Why I Disappeared...

Summary

After a significant hiatus, the YouTuber returns with an emotional update, sharing the unexpected and difficult experience of his girlfriend's miscarriage, which led to his unplanned break. He reassures viewers of his commitment to return, expressing gratitude for their support and comments. He discusses his move to a new house, which now includes a dedicated workspace, and hints at a possible return to content creation, particularly focusing on Rocket League's upcoming Season 16. The YouTuber also contemplates live streaming and acknowledges the support from his esports team, Endpoint, during his challenging period.

Takeaways

• 🎥 The YouTuber is back after a long break and plans to update his audience on what happened during the absence.
• ❤️ The YouTuber's girlfriend, Rachel, experienced a miscarriage, which was a significant and unplanned event that deeply affected him.
• 🏠 He has moved to a new house with Rachel, which has a dedicated room for filming, indicating a commitment to his content creation.
• 📅 The return coincides with the start of season 16 in Rocket League, suggesting that gaming content will be a focus for upcoming videos.
• 🎮 He is considering creating content around the new Rocket League season, indicating a likely return to his gaming roots.
• 📹 There's a possibility of live streaming on Twitch or YouTube, showing an interest in interactive content creation.
• 🤝 The YouTuber expresses gratitude to his esports team, Endpoint, for their support during his challenging time.
• 🏆 He participated in the EU Rumble open with teammates Max and Digital Kiwi, achieving a respectable result despite the difficult circumstances.
• 🔄 The absence from content creation was due to personal reasons, and he assures his audience that he would inform them if he ever decides to quit YouTube permanently.
• 📢 He invites viewers to engage with him by subscribing, turning on notifications, liking, and commenting on his videos to show support for his return.

Q & A

What was the reason for the YouTuber's long break from making videos?

The YouTuber took a break due to a personal tragedy; his girlfriend, Rachel, experienced a miscarriage, which was an unexpected and difficult event that deeply affected him.

How did the YouTuber's audience react to his absence?

The audience left sweet comments and nostalgic messages across social media platforms, showing their support and concern for the YouTuber's well-being.

What was the YouTuber's commitment to his audience regarding future content?

The YouTuber assured his audience that if he ever decides to quit making YouTube videos, he will inform them through a farewell video.

What significant life event did the YouTuber experience during his break?

The YouTuber moved into a new house with his girlfriend, Rachel, and set up a dedicated workspace for creating content.

What is the YouTuber's plan regarding content creation upon his return?

The YouTuber plans to create content related to the new season of Rocket League, and is considering live streaming on Twitch or YouTube.

How does the YouTuber feel about the removal of trading in Rocket League?

The YouTuber agrees with the audience that the removal of trading in Rocket League is unfortunate, as it limits the content he can create independently.

What community event did the YouTuber participate in during his break?

The YouTuber hosted the Endpoint Community Games night on Twitch, which was a live interactive event with his audience.

What support did the YouTuber receive from his esports team during his break?

The YouTuber received support from his esports team, Endpoint Esports, who were understanding and supportive during his difficult time.

What was the outcome of the EU Rumble Open tournament for the YouTuber and his team?

The YouTuber, along with Max and Digital Kiwi, participated in the EU Rumble Open and reached the top 16 or 17th place, losing to Dignitas in the lower bracket.

How does the YouTuber plan to engage with his audience moving forward?

The YouTuber encourages his audience to subscribe, turn on notifications, and leave comments to stay engaged with his content and to provide feedback.

Outlines

00:00

🔔 Return to YouTube After a Long Break

The YouTuber expresses his gratitude for the warm reception following a significant hiatus. He clarifies that despite rumors, he has not quit and intends to inform his audience if he ever does. He explains the unplanned nature of his absence, which was due to his girlfriend experiencing a miscarriage, an event that deeply affected him and disrupted his content creation routine. He also shares his current living situation with Rachel in a new home, which now includes a dedicated workspace for his videos. The YouTuber is considering creating content for the upcoming Rocket League Season 16 and is open to the idea of live streaming on Twitch or YouTube.

05:01

🏆 Reflecting on the EU Rumble Open and Gratitude

The content creator discusses his participation in the EU Rumble Open with his teammates, where they achieved a respectable result despite losing to the former world champions, Dignitas. He acknowledges the support from his team, Endpoint Esports, during his personal challenges and thanks them for their understanding. He also appreciates the support from his audience across various social media platforms and reassures them of his commitment to returning to regular content creation. He invites viewers to engage with him through likes, comments, and subscriptions to stay updated with his upcoming videos.

Keywords

💡YouTube

YouTube is a video-sharing platform where users can upload, share, and view videos. In the context of the video script, YouTube is the primary platform where the content creator shares his videos. The script mentions a 'longest break' in the creator's YouTube career, indicating a period of inactivity on this platform.

💡Miscarriage

A miscarriage is the loss of a pregnancy before the 20th week. It is a deeply personal and emotional event. In the video, the creator shares that his partner experienced a miscarriage, which was an unexpected and difficult event that deeply affected him and contributed to his break from creating content.

💡Rocket League

Rocket League is a popular video game that involves players controlling rocket-powered cars to hit a ball into the opponent's goal. The script mentions 'season 15 in rocket league' and the upcoming 'season 16,' indicating that the creator typically creates content related to this game, and the new season is a potential opportunity for new content.

💡Twitch

Twitch is a live streaming platform focused on video game live streaming. The creator mentions hosting a 'Community games night' on Twitch, suggesting that he is considering live streaming as a way to interact with his audience and create content.

💡Nostalgic

Nostalgic refers to a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past. The script mentions that people were uploading 'nostalgic pick a pixel videos' and tagging the creator, indicating that his past content has left a lasting impression on his audience.

💡Farewell Video

A farewell video would be a final message or content piece from a creator to their audience, signaling their departure. The creator reassures his audience that if he ever decides to quit making YouTube videos, he will inform them through a farewell video.

💡Daily Uploads

Daily uploads refer to the practice of consistently uploading new content every day. The creator mentions that he had been uploading daily Rocket League content for nearly eight years, indicating a high level of commitment to his channel and audience.

💡Community

Community here refers to the group of fans or followers that engage with the creator's content. The script mentions the community's response and involvement, such as participating in games nights and expressing concern for the creator's absence, showing a strong community bond.

💡Endpoint Esports

Endpoint Esports is a professional esports organization that the creator is signed with. The script mentions the support he received from Endpoint during his difficult period, highlighting the role of the esports organization in his career and personal life.

💡EU Rumble Open

The EU Rumble Open is a competitive gaming tournament, specifically for Rocket League in this context. The creator discusses his participation in the tournament with teammates, indicating his active involvement in the gaming community and competitive scene.

💡Tik Tok

Tik Tok is a social media platform known for its short-form videos. The creator mentions having a significant following on Tik Tok and considering creating 'Day in the Life' videos there, showing his presence on multiple platforms and exploring different content formats.

Highlights

The YouTuber returns after the longest break in their career.

The YouTuber received tons of sweet comments and support from the community during their absence.

A commitment to inform the audience if they ever decide to quit making YouTube videos.

The YouTuber's girlfriend, Rachel, experienced a miscarriage, which deeply affected the content creator.

The YouTuber's plan to keep making videos despite the challenging personal situation.

The YouTuber moved houses and set up a dedicated workspace for creating content.

Season 16 of Rocket League is starting, and the YouTuber plans to create content around it.

The YouTuber considers pivoting to different types of content beyond Rocket League.

Participation in the Endpoint Community Games night on Twitch.

The YouTuber is considering live streaming more frequently, possibly on both YouTube and Twitch.

The YouTuber agrees with the community's sentiment about the removal of trading in Rocket League.

The YouTuber has been active on TikTok, gaining nearly a quarter of a million followers.

Gratitude expressed to the team at Endpoint Esports for their support during the YouTuber's absence.

The YouTuber, Max, and Digital Kiwi participated in the EU Rumble Open, achieving a top 16 finish.

The YouTuber acknowledges the audience's concern for their well-being and shares a brief update on their situation.

A call to action for viewers to subscribe, turn on notifications, and engage with the video by liking and commenting.

Transcripts

ladies and gentlemen I am back after the

longest break in my YouTube career I

have returned and A lot's changed a lot

happened and I want to update you in

this video first of all I had tons of

comments across all sorts of social

media YouTube Twitter Tik Tok was the

main one there were people uploading

nostalgic pick a pixel videos and

tagging me in the comments and all the

comments were so so sweet and I really

do appreciate that it's been a big help

with coming back to making videos I just

want to quickly say a lot of people said

have you quit or why have you quit just

want to say if I ever do stop making

YouTube videos and I know that's

happening I will at least let you know I

will at least do a farewell video so if

you don't see that I am coming back at

some point I'm not going to long this

video out I'm going to tell you what

happened and why the break happened

because it was not planned I actually

had a bunch of videos to make and at the

start of June we had season 15 in rocket

League now obviously in a couple of days

season 16 begins and there has been no

content from me so right around the time

season 15 started unfortunately I went

through the most difficult thing that

I've ever had to go through uh my

girlfriend partner Rachel had a

miscarriage and we weren't expecting

that of course no one that tries to have

a baby expects that she's been

absolutely incredible and I don't know

what I'd do without her honestly but

yeah that hit me really really hard I

had all those videos I plann to make and

then as soon as it happened right around

the time season 15 started I wasn't even

at home to make videos I was with her

trying to look after her as best as

possible going to the hospital that sort

of thing and mentally that was

challenging and then I completely got

out of the habit of making videos and

obviously you guys got out of the habit

of watching me I wasn't a part of your

daily routine anymore and obviously this

was off the back of me not doing daily

uploads anyway I probably did like an

average of an upload a video a week for

the few months that led up to it and

then right as I was planning to get into

regular videos that happened I'm very

pleased to say that whilst then I was N

I am now living with Rachel in our own

house that's why the background is

different I haven't done anything to

this room yet but this is the room and

it's the biggest room I believe that

I've had to work in in my life that's

dedicated to be my work room because the

room I had before was also my bedroom

everything I owned was pretty much in

that room this is now exclusively the

filming room which is very very cool so

yeah that leads me on to what happens

now so as I just said I've moved house

setup all of this today and I'm

recording this and you are watching this

today I'm recording on the 2nd of

September and hopefully you're watching

it on the 2nd of September 2024 and then

season 16 in rocket League starts on the

4th but is that my go-to plan let's have

a talk about it it's kind of good and

bad that season 16 coincides with me

coming back to YouTube because if I want

to Pivot and do some other kind of

content it's much more difficult to do

that when rocket league for the first

time in a few months is releasing a new

season I am going to be tempted to make

videos on that so I will probably

whether they're long form or short form

at the very least make some season 16

videos and that in my head is where I'm

leaning towards I'll make this video

just have a chat with you in the

comments I'll be reading all the

comments so just drop one down there and

then at the very least I'll be making

some really cool shorts about the new

season in rocket league but that brings

me on to something else I recently took

part in the endpoint Community games

night which I hosted over on Twitch

twitch.tv/ pickapixel you can go in

click that link in the description and

if I do go live you will know if you

follow me over there because I'm

thinking I might do what I did a few

years ago and that was where I would

live stream multiple times a week it was

tons of fun and essentially make videos

live with you guys now that was a lot

easier when I had crates to open and

stuff like that to do but it kind of

killed two birds with one stone for lack

of a better phrase I could live stream

to the people that are available to

watch it and then I could make

highlights and a really good video out

of that allinone for YouTube and with no

trading which by the way that is by far

the most common comment I've got it's

people saying I wish they brought back

trading it sucks they got rid of trading

and I completely agree with you but

obviously whilst trading is gone there's

a lot less content I can just film on my

own whereas if it's live and interactive

there's probably more stuff I can do and

potentially I could always go to another

game I could pivot to an entirely

different style of content I've dabbled

with doing Day in the Life videos sort

of over on Tik Tok if you don't follow

me on Tik Tok we at nearly quarter of a

million followers from the 100 day

challenge I did a few years ago so if

you want to drop me a follow there why

not do that so I am considering doing

live content I'm also whether that's on

YouTube YouTu or twitch that is

definitely a consideration but also I do

just want to say a massive thank you to

endpoint they are the team that I am

currently signed with endpoint Esports

and also in the throws of everything

that was happening at the start of June

I then still went out to Birmingham and

did the endpoint CeX event where I met a

bunch of you played games with you and I

had a lot of fun even though it was a

difficult time I had a lot of fun

getting out there and meeting you lot

and I just want to say once again to

everyone at endpoint the staff they've

been so great at fac itting what has

kind of happened over the last couple of

months it's not ideal for anyone that I

kind of disappear from making online

content but they've been nothing but

supportive and I sincerely do appreciate

that and also speaking of endpoint

myself Max and digital kiwi entered the

EU Rumble open we managed to get I think

we got top 16 or like 17th place or

something like that we ended up losing

to dignitas who ended up finishing

second in the whole thing we lost to

them in a best of three 21 so we weren't

disgraced but dignitas then went on to

wipe the entire lower bracket and then

uh actually forced a grand final reset

as well so it's not disgraceful to lose

2-1 to the ex- reigning world champions

of Rocket League I would say we played

okay in the tournament definitely not as

well as we could have done I think if we

were playing our best we would have won

the upper bracket match that sent us to

the lower bracket to face dignitas as it

happened and then we would have been

into day three and potentially could

have caused some upsets there because we

came closest to beating dignitas out of

everyone in the lower bracket on day

three so it could have been different if

we just played slightly better on the

second day but regardless it was a lot

of fun so I don't necessarily want to

keep you for too much longer but thank

you so much to everyone that's come back

to the channel left nice comments ask me

how I am whether that's on Twitter or

like I said on Tik Tok even Instagram

DMS there's people on any social media

platform you can think of that have

messaged me hoping that I'm okay at the

very least and uh I obviously wasn't

going to share what was going on with

you whilst it was happening but I've

already spoken to Rachel about and she

said it's okay for me to mention it in

this video briefly just to kind of

explain where I've been because it is a

long absence and it's not like me to do

that we've uploaded daily rocket league

for like seven years so it's nearly

eight years actually so it's it's very

unlike me to disappear and I hope you

can understand and if not that's fine

you know all I would say if you are

excited for the return is to subscribe

down below and turn on the Bell so you

don't miss any videos drop a like and

leave a comment as well and that is

going to do it for me in this video just

the first one back it's kind of strange

getting back into it especially filming

standing up I haven't had the room to do

this in the past but it's been a lot of

fun I can't wait to edit it I can't wait

to see your comments and I can't wait to

see you in the next video very soon