and so i'm still trying to think of good things i got nothing and so i
get this sense that we're gonna look at my life and and he starts with good which i appreciated
and he shows the situation where i'm at a store and the lady in front of me doesn't have enough
to pay for her groceries just since and she's trying to figure out what to put back and i
remember how that got me in my gut because i had been that single mom for years and
you know you always put back the thing that that you need not the thing that your kid would enjoy
and so she's like well you know and you'd see her putting back like moisturizer and you know she's
not going to put the kids mac and cheese back and and i'm like oh so been there and so i fish in my
purse and i get the what she's short and i hand it to her and she doesn't want to take it and she's
just super embarrassed and i'm like it's okay i've been there take it you know don't put anything
back and it just broke my heart for her and he showed me that situation played out years ahead
and she's working as a volunteer in this food pantry and this woman comes in and doesn't have
enough food and she's humiliated and embarrassed and she's like it's okay i've been there you know
she packs up this lady's groceries and i thought wow i never thought it that far forward i thought
it was a nice thing to do that day but i didn't think it would impact her or anyone else i mean
i'd done some really much bigger things and i was thinking i was kind of a little put out by that
i'm like wow i did this huge nothing you want to talk about that incredible thing i did you know
not just this but it was that thing that explained to me that what your purpose is in the moment that
you're in it's not some huge big brand thing everybody's trying to figure out where are you
right now who can you help and and that was the importance that i didn't ignore that and so then
he shows me the bad and it was this woman that i worked with who was terrible if you were a patient
you didn't want that nurse if you were working a hall you didn't want to work it with her and
she just was kind of it just didn't feel like she was very attentive to her patients i was always
answering her call lights and her iv alarms and i just i never said anything negative to her never
talked about her because i hate gossip but in my heart i was holding this you know over her and um
god flashed back and showed me her whole life and showed me the things that her dad had done to her
for years and i mean it was amazing that she wasn't a psychopath and here having been used
in her whole life what does she decide to dedicate her career to helping other people and i'm like is
she doing a great job no but i mean considering where she came from she's doing great and god's
like you have to control your thoughts you're having all these negative thoughts about her
and that has energy and you're putting it on her and you're making it harder for her to be who who
i intended her to be you're you're chaining her and i felt so bad i thought i was doing so well
by not speaking those things and not gossiping and not being hateful to people but if you're walking
around harboring it you're injuring them just the same and and he's like you know you have to look
for the good in her and capitalize on that and then i felt so bad that i hadn't done that because
i had such an opportunity to do it you know to point out any good that she did i could have
done that and it changed me it was good there's a million things that happen that i never get
to talk about because it would take weeks but at that point i'm trying to decide you know whether
i trust god and i want to let god in and because i knew he knew me and knew everything about me
and i just didn't know whether i wanted to let that kind of power have any sway over me and so
i was standing there and and i had to make this choice you know was i going to kind of surrender
myself to god and i thought okay i will and his energy kind of this light came through my toes up
my legs into my middle and it was like a cloak it was swirling around inside me like healing
hurts and all these things that i didn't even remember were problems and went up and it went
around my heart and up through my throat in my mouth and i was able to sing just these beautiful
songs and i i'm like where is that coming from i'm a terrible singer and then it kind of came up
and it was going to come out of my eyes and it was so warm and so accepting and loving that i didn't
want to let it out so i squeezed my eyes shut and it shot through my eyelashes and my eyelids
and hit the light that was got on the outside of me and then came rushing back in went up through
all the different curves in my brain and was lighting up my brain and everything i had never
understood i understood and everything i didn't know that i didn't know i knew and you know he
blocked that i didn't get to have that coming back but it was amazing in that moment like everything
finally made sense so we kind of go through that moment and we're gonna go through this journey i
wasn't understanding like if we were gonna go over and i was gonna stay permanently or what was going
to happen but i knew i had to make a decision on this part too and i got all kind of irritated
inside and i was like whoa whoa whoa wait a minute you know you're you're overwhelming me with all
this love and goodness and stuff but where were you when my boys were struggling and my daughter
where were you when their dad left you know where were you when they walked to the mailbox every day
to get something he promised to them that never came where were you you know it was one thing for
me to struggle through that divorce but they were kids you know these are innocent children where
were you and it was pointed and i was angry and and he didn't even like flinch at that you know
he he understood and he's like oh dear one you've completely misunderstood me let me show you and so
he flashes forward and i can see i'm i'm sitting in the seat in the bleachers next to my son and my
oldest grandchild is playing soccer so at the time when i had when i quit breathing and had all this
medical issue he was two but in this vision he's five and so he's running up and down the field
and i remember looking at him and seeing the sun on his skin and on his hair and just being like
wow he's just so alive you know and he's running and my son looks over to me and he says mom i'm
gonna be the dad to him that i deserved and i'm like you're breaking that chain you're breaking
that cycle of broken homes and and absent fathers and you're doing that through you know my kids and
it still gets me every time and i thought okay you know if we had to be the generation to take that
hurt to be able to turn it around okay then it's okay and it made sense to me and you know i've
since shared that with my son but so when when my grandson was five i was actually at a soccer game
and my son actually looked at me and said that and i was like okay you know because you get really
far out if you have a fantastical experience the further out you get from it the more you kind of
question it you're like well you know but that confirmed that was god's confirmation for me in
that moment and he's like keep going forward you know you're on the right track and it just was so
important when i saw that i just i just completely was okay to let myself be 100 vulnerable to god
and so i just opened up and he grabbed my hand and we started going through the spirals of my dna
and i was you know looking at everything and as we would go through a strand i could feel
it like stroke over my skin and i was like oh my gosh that's just amazing and we're going and it's
super fast we're going really really fast and we get down to this one spot he just stops like you
know hitting a wall and he says do you see me and and i'm like well yeah you're everywhere of
course i see you and he's like no and he points to this spot in my dna and he's like right there
do you see me and i looked and i did and it was in that that part of our dna that they call junk dna
that we don't know what that dna does and and i it was funny because it hadn't actually been that
long ago that i had read about junk dna and he was right there and i was like oh my gosh
you're in me and he's like yes i'm your father just like your father is your father you can say
he's not but we could do testing and figure out that he is he's your biological father whether
you want to admit it or not and i'm your father whether people want to admit it or not and it just
blew me away and so i knew at that point that if we went past that then i was staying and i'm like
all right i'm in let's stay you know and i felt like so loved and accepted like i didn't have
to do another thing a lot of us have this idea that you've got to constantly be doing for god to
be loved you know you have to be doing something that measures up and it wasn't like that he loved
me because he made me you know and he adored me and he thought me up and i i remember thinking
you know how long did he think of me because i thought of my children before i had them and
when i first got pregnant what would they be like and what would their lives be like and and
i thought it can't be much different for god you know he's knitting you together and he's got to
be you know kind of seeing you live out your life and i thought how long did he think of me before
he decided to make me and he made me on purpose he could have made somebody else but i'm on
purpose for a purpose and i'd never really gotten that and i looked back at my life and i thought
you've wasted it you know yes you're a nurse and you you're raising good kids and all this stuff
but you've not fulfilled your purpose and if you check out now i mean it's like cheating you just
quit you're just a quitter and i didn't want to be a quitter you know and i felt like i had not
embraced everything that i am by being a creation of god by building that wall around me and i
thought okay well could i go back i didn't know and i thought could i go back and tear down the
wall and i thought i could do that that would be a start and so i made that decision to go back
and he immediately started pulling pulling away i could feel that distance and i started to cry and
and so i wake up i'm in the hospital room there's a nurse sitting beside the bed and
she's like oh you're back and i look at her and i said i was with god and she's like oh that's
nice dear i'm like no no i mean like just a minute ago i was with god and she's like oh
that's good let me go get your family so she goes and gets the family and i'm like i was with god i
mean just a minute ago i was with god and they're like that's good and they're looking at the nurse
and she's like well maybe everybody should leave you know she's just just been off the
vent for a little while we don't want to wear her out and so she sends everybody away and
she leaves the room and turns the lights off and pulls this curtain in front of this glass
like wall that's in that room so they can see you and god reappears like in the room and it
scared me and i screamed because i didn't expect him just to pop in and he laughed
i'm like oh you scared me and so he laughs he's like why did i scare you and i'm like
well you i thought you were gone he says i'm never gone i'm like well i know you're never gone but
you don't just pop into rooms like that that's startling you know and he thought it was funny
and so he had given me this message and he's like i want you to share this message with the world
and you know that he is god and he is the creator and that we are made on purpose for a purpose and
one of my friends who always called and checked on me called me and he was always asking me to
do this speaking engagement for the international association of near-death studies has a support
group up in simsy and i always said no or thought of a reason not to do it because i have terrible
social anxiety and he called and i said yes before i could stop myself and he was shocked he was like
what i'm like just hang up now or i'm gonna make something up just go and i've said yes ever since
i've not had another episode of respiratory failure things slowly started to settle down
you know we got some answers as to what was going on with me but it's been quite a journey [Music]
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