I Hate Reading

JaidenAnimations
29 Mar 202007:16

Summary

TLDRIn this candid monologue, the speaker shares their aversion to reading, a sentiment rooted in childhood and exacerbated by school assignments and parental pressure. Despite recognizing the benefits of reading, they express a preference for fast-paced internet content and a sense of loneliness when listening to audiobooks. The video also touches on the impact of quarantine and suggests watching videos or playing Animal Crossing to stay engaged.

Takeaways

  • ๐Ÿ“š The speaker finds reading boring and associates it with negative experiences from school.
  • ๐ŸŒ™ They describe a common romanticized image of reading but feel disconnected from it due to personal dislike.
  • ๐Ÿค” The speaker acknowledges the supposed benefits of reading but struggles to connect with them personally.
  • ๐Ÿซ There's a hint of 'reading PTSD' from school, where reading was associated with tasks and stress.
  • ๐Ÿ“– A fond memory of reading for fun during childhood is contrasted with later negative experiences.
  • ๐Ÿ“š The enjoyment of reading was diminished by school assignments and the pressure to analyze literature.
  • ๐Ÿ‘Ž A strong aversion to reading developed, especially when it felt forced or like a punishment.
  • ๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€๐Ÿ‘ฆ The speaker's mother's well-intentioned efforts to encourage reading may have backfired.
  • ๐Ÿ‰ Faking reading and the resentment towards certain books due to forced reading are mentioned.
  • ๐Ÿ”„ The speaker tried to return to reading on their own terms but found that the negative associations remained.
  • ๐ŸŽง They also tried audiobooks but felt lonely without the visual component of reading.
  • ๐Ÿ‘€ The preference for visual content over reading is highlighted, with a mention of Twitch streams as a preferred alternative.
  • ๐Ÿ  The speaker works from home and suggests watching videos or playing Animal Crossing as quarantine activities.

Q & A

  • What is the speaker's opinion about reading books in libraries?

    -The speaker finds reading books in libraries boring and associates it with an activity that was more common in the past.

  • What does the speaker describe as the 'poetic life' of some people?

    -The 'poetic life' refers to people who enjoy a cozy setting with a warm blanket, a good book, a warm cup of chamomile tea, and a cat, which the speaker finds appealing but not personally enjoyable due to a cat allergy.

  • Why does the speaker have a negative association with reading?

    -The speaker associates reading with school assignments and the pressure to analyze and memorize content, which led to a form of 'reading PTSD' and a loss of enjoyment.

  • What was the speaker's childhood experience with reading?

    -The speaker used to love reading, especially Geronimo Stilton books with fun text and pictures, and could read a 300-page book in two days during elementary school.

  • How did school reading assignments affect the speaker's view on reading?

    -School reading assignments, especially those that were boring and difficult to understand, took the fun away from reading for the speaker.

  • What is the speaker's opinion on the necessity of reading in English class?

    -The speaker questions the necessity of reading cryptic books with heavy symbolism in English class, suggesting that understanding spoken English should be enough.

  • How did the speaker's mother influence their attitude towards reading?

    -The speaker's mother enforced reading during summer vacations, which led to a negative association with reading as the speaker felt it was a form of punishment.

  • What was the speaker's strategy to avoid reading during enforced reading periods?

    -The speaker would fake reading by moving the bookmark forward and sitting idle, rather than engaging with the book.

  • Why did the speaker try to restart reading the same book later?

    -The speaker decided to give the book another chance on their own terms without the pressure of being forced to read, and found that they enjoyed it.

  • How does the speaker feel about audiobooks?

    -The speaker finds audiobooks lonely and prefers having visual content or streams in the background while doing other activities.

  • What alternative activities does the speaker suggest for people during quarantine?

    -The speaker suggests watching their videos in a loop or playing Animal Crossing, and encourages others to share their friend codes for the game.

Outlines

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๐Ÿ“š Disenchantment with Reading: A Personal Narrative

The speaker expresses a personal aversion to reading, which they find boring and associates with negative school experiences. They recount their childhood enthusiasm for reading Geronimo Stilton books but how forced reading in school turned them off the activity. The speaker humorously describes the stereotypical cozy reading scenario others enjoy, which they cannot relate to due to a cat allergy and a general dislike for reading. They also share anecdotes about faking reading during summer vacations to avoid the task, only to find enjoyment in reading the same books later on their own terms. The paragraph captures a struggle between societal expectations of reading and personal enjoyment, tainted by past obligations.

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๐ŸŽฎ From Reading to Gaming: A Shift in Leisure Preferences

In the second paragraph, the speaker discusses their shift from reading to other forms of entertainment, particularly gaming. They mention their unsuccessful attempts to enjoy audiobooks and music, which they find isolating without the visual accompaniment they prefer. The speaker admits to spending time watching YouTube videos or Twitch streams as a way to combat feelings of loneliness. They acknowledge the value of reading as a hobby for others but are candid about their own lack of interest in picking up the habit. The speaker lightheartedly suggests watching their videos or playing Animal Crossing as alternatives to reading, offering a glimpse into their current lifestyle during quarantine and their desire to connect with others who share similar interests.

Mindmap

Keywords

๐Ÿ’กReading

Reading is the process of interpreting written or printed text. In the video, it is presented as a common leisure activity that the speaker finds unappealing. The theme revolves around the personal dislike for reading, contrasting with the widespread appreciation for it as a calming and intellectual pursuit. The script mentions the speaker's childhood memories of reading Geronimo Stilton books, indicating a shift from enjoyment to aversion.

๐Ÿ’กPTSD

PTSD stands for Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, a mental health condition triggered by experiencing or witnessing a terrifying event. In the context of the video, the speaker humorously refers to 'reading PTSD' to describe their negative emotional response to reading, stemming from school assignments that made reading feel like a chore rather than a pleasure.

๐Ÿ’กSymbolism

Symbolism refers to the use of symbols to represent ideas or qualities, often found in literature to add depth to the narrative. The speaker expresses frustration with the need to identify symbolism in literature, such as the color of curtains in a book, which they find obscure and detracting from their enjoyment of reading.

๐Ÿ’กTo Kill a Mockingbird

To Kill a Mockingbird is a novel by Harper Lee, often studied in schools for its themes of racial injustice and moral growth. The speaker uses it as an example of a book that they found difficult to engage with due to the academic pressure of analyzing its content, contributing to their overall aversion to reading.

๐Ÿ’กCliffnotes

Cliffnotes are study guides that summarize literature, providing a condensed version of the plot and themes. The script mentions Cliffnotes as a tool the speaker felt they needed to understand older literature, indicating a sense of struggle with comprehension and enjoyment of reading.

๐Ÿ’กParenting

Parenting refers to the process of raising and guiding children. The speaker discusses their mother's approach to encouraging reading during summer vacations, which they found counterproductive, leading to a deeper aversion to reading rather than fostering a love for it.

๐Ÿ’กQuarantine

Quarantine refers to the isolation of individuals to prevent the spread of disease. In the video, the speaker mentions quarantine in the context of staying at home and suggests watching their videos or playing Animal Crossing as ways to cope with the situation, highlighting the impact of the pandemic on daily life.

๐Ÿ’กAnimal Crossing

Animal Crossing is a popular video game series where players live in a village and interact with animal characters. The speaker recommends the game as a way to pass time during quarantine, showing a preference for interactive and visually engaging activities over reading.

๐Ÿ’กAudiobooks

Audiobooks are recordings of text being read aloud, allowing for a listening experience rather than reading. The speaker mentions trying audiobooks but finds them isolating, preferring visual content and company, which contrasts with the solitary nature of reading.

๐Ÿ’กTwitch

Twitch is a live streaming platform often used for video games. The speaker mentions Twitch streams as a background activity while at home, indicating a preference for dynamic and social forms of entertainment over solitary reading.

๐Ÿ’กFast-paced content

Fast-paced content refers to media that is quickly changing and engaging, often found in video formats. The speaker contrasts this with reading, which they find slow and unengaging, suggesting a preference for the immediacy and stimulation of fast-paced online content.

Highlights

The speaker expresses a personal dislike for reading, contrasting it with the common romanticized image of reading as a cozy activity.

Mentions a humorous anecdote about receiving a cure egg as a gift instead of buying one on sale at Target.

Discusses having a cat allergy, adding a layer of personal complexity to the common imagery associated with reading.

Reflects on the idea that reading is calming and beneficial for the brain, despite not personally experiencing these benefits.

Shares a personal history of developing a negative association with reading due to school assignments and parental pressure.

Recalls fond childhood memories of reading Geronimo Stilton books and the joy of discovering new books.

Describes the shift in enjoyment from reading freely to feeling forced to read certain books by school and parents.

Expresses frustration with the requirement to analyze books for symbolism and plot, which feels tedious and unenjoyable.

Muses on the irony of later enjoying a book that was previously disliked when read under duress.

Shares the story of faking reading to avoid the chore of reading books assigned by parents.

Explains the emotional response of associating reading with punishment and the resulting aversion to it.

Contrasts the speaker's aversion to reading with the enjoyment others find in it, acknowledging differing preferences.

Discusses the difficulty of enjoying audiobooks due to a preference for visuals and the feeling of loneliness they induce.

Reflects on the preference for background noise like YouTube videos or Twitch streams over music or audiobooks.

Endorses the idea of personal preference in hobbies and interests, suggesting that not everyone needs to enjoy reading.

Offers alternative suggestions for activities during quarantine, such as watching videos or playing Animal Crossing.

Invites viewers to share their Animal Crossing friend codes for a sense of community during quarantine.

Transcripts

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reading books libraries it's all boring

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I don't know if that's an unpopular

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opinion or not when I was growing up it

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was pretty normal but now I always hear

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people gush about how great it is to

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bundle up in a warm blanket with quote a

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good book while the faint light of the

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fall evening peeks out of their cracked

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windows and hits their collection of

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plants perfectly they've got a warm cup

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of chamomile tea they've prepared with

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the cure egg they use daily and actually

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it's a funny story they were about to

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get one at Target because they were on

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sale but they received one as a gift

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instead what a coincidence huh and they

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have a cat I'm not saying that isn't a

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poetic life you've got going on over

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there but I still don't like reading and

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have a cat allergy it's kind of

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complicated the thought of reading

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sounds really nice to me it's supposed

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to be calming and good for your brain in

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some sort of way I don't know how

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exactly but people repeated all the time

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so it might be true but I think I've got

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some weird reading PTSD from school

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because the other part of my brain

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thinks about how boring and slow and too

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quiet it's gonna be and I feel like I

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have to take notes and memorize things

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and identify the plot points and know

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the names and symbolisms and To Kill a

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Mockingbird and oh god was I supposed to

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read after chapter 7 by Thursday or

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through it I used to love reading I

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still have the strong memory of going to

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my elementary school's library and being

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excited to check out the next Geronimo

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Stilton book because I love the pictures

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and fun text they had they always wrote

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the word cheese like this and being able

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to read books that had more than 10

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words on the page was impressive to a

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six-year-old whenever I found a book I

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like touring up I would read it non-stop

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I was able to crush a 300 page in two

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days which I don't think is considered

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impressive anymore but it was in fifth

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grade and look that was the only South

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fourth I had all right but when school

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started making us read books by force

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did kinda took the fun away from me I

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don't like being told what to do with my

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free time especially if you're gonna

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make me read a book written in the 1940s

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that I need cliffnotes to decode just to

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realize that all the animals were

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communists also it's 20% of my grade I

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get it though what else are we gonna do

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in English class we can all understand

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each other right

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you were speak in English

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I that's gotta count for something right

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but the more I had to read really

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cryptic books in my spare time where the

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symbolism is in the color of the main

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characters curtains and I'm not even

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observant enough to realize they had

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curtains led me to not really having fun

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and also feeling like an idiot I like my

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subtlety like I like my coffee splash in

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my face how am I supposed to know what

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the a stands for adultery I don't know I

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could mean a woman for all I know

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asparagus and all that isn't anything

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new everyone complains about English

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assignments everyone hates reading The

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Scarlet Letter everyone thinks school

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should die however something that also

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locked in my disdain for reading was my

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mom hi mom of course as a parent you

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don't want your child to do nothing but

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play video games all day that obviously

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leads to undeniable life failure so

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what's the solution make them read more

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and on paper I don't think there's

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anything wrong with that honestly I'll

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probably use that parenting technique

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too when applicable I think my mom made

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the obvious good parenting decision but

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as the victim here

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I believe I fell in the small minority

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where it had the overall opposite effect

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during summer vacation my mom would

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always tell me that I needed to read at

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least two books so I don't forget how to

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read whenever my mom would walk in on my

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brother and I playing Mario Kart

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together in the living room she would

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ask if we've read yet today which we

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would respond

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no because readings for chumps and then

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she'd lock us in our rooms to be chumps

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I started hating reading so much I would

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rather do literally nothing than read a

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book there were a couple summers where I

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faked reading entire books because I

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just didn't want to read that much there

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is this one about dragons I think called

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the secret country and I still remember

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that just looking at the cover would put

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me in a bad mood because of hatred

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association screw your secret country

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when I was being forced to read I would

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sit angrily on my bed open the book move

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the bookmark of reasonable amount

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forward to make it look like I read and

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then just sit there for 30 minutes

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staring at it it was boring and I don't

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know what was wrong with me I could have

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had at least a decent time if I'd

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tried to read the dang book but I guess

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it turned into a dignity thing actually

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the ironic part is maybe a year or so

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later I decided to restart the same book

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and give it another shot on my own terms

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and I finished it in two days it was

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pretty good I did it again with another

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book called Molly moon and the morphing

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mystery it's like the fifth book in this

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Molly moon series it's been a while so I

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don't really remember this story but

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it's about this orphan who can hypnotize

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people and has a pug anyway it's funky

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because I actually read the first few

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books of the series on my own and

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remember really liking them I would read

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them any chance like God but as soon as

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I was forced to read this one I just

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decided I'd rather literally waste my

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time and sit alone rebelling against a

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reasonable parenting but this time I

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never went back to read it I I think

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that might have been the point of no

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return for me I think the association of

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reading is a necessity or some sort of

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punishment has deep rooted itself in me

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and now I just feel like reading isn't

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fun or I'm in trouble for something even

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though I live alone

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I've tried listening to audiobooks but

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honestly they make me feel really lonely

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I don't know why it might be the lack of

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visuals I like pictures you know so no

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one else is around it's the same with

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music I've never been a big music person

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so whenever I try to sit down and do

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something while listening to music it

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somehow enhances this feeling of being

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alone and like time is going by slower

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which makes me uncomfortable so I always

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have either youtube videos or more

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recently twitch streams in the

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background I'm still not super used to

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twitch yet but I like riu cars stuff

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he plays Mario maker sometimes I wish I

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read more it might be good for me to

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slow down instead of always consuming a

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fast paced content on the internet but

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on the other hand I think it's just a

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preference I have that's been cemented

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with bad association if you like reading

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I think that's really great I've got a

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lot of friends who like reading and it's

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cool that you've got a really nice hobby

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you can fall back on to de-stress or

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however you people feel while staring at

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words all day I was gonna say you should

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recommend a good book I should give a

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try but I took a second to think about

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if I would actually try to read any

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suggestions and being real with myself

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the answer is no so enjoy that chamomile

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tea hey hey how is everyone doing at

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home I suppose I'm lucky that I work

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from home and rarely leave the house so

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quarantine isn't hitting me too hard but

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to those of you who are outside people

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needing suggestions may I suggest

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watching all of my videos in an infinite

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loop until we can leave our houses or

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animal crossing I actually recommend

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that one more any Mutual's who are

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playing send me your friend code because

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I want to add you I've been doing this

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thing where before I open up the game

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I'll look at my friend list and see how

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many people online are playing Animal

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Crossing normally it's a hundred percent

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anyway however you're keeping yourself

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busy during quarantine I hope you're

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doing well and thanks for watching my

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video bye

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