Meditation & Searching for The Self | Dr. Sam Harris & Dr. Andrew Huberman

Huberman Lab Clips
7 Jan 202309:18

Summary

TLDRThe transcript discusses the illusion of self and the futility of seeking it directly through meditation. It uses analogies of a tourist who joins a search party looking for herself without realizing it, and someone asking for directions to a destination they cannot logically reach from their starting point. The key insight is that the subjective 'self' constructed in our minds does not make the journey to enlightenment intact - it comes apart through properly inspecting our moment-to-moment experience. Like a fist trying to become an open hand, the contracted sense of self releases rather than progresses in the traditional goal-oriented sense.

Takeaways

  • 😀 The script discusses a story of a tourist bus where an Asian woman changed clothes and was then searched for by her fellow travelers who didn't recognize her
  • 😮 The woman joins the search party looking for herself without realizing it due to language barriers and confusion
  • 🤔 The metaphor is used to illustrate aspects of the meditative journey - looking for the 'self' but not finding it as expected
  • 💡 There is a false assumption in believing there is a solid, fixed 'self' that is the root of unhappiness that must be found and transformed
  • 🔍 Meditation reveals the illusion of this subjective self when examined closely enough
  • 😶 Just as the tourist realizes she is what the search party seeks, there is a similar dropping away of the illusion of self in meditation
  • 🧘‍♂️ The self or subjective center is actually constructed out of uninspected thought rather than being an inherent existing thing
  • 📝 The logic and expectations around meditation finding and improving the self are inaccurate
  • ⏳ There is no fist or fixed self that gets better, but rather a coming apart of the constructed sense of self
  • 😌 The self evaporates unexpectedly rather than being fulfilled or transformed into something better through practice

Q & A

  • What is the parable the speaker references about the missing tourist?

    -The parable is about a tour bus with about 30 people that stopped at a rest area. An Asian woman on the bus changed her clothes while there. When everyone got back on the bus, they realized the Asian woman was missing. However, she had just changed her clothes and no one recognized her. She joined the search party looking for herself without realizing it.

  • How does the parable of the missing tourist relate to the process of meditation according to the speaker?

    -The speaker argues there are parallels in the structure and logic between the experience of the missing tourist searching for herself and the meditator searching for the self or center of experience in meditation. In both cases, what is being searched for is already present in the searching itself.

  • What false assumption does the speaker say people often make about the process of meditation?

    -The speaker says there is often an assumption that through meditation, we start out with an unenlightened self with problems, and we search for and finally discover the enlightened self. He argues this logic is actually backwards or flawed.

  • What does the speaker say actually happens as we practice meditation?

    -The speaker says that rather than the sense of self being brought along and transformed through meditation, it actually 'evaporates' or drops out unexpectedly. He uses the analogy of a fist trying to become an open hand - the fist itself does not transform, but comes apart.

  • What is the purpose of the analogy about asking for directions to Central Park?

    -This analogy highlights the absurdity of the idea that there is nowhere you can't get to from where you start. The speaker relates this to how the subjective sense of self does not get brought along the meditative path to enlightenment in the way we expect.

  • What does the speaker say is the actual object of inspection and looking in meditation?

    -He says rather than there being an actual self that we inspect, it is the thoughts and the sense of being a subject located somewhere that should be investigated. This sense of being a localized subject is revealed as just more thinking.

  • What is the relevance of the tourist being Asian, according to the speaker?

    -The speaker says the relevance is that there were likely language barriers that contributed to her not realizing the search party was looking for her.

  • Where does the speaker say this parable of the missing tourist originated from?

    -He says he came across this story on the internet about 12 or 13 years prior, and believes it took place on a tourist bus in northern Europe, possibly in Norway.

  • What does the speaker say happens from the tourist's point of view?

    -He says from her perspective, she joined the search party looking for the missing tourist, not realizing that missing tourist was actually herself.

  • How does the speaker relate the fist analogy to the sense of being a subject?

    -He relates the fist trying to become an open hand to the sense of being a localized subject - just as the fist itself does not transform, the sense of being a subject does not get brought along the meditative path in the way we expect.

Outlines

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😕 False assumptions underlying the logic of meditation

The paragraph discusses some false assumptions in the logic underlying meditation practice. It uses an anecdote of a tourist bus where an Asian woman goes missing but later realizes she was the missing woman to draw an analogy to the meditative journey. Just as the search party's logic was erroneous, assumptions about finding the self through meditation are also misguided. The self or center of experience cannot be found through seeking, similar to how the search party does not find the woman as expected.

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😌 The illusion of a seeker or looker separate from experience

The paragraph further analyzes the illusion of a seeker or looker separate from present moment experience during meditation. When you pay attention to the breath or sounds, the notion that there is a 'you' over here doing that is just thought. This undercurrent of thought creating a subject/object duality goes unseen. The practice involves continually looking for this assumed mind/center of experience and recognizing the error in its formation, leading to an unexpected dropping away rather than a fulfillment through seeking.

Mindmap

Keywords

💡meditation

Meditation refers to the practice of focusing one's attention in order to achieve greater awareness and insight. In the context of the video, the speaker discusses how the logic and expectations people often have about meditation are flawed. He explains that people often approach meditation as a way to find or improve themselves, not realizing that the self they believe exists is an illusion. The point is that meditation leads to the insight that there is no substantive self to be found, which happens in an unexpected way, not through fulfilling the seeker's goals.

💡self

The concept of the self or one's sense of personal identity. The speaker argues that most people feel an unsatisfactory sense of self, seen as the root of unhappiness, distraction, etc. People then take up meditation to find their "true self" or make their self better in some way. However, a key insight from meditation is that this sense of self is an illusion - there is no substantive, permanent entity that can be improved. Instead, the self "dissolves" upon close inspection.

💡attention

The act of focusing one's concentration or awareness. Meditation often involves paying attention to something like the breath. The speaker points out the illusion that there is a "you" that is paying attention from some removed point - rather, attention dissolving the sense of self reveals that consciousness is all there is.

💡search

The idea of seeking something, like seeking to improve yourself through meditation. The speaker uses the metaphor of a search party looking for a missing tourist, who turns out to be part of the search party itself. This parallels how meditation often involves wrongly believing there is a substantive self that is seeking some enlightened state.

💡logic

Reasoning and assumptions. The speaker contends most people's logic about meditation and the self is fundamentally flawed. We wrongly believe there is an unsatisfactory self that can be improved through finding some truer self. Proper meditation reveals there is no substantive or permanent self underlying consciousness.

💡process

The practice or journey of meditation and self-realization. The speaker stresses that while meditation promises to improve the self through some process, it actually works by revealing the illusion of that substantive self. So the process and logic most people expect does not match the actual mechanics of insight.

💡enlightenment

A state of heightened wisdom, clarity, or liberation from suffering. Though we may take up meditation to attain enlightenment and improve ourselves, the speaker suggests that real enlightenment comes from the dissolution of the sense of self, which was the source of suffering to begin with. It happens in an unexpected way.

💡thought

The experience of thinking or cognitive perceptions arising in consciousness. The speaker notes that the sense of being an observing subject or "self" is simply a form of uninspected thought or thinking that has not been consciously noticed in the moment of paying attention. As thought is noticed, the illusion of stable selfhood subsides.

💡subject

The sense of oneself as a subjective perceiver of experience, as opposed to an external object. The feeling there is a stable "self" observing reality or one's own inner states. The speaker claims dismissing this illusion of being an enduring subjective self is key to meditation leading to liberation rather than self-improvement.

💡perception

One's interpretation or awareness of reality, often shaped by our subjective point of view rather than things as they objectively are. In terms of meditative insights, learning to distinguish perception from reality allows one to see the constructed and impermanent nature of the seeming egoic self observing subjective perceptions.

Highlights

There are false assumptions in the logic of the meditative process that are worth addressing

The story of the missing Asian tourist illustrates the flawed logic of seeking enlightenment

The Asian woman unknowingly joins the search party looking for herself

At some point the Asian woman realizes the search party is looking for her

The problem is not solved through the expected logic of the search

There is an analogy between this story and the structure of the meditative journey

Meditation often starts from a place of seeing oneself as the problem needing a solution

The logic and angle of seeking enlightenment is inherently flawed

What you are seeking is right on the surface, not somewhere to be found

There is no separate 'you' doing the seeking or paying attention

The sense of a subjective 'you' is actually just uninspected thought

The search party is formed in error, based on a false premise

The problem evaporates unexpectedly, not through fulfilling the original search

The metaphor of directions shows the absurdity of 'getting there' from the starting point

The sense of subjective 'you' does not make the journey to realization

Transcripts

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I mean there's some fundamental there's

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there's some false assumptions about

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the underlying logic of this process

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which I think it's worth addressing and

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there's actually there's a kind of found

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object in the news that I I talk about

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at one point I forget where it is in in

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the waking up app but there's a story

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that I stumbled on on the internet

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um I think it's about 12 or 13 years old

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of a um a tourist bus in I think was

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Norway it was somewhere in

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northern Europe

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and I had about 30 people on it and one

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person was it was described as an Asian

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woman uh and they all they went to a

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rest stop and everyone got off the bus

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uh and they you know shopped and had

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lunch and and this Asian woman changed

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her clothing uh for whatever reason and

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they all got back on the bus

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um I think the relevance of it being an

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Asian woman is you know there were

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language barriers that that explained

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what later happened

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um so everyone gets back on the bus the

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Asian woman has changed her her clothing

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and the bus is about to leave but then

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someone notices hey there's a there was

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an Asian woman who got off the bus who

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isn't it hasn't come back yet and they

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tell the driver this

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um and this poses a problem so now

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everyone's waiting for this person to

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return but in fact everyone was on the

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bus that this woman had just changed her

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clothing and was not recognized by her

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fellow Travelers

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so everyone gets concerned as this

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tourist doesn't you know show up and

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they start looking for her right and

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they can't find her and so a search

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party is formed and the Asian woman

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because of the whatever language barrier

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thought heard that there was a missing

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tourist so she joins the search party

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which in fact is looking for her right

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and this goes on into the night and

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they're ready in helicopters that you

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know for a dawn patrol to find the

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missing tourist

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um now at some point along the way I

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think it was at like three in the

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morning

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this tourist realizes that she is the

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object of this search right and

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obviously the whole thing unravels she

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you know she confesses that she changed

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her clothes and you know that the

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problem is solved but the problem is not

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solved by the the logic that the Seeker

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is expected right so it's like it's not

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true to say that the missing tourist was

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found in in the way that was expected

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right because the missing tourist was

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never lost the missing tourist was part

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of the search party right and so when

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you think about it from her point of

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view like what happened she's part of

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the search party she's looking for the

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missing tourist not knowing that she in

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fact is the missing tourist so what

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happens at the moment she realizes

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that everyone's looking for her right

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like what what is it the the search

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isn't consummated

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in the way that is implied by the logic

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of everyone's use of attention

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um and yet the problem evaporates and

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there's something deeply analogous about

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the structure of that

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and the the meditative journey in in

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precisely in again not talking about all

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the changes in the possible changes in

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the contents of Consciousness that could

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be good which again cut they come along

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for the ride anyway when you when you

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do the thing I'm talking about

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it's not on this point of looking for

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the self and not finding it and

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there is this sense that okay the self

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is here and it's a problem it is the the

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string upon which all of my conscious

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States mostly unhappy ones are strong

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right it's the thing that is at the

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center of my anxiety it's the it's it's

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the it's the thing that I don't feel

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good about it's a thing that one

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criticized I sort of let implode

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um it's the center of my problem and now

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I'm trying to feel better and meditation

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has been handed to me as a as a possible

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you know remedy for my situation and it

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and it's billed as a remedy in fact it's

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it's it's I'm hearing from this guy that

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this is the thing that is going to cause

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me to realize that myself isn't where

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you know or as I thought it was

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um so now I'm going to look right and so

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again you're you're the sense is I start

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out far away from the goal here I start

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out with a problem I'm now meditating on

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the evidence of my unenlightenment right

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I can feel my problem I feel that I'm

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distracted and distractible and I feel

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as this sort of cramp at the center of

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my life it's me and I'm not as happy as

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I want to be I'm not as confident as I

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want to be I'm I'm more distractible

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than I want to be and now I'm paying

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attention to the breath right

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um

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this is what the search party feels like

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this is what the the confused tourist

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feels like in her own search party and

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she's she's looking she's looking for

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the missing person and so the the so the

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the angle of of you know the inclination

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of all of this

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is and the logic of it is all wrong you

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know understandably so uh given how we

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we all get into this situation

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but

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you know it's useful to continually try

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to under undercut it and

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um

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recognize that the thing that's being

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looked for

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is is actually right on the surface

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which is you know the there is no one

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looking there is no place from which you

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are paying if you're paying attention to

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the breath or to sounds or noticing the

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next thought arise

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this sense that you are over here doing

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that thing

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is actually what it's like to be

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thinking and not knowing that you're

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thinking you're not there's a there's a

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thought there's an undercurrent of

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thought that's going uninspected in that

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moment and

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um so there is just a there's a

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continually looking for the mind looking

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for the center of experience looking for

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the one who is looking which again which

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is the kind of the the orienting

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practice here and there's a lot more I

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say about this obviously

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um over waking up but um

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it's it's the experiment you have to

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perform in order to get ready to

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recognize that this whole the search

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party you know was formed in in error

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essentially and the the problem that

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you're trying to to solve with this

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practice does evaporate in in a similar

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way which is like

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you don't actually get there

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in the way that you're hoping for right

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it's like like you drop out the bottom

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of this thing in an unexpected way it's

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not um there's actually another uh kind

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of a similar um

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Parable or or anecdote that I don't

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remember if it's Zen or Sufi or I'm sure

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it's been reappropriated in many

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different ways but or by many different

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traditions

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but there's a there's you know the the

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case of somebody who's lost in a town

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and they're asking for directions you

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know you could put put this in in in

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Manhattan you could let's say you're

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wandering Manhattan and you're you're a

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tourist you don't know where anything is

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and you stop and ask someone you know

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where is Central Park

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and the person thinks for a second and

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says oh yeah unfortunately you can't get

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to Central Park from here

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right now that is a very strange I mean

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we you think about that for a second you

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realize okay that's a

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that's an absurd claim there is no place

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that you can't get to from the place

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you're starting you know on Earth right

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that's a failure to describe the

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physical uh relationships between

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anything in the world yeah that's just

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not the world we live in right so but

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it's a funny thing but on some level

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that is true

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of meditation it's like you can't get

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there from here like but the sense of

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you the sense of you as subject

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isn't brought along to this thing you're

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looking for right like you're like

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you're

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you know it's almost like

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it's almost like you're you're making a

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fist and you're trying to get to an open

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hand

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the fist doesn't get to take that

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Journey as a fist right like you don't

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the fist doesn't go along for the ride

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the fist

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comes apart right and and on some level

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our subjectivity is a kind of an an

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intentional fist you know it it is a

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contraction of energy again it's it's so

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much bound up in thought for for

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uh most of us most of the time that is

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and again when when properly inspected

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there's just this you know evaporation

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of the starting point but there's not

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this there's not this fulfillment of I'm

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going to get this fist is going to just

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gonna if I you know

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if life gets good enough if I get

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concentrated enough focused enough you

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know if I austere enough if I renounce

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enough if I desire less if I you know

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you know enough with enough good and

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intentions this fist is going to move

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into some sort of sublime condition

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right that's not

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the logic of the the process

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