I Relapsed...
Summary
TLDRIn this reflective video, the speaker reveals his decision to withdraw from competitive bodybuilding, citing a lack of passion and the negative impact on his health, marriage, and business. He discusses his previous use of steroids and the pressures of maintaining a competitive physique, acknowledging the sacrifices involved. The speaker expresses his new focus on supporting others in their fitness journeys and finding fulfillment in mentoring rather than pursuing personal athletic glory.
Takeaways
- 🚫 The speaker has decided to stop using steroids and will no longer pursue a competitive bodybuilding career.
- 💔 The initial reason for stopping steroids was to prioritize health and focus on marriage and business, but the speaker has since relapsed.
- 🏋️♂️ The speaker's venture into bodybuilding was an attempt to draw attention to his brand, which he now acknowledges was a mistake.
- 💼 He admits that using bodybuilding to boost his brand was a 'cowardly approach' and not the best strategy for business growth.
- 🤔 The speaker reflects on his lack of passion for bodybuilding as a competitive sport and the negative impact it had on his personal life.
- 🔄 At 29 years old, his aspirations have shifted from seeking fame and records to focusing on a stable and secure future with his wife.
- 🚫 The speaker is pulling out of a competition he had previously committed to, recognizing that the motivation was wrong.
- 💊 Steroid use is seen as compromising his health, integrity, and trust with his audience, and is against his long-term goals.
- 🏆 He expresses admiration for those who can balance a professional bodybuilding career with personal and business life, acknowledging it's not for him.
- 🛑 The speaker is stepping away from the extreme lifestyle required for professional bodybuilding, citing the negative effects on his mental and physical well-being.
- 🌟 He aspires to be a mentor, helping others discover their potential and providing opportunities for them to shine.
Q & A
Why did the speaker initially stop using steroids?
-The speaker initially stopped using steroids to stop compromising their health, ensure a happy and healthy marriage with their wife, and to focus more on their business in PR and the gym.
What challenges did the speaker face with their company PR that led to a relapse into using steroids?
-The speaker faced several challenges with their company PR that led them into panic mode, making a decision to pursue bodybuilding to bring more attention to their brand and help it recover.
Why did the speaker consider bodybuilding as a way to improve their brand?
-The speaker thought that by becoming a bodybuilder and possibly winning a Pro card, they could attract more attention to their brand, which they believed would help their business.
What does the speaker identify as the main mistake in their approach to building their brand through bodybuilding?
-The speaker identifies the main mistake as taking a 'coward approach' out of fear of venturing into the mindset of a businessman and abandoning what they know best, which is creating content and generating sales.
How does the speaker describe their passion for bodybuilding?
-The speaker describes their passion for bodybuilding as not being from a place of love for the sport itself but rather from a place of desperation and a desire to gain fame and attention.
What changes in the speaker's life and aspirations have led them to reconsider their decision to compete as a bodybuilder?
-The speaker is now 29 years old, has a wife, and has more responsibilities. Their aspirations have changed dramatically, and they no longer wish to pursue a competitive athlete's lifestyle that compromises their health and personal life.
Why does the speaker feel that going back on steroids is against their values and commitments?
-The speaker feels that going back on steroids compromises their health, integrity, trust with their fans, and future, especially considering their commitment to their wife and the desire for a financially secure future.
What lifestyle changes did the speaker experience when they were deeply involved in bodybuilding preparation?
-The speaker experienced a restrictive and isolating lifestyle, characterized by malnourishment, lack of sleep, irritability, and an inability to enjoy life with their wife or others due to the demands of bodybuilding preparation.
What is the speaker's current perspective on their past aspirations and how they have evolved?
-The speaker acknowledges that their past aspirations were more focused on fame and strength records, but as they enter their 30s, their priorities have shifted towards a more sustainable and fulfilling life, including a successful business and a happy marriage.
What new direction does the speaker intend to take with their business and personal life?
-The speaker intends to focus on marketing their brand and products, particularly a patented belt they are releasing, and to take on a mentor role, helping others to realize their potential and gain attention for their talents.
How does the speaker feel about pulling out of a competition for the first time in their life?
-The speaker acknowledges that it is hard for them to pull out of a competition, as they have never done so before, even when they knew their preparation was not optimal. However, they believe this decision is the best for their current lifestyle and commitments.
Outlines
💉 Relapse into Steroids and Business Challenges
The speaker discusses their relapse into using steroids after previously deciding to stop for health and personal reasons. They reveal the initial decision to quit was to focus on their marriage and business, but business challenges led to a panic-driven decision to return to bodybuilding to attract attention to their brand. The speaker acknowledges this as a mistake, admitting that it was a 'coward's approach' and not driven by passion for bodybuilding. They express regret for not sticking to their strengths in content creation and marketing, and for compromising their health and integrity by going back on their word.
🏆 The Burden of Competitive Bodybuilding
The speaker elaborates on the negative impact of competitive bodybuilding on their personal life, including the effects of malnourishment and the use of drugs, which led to irritability and a compromised ability to enjoy life with their spouse. They reflect on past relationships and how their single-minded focus on bodybuilding was a form of selfishness. The speaker also discusses the difficulty of balancing a competitive bodybuilding lifestyle with maintaining a healthy relationship and running a business, ultimately deciding that the sacrifices required are too great and not worth the potential rewards.
🚫 Withdrawal from Competition and New Life Direction
The speaker announces their decision to withdraw from competitive bodybuilding and not to pursue a Pro card, recognizing that the lifestyle is not for them. They express their new purpose as motivating others to find their own path in fitness and to avoid the extreme sacrifices of professional competition. The speaker also discusses their contentment with past achievements in strength sports and their readiness to move on to the next phase of life, which includes mentoring others and focusing on their business, such as a patented belt they plan to release. They apologize to any fans who may feel let down by their decision but emphasize that this change is for the best, considering their personal life and future goals.
Mindmap
Keywords
💡Steroid cycle
💡Relapse
💡Bodybuilding
💡PR (Public Relations)
💡Passion
💡Integrity
💡Competitive athlete
💡Mentor
💡Product development
💡Commitment
💡Lifestyle
Highlights
The speaker stopped using steroids to prioritize health and focus on marriage and business.
A relapse occurred, with the speaker returning to a full steroid cycle due to business challenges and panic.
The initial decision to stop steroids was to avoid health compromise for personal and business reasons.
The speaker acknowledges a mistake in using bodybuilding to attract attention to the business.
There was a realization that bodybuilding was not a passion but a desperate attempt for business visibility.
The speaker admits to a 'coward approach' by avoiding the mindset of a businessman.
A shift in focus from individual achievements to product development and marketing is proposed.
The speaker clarifies that bodybuilding was never a passion and was pursued for the wrong reasons.
A decision to withdraw from a competition and not pursue a Pro card is announced.
The speaker reflects on the change in aspirations and responsibilities as he approaches his 30s.
The impact of steroids on health, integrity, and business focus is discussed.
The speaker expresses admiration for those who balance professional bodybuilding with personal life and business.
The restrictive and isolating lifestyle of professional bodybuilding is highlighted.
The speaker admits the difficulty of maintaining relationships and a business while being a competitive athlete.
A commitment to a healthier, more sustainable lifestyle for the speaker and his wife is emphasized.
The speaker shares his new purpose of motivating others to find their version of fitness.
A decision to mentor and uplift others in the fitness community is made.
The speaker expresses contentment with his achievements in the strength world and readiness for life's next phase.
An apology is offered to those who may feel let down by the speaker's decision to quit competitive bodybuilding.
Transcripts
last year I made a video saying I
stopped
steroids and I had as of 3 months ago
relapse and gone back on a full steroid
cycle now the reason why I stopped in
the first place for those who didn't
watch the video is to stop compromising
my
health to ensure that I can have a happy
healthy marriage with my wife and to
focus
more on my business being PR and now the
gym I faced several challenges with my
company PR that led me to go into panic
mode and make a decision to pursue
bodybuilding in an attempt to bring more
eyeballs on what I'm doing and in turn
help my brand get back to where it was
and even better now that is a massive
mistake that is not what I should have
done to build my brand I know how to do
that and that was
a coward approach because I was scared
to venture into the mindset of a
businessman and abandon what I know best
which is creating content and generating
sales based on what I'm doing as an
individual and not what I can do for the
brand as taking a different approach
with my content and focusing more on
product development vment and marketing
the products not marketing myself as an
individual so
me choosing to get back into
bodybuilding was not from a place of
passion because since I started training
bodybuilding was never a passion of mine
not bodybuilding on a competitive level
at
least it was the
training that got me into Fitness I Lov
lifting heavy I love hitting PRS I like
watching my physique change but I've
never been interested in posing or in
trying to become the next Mr Olympia
whether I had the potential to or
not so this decision to get into
bodybuilding was coming from the wrong
place it was coming from a place of
despiration of letting me get on stage
let me win my Pro card and that will put
eyeballs on me what I'm doing on my
brand and that will help me build my
business but that is the wrong approach
again that's a coward approach that is
me being afraid to not be Larry Wheels
anymore and now be Larry Williams and
focus on marketing my brand and my
products but I'm going to dive in the
deep end and I'm pulling out of this
competition I said I would do I don't
want to get my Pro card I don't want to
pursue being a competitive athlete
anymore because it's a distraction from
what I want out of my life moving to my
30s I'm now 29 years old and my
aspirations and Ambitions have changed
dramatically from when I first came on
to seeing the social media I have more
responsibilities now I have a wife a
serious commitment to her and I want to
make sure that we have a happy and
financially secure future
and me hopping back on steroids is going
against everything I said I would do
it's compromising my health my Integrity
because now I'm going against my own
word it's compromising my trust and with
you the fans that are watching my
content it's compromising my future and
most importantly my business because
when I'm focused on being a competitive
athlete it's taking away from energy and
time that I could be putting
into my business which is going to give
me dramatically more in return than me
stepping on stage as a bodybuilder or me
breaking another world record as a
powerlifter or me trying to become the
number one arm wrestler in the world or
trying to become the world's strongest
man in my early and mid 20s those were
aspirations of mine but living a life as
a competitive athlete I know firsthand
from experience is a very recluse and I
isolated
lifestyle especially as a bodybuilder
which is why I never was able to commit
to being
one being a competitive
bodybuilder even at the amateur level
trying to go pro let alone as a pro
level at the pro level trying to become
next Mr
Olympia is a very restrictive lifestyle
and my hat goes off to those that are
able to keep a healthy relationship and
build their business and
live and manage a successful career
while being a competitive professional
bodybuilder because for
me when I am
on the kitchen sink as a cycle Tren Clen
T3 anavar this that everything and get
my hands on and efforts to become Pro
and be a competitive bodybuilder it
changes me it changes who I am and and
when I'm malnourished I'm eating
thousand calories a day I'm on no carbs
I'm not sleeping because of the drugs
I'm taking I'm irritable right I can't
go out and enjoy my life with my wife or
really do anything beyond train and
sleep and
eat which was okay before I was married
I've had Partners I've had girlfriends
and they come and go and if they W
willing to support my lifestyle for me
that was was fine I was selfish I was
saying listen if you don't want to live
this life with me then you can go kick
rocks but most of them tolerated it and
it wasn't an issue but for the level of
commitment I have to my wife it's
betrayal to her she didn't marry a
bodybuilder I was in a bodybuilder when
she met me and I don't even like myself
when I'm deep in prep as a bodybuilder
because of the reasons I mentioned I'm
irritable I'm not sleeping I'm hungry
all the time I'm frustrated when people
around me are enjoying food and enjoying
their life I just feel like I'm a Debbie
down and I'm bringing down the people
around me I don't want to be that person
and again I tip my hat to those that are
able to live that life all the time and
not compromise their relationships and
not compromise their business I
personally cannot do it and it's
frustrates me to say that it's not for
me it's too hard for me I cannot apply
myself and commit to that lifestyle and
I believe it's because of the lack of
passion and the reason why I got into it
in the first place the reason why I set
my goals on bodybuilding in the first
place it was from a place
of well can I get more famous doing it
can I earn more money doing it and I
thought yes and attempting to become one
of the best in the world with that being
my aspiration with that being my
motivation my driving force is the very
first and biggest mistake if it it was
coming from a place of I love
bodybuilding and I would be willing to
die for this Sport and I don't need to
collect a check from I don't need to get
a Pat in the back for doing it I don't
need to try and become more famous or
grow my business or grow my platform
it's not important I just love the sport
I love the lifestyle that's different
and the ones that truly enjoy it and
they don't expect anything in return
from it are the ones that rise to the
top and I'm speaking from experience
because I know when I was a powerlifter
as a late teen early TW in my in my and
in my early
20s I did powerlifting because I enjoyed
it and I didn't have any aspirations to
make a living from it it wasn't till
years later that I decided to monetize
it because my coach and the people
around me realized I had the opportunity
to but it NE was never the driving force
I didn't care if it made me famous or if
I earned money from it that's not what
got me into it that's not why I continue
to do it and it was that passion of I'm
willing to die for this sport because it
brings me so much joy that money and
fame is just the icing on top it's not
the meting
potatoes
now I publicly made an announcement a
couple weeks couple days ago on my
Instagram saying I'm going to do a show
in Ireland I'm not doing that show I'm
not committing to it I'm not following
through with it I don't want that
lifestyle for me or for my for my wife I
don't want to do USA it's not for me my
motivation to do it is wrong
and does that make me a quitter I
believe yes I am quitting I'm not
following through and I believe it's for
the better it's for the better good of
my relationship and more importantly for
my business I have a patented belt that
I'm releasing later this year and I
haven't spoken about it once and I
started developing it early last year
because I'm so caught up in trying to be
a compe ative
bodybuilder it really DET detracts from
my aspirations and the reason I said I
was stop service in the first
place going on trt was the best decision
I've made in a very long time I felt
great I looked great and for a short
period I really
was having television on my business and
my relationship and creating a more
sustainable and better life for myself
and my wife and I going back to that
mindset and even better I'm going cold
turkey on being a competitive athlete I
believe my purpose here
is to motivate people to get in the gym
to find the version of Fitness that
suits them best
because for me it never was just one
Avenue of Fitness for me I truly enjoy
seeing what my body is capable of and I
encourage those watching to do the same
I enjoyed powering for a time I enjoyed
arm wrestling for a time I enjoyed
bodybuilding for a time to an extent and
I stop enjoying it when it gets too
extrem let's not forget I also enjoy
strong man for a time but once I've made
enough progress to where I feel like I'm
approaching a professional level that's
where it stops being fun now now it's
tremendous compromise and sacrifice for
arguably not enough
reward
and for me again in my late teens early
20s as a
powerlifter it the only reward I needed
was hitting a PR but entering my 30s my
aspirations and my responsibilties has
changed dramatically and now I create
content to keep me motivated and and
finding more Diamonds in the Rough like
Andrew Jack like Ruby l that is
extremely fulfilling for me the ability
to be able to use my platform to bring
others up to bring eyeballs on people
that haven't ever had the
opportunity to realize their value and
for the world to see that hey there's
something extraordinary over here that
is what brings me the most satisfaction
in the world right now I hope I have the
privilege to find another Andrew Jack
and another Ruby l I hope I can be the
person that can be The Guiding Light and
be able to give him a platform to
prosper off of right I want to be in
that position right I want to take on
that Mentor role and I want to be able
to help those diam with in the rough get
the deserved attention and
opportunity and this is a very hard
video to make because I've never once
despite
me competing in four different
disciplines strongman bodybuilding power
lifting arm wrestling I've never once
pulled out of a competition because I
decided it was too challenging and not
for me even if I knew the prep wasn't
going well or I made mistakes in the
prep like going off program or not
eating or not following my nutrition
plan basically even if I knew that I
wasn't doing what I supposed to be doing
to 100% in the prep I still followed
through and showed up knowing that I had
left things on the table I should have
been done knowing that I'm not going to
take first place because of me because
I've made mistakes during prep because I
wasn't fully committed cuz I didn't
really 100% apply myself this is the
only time I've ever done that and it's
because I'm so against this lifestyle
it's just not for me and I am never ever
going to pursue my Pro card again I'm
not going to say yeah maybe I can step
on the Olympia stage because I'm never
going to be able to apply myself to that
extent the passion isn't there for me to
be able to handle to tolerate the
sacrifice you need to get there and the
1000lb deadlift would require me to hop
on more gear and eat more food and be
bigger than I've ever been before which
undoubtedly is the most unhealthy thing
I can imagine right now and I am not do
a that it's not worth the reward I am
very content with my achievements in the
strength world I'm happy with how far
I've gotten on the squat bench delip
overhead press dumbbell this that I've
done many pie of strength and I'm
content with my progress in them and now
I'm ready for the next phas in my life
for anyone that feels let down or like I
betre you I
apologize but this decision is the best
for me my wife for my future
with that said thank you so much for
watching and for your patience and I'll
see you soon in the next one
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