How to BE PRESENT. How to let go of the Past & how to live in the Present
Summary
TLDRThe speaker discusses the importance of embracing solitude and separation from the world as a foundational step in spiritual growth, drawing on teachings from Saint John of the Ladder. They relate this concept to various life situations, including monastic life, marriage, and singlehood, emphasizing the need to focus on the present reality of one's 'cell' or life context. The discussion also touches on the dangers of allowing past experiences to distort our perception and interactions, advocating for a grounded, authentic approach to spiritual practices like prayer and fasting.
Takeaways
- 🌙 The speaker intended to record a video on prayer at night but was unable to due to a migraine, which paradoxically provided a fitting introduction to the topic.
- 🛌 Migraine and pandemic lockdowns have forced people to stay inside, mirroring the spiritual concept of separation from the world for focused growth.
- 🌿 Saint John of the Ladder emphasizes that spiritual growth begins with separation from the world, a principle applicable to all Christians, not just monastics.
- 🏠 The concept of 'aloneness' or separation from the world is interpreted differently by various individuals, such as hermits, monastics, married people, and singles.
- 🔑 Our vows before God define our 'aloneness' and what constitutes our 'world', which we must leave behind to be alone with Him in our spiritual journey.
- 📚 The story of a disciple unable to pray, keep vigil, or fast illustrates the importance of staying within one's 'cell' or personal spiritual space to learn and grow.
- 🧘♂️ The speaker suggests that being confined within our 'cells'—be it a family, monastery, or single life—can be seen as an opportunity for spiritual growth rather than a limitation.
- 🤔 The speaker warns against allowing past experiences to distort our present reality, which can lead to misjudgments and emotional reactions based on false perceptions.
- 💔 The pain of past hurts can be a barrier to genuine interaction and spiritual growth if we allow it to cloud our perception of current relationships.
- 🛡️ The speaker argues that grounding ourselves in the present reality of our lives, rather than the fantasy of our past, is essential for true spiritual growth.
- ✝️ The ultimate goal is to stay present in our 'cells', allowing the reality of our lives to teach us how to pray, fast, and keep vigil in a genuine and meaningful way.
Q & A
Why did the speaker postpone the recording of the video?
-The speaker postponed the recording due to a migraine that prevented them from working the previous night.
What is the main theme of the small booklet being discussed in the video?
-The main theme of the booklet is prayer at night.
How does the speaker relate their personal experience with migraines to the broader spiritual message?
-The speaker uses their migraines as a metaphor for being confined and the opportunity it presents for spiritual growth, similar to how people might feel during a pandemic lockdown.
According to Saint John of the Ladder, what is the first step in spiritual growth?
-Saint John of the Ladder defines separation from the world as the first step in spiritual growth.
How does the speaker suggest that different life situations can be seen as a form of separation from the world?
-The speaker suggests that whether one is a hermit, a monastic, a married person, or single, each has a unique way of leaving the world behind and being alone with God, such as living in a desert, within monastery walls, in a marriage, or embracing single life as a cross.
What advice does the speaker give for those who feel they cannot pray, keep vigil, or fast?
-The speaker advises that if one cannot pray, keep vigil, or fast, they should go into their 'cell', lock the door, and stay inside, where their cell will teach them everything.
What does the speaker mean by 'cell' in the context of the video?
-In this context, 'cell' refers to the personal space or state of being where one is separated from the world to focus on their spiritual growth, which could be a literal cell, a family for a married person, a monastery for a monastic, or the Church and friends for a single person.
Why is it important to stay in the reality of our 'cell' according to the speaker?
-Staying in the reality of our 'cell' is important because it is the foundation for real spiritual growth, allowing us to interact with the world and people around us without the distortions of past experiences and fantasies.
How does the speaker describe the danger of allowing the fantasy world of our past to influence our present?
-The speaker describes it as a form of idolatry, where we allow false criteria and virtues created from our past to judge the world and people around us, instead of responding according to the commandments of Christ.
What is the speaker's view on the relationship between our past experiences and our ability to grow spiritually?
-The speaker believes that our past experiences, if not properly managed, can hinder our spiritual growth by creating a fantasy world that distorts our perception of reality and leads us away from genuine interaction with the present.
What blessing does the speaker hope for their audience at the end of the video?
-The speaker hopes for God to bless every pore of their hearts and bodies and for everyone to be saved by the prayer of all the Saints and the Theotokos.
Outlines
🌙 Embracing Solitude for Spiritual Growth
The speaker begins by expressing their desire to record a video on prayer at night but was unable to do so due to a migraine. They reflect on the irony of their situation, as they are creating a booklet on night prayer, and draw a parallel to the current times of pandemic lockdowns. The speaker suggests that periods of isolation, whether due to illness or external circumstances, are not wasted moments but opportunities for spiritual growth. They reference Saint John of the Ladder, who posits that solitude and separation from the world are the foundational steps in spiritual development. The speaker emphasizes that this principle applies to all Christians, regardless of their lifestyle, and that embracing aloneness is crucial for spiritual advancement.
🛕 The Sacred Cell: A Sanctuary for Spiritual Development
Continuing the discussion on solitude, the speaker delves into the concept of the 'cell' as a metaphor for the personal space where one can focus on spiritual growth. They explain that for different individuals, the 'cell' could be a physical place like a monastery or a more abstract concept like marriage or single life. The speaker uses the story of a disciple who struggled to perform spiritual practices and received the advice to retreat to his cell, where he would learn everything. This advice is applicable to modern times, suggesting that staying within one's 'cell' can be a powerful tool for spiritual learning and growth, regardless of external circumstances.
🏠 The Reality of Relationships within Our 'Cell'
The speaker explores the dynamics of relationships within the confines of one's 'cell,' using marriage as an example. They discuss the importance of staying present and real within the context of marriage, focusing on the current reality rather than being influenced by past experiences or fantasies. The speaker advises that when conflicts arise, it is essential to address them within the reality of the marriage, without the distortion of past emotions or traumas. This approach allows for a more authentic and less harmful interaction with one's spouse, fostering a deeper and more meaningful relationship.
📚 The Illusion of Past Experiences in Our Lives
Building on the previous discussion, the speaker addresses the impact of past experiences on our present interactions. They argue that our minds often create a 'bibliography' of past references that can distort our perception of current events and people. This can be particularly problematic in monastic life, where individuals with rich life experiences may struggle to separate their past from their present interactions within the monastery. The speaker warns against allowing these past experiences to deform our reality and instead encourages staying grounded in the present moment.
🚫 The Dangers of Living in a Fantasy World
The speaker warns of the tragic consequences of living in a fantasy world created by our past experiences. They explain that when we allow our past to influence our present, we risk perceiving people as fantasy beings rather than their true selves. This can lead to easier judgments, hatred, and rejection, as it is simpler to react negatively to an imagined version of someone than to their reality. The speaker emphasizes the importance of staying present and engaged with the reality of our lives, particularly within our 'cells,' to avoid these pitfalls.
🙏 The Path to Genuine Prayer and Fasting
In the final paragraph, the speaker connects the themes of solitude, reality, and spiritual practices like prayer and fasting. They suggest that genuine prayer and fasting cannot occur without first being fully present and engaged with one's real self within the reality of one's 'cell.' The speaker encourages staying in the present moment, forgetting past fantasies, and allowing the pain and love perceived in real people to guide one's spiritual practices. They conclude with a blessing, hoping for salvation through the prayers of the saints and the Theotokos.
Mindmap
Keywords
💡Migraine
💡Pandemic
💡Spiritual Growth
💡Saint John of the Ladder
💡Aloneness
💡Monastic
💡Vows
💡Cell
💡Fantasy World
💡Idolatry
💡Prayer
Highlights
The speaker discusses the importance of prayer at night and its role in spiritual growth.
Migraines and pandemic lockdowns are used as metaphors for the isolation that can foster spiritual development.
Saint John of the Ladder's teachings on the necessity of separation from the world for spiritual growth are highlighted.
The concept of 'aloneness' as the first step in spiritual development is introduced.
The speaker emphasizes that Saint John's teachings apply to all Christians, not just monastics.
Different forms of 'leaving the world behind' are described, such as monastic life, marriage, or single life.
The idea that our vows before God define our 'aloneness' and 'world' is presented.
The speaker suggests that being confined can be an opportunity for spiritual reflection and growth.
A story about a disciple who could not pray, keep vigil, or fast, leading to the advice to stay in one's cell, is shared.
The importance of staying within the 'cell' of our life, be it family, monastery, or church, is emphasized.
The speaker warns against letting the fantasy world of our past experiences interfere with our current reality.
Examples are given to illustrate the importance of staying grounded in the reality of our current life situations.
The concept of how past experiences can distort our perception and reactions to the present is explored.
The speaker explains how our past can lead to idolatry, where we judge the world through a lens of false virtues.
The tragic consequences of allowing our past to dictate our present actions and judgments are discussed.
The necessity of staying in the present moment and the reality of our 'cell' for true spiritual growth is underscored.
The speaker concludes by emphasizing the importance of engaging with our real self in the reality of our 'cell' for genuine prayer.
Transcripts
Hello everyone! This is not where I wanted to record today and
not even the time when I wanted to record. I would have
liked to record this video at night, because
we are working now on a small booklet about prayer at night,
and I wanted to discuss certain aspects of prayer at night with all of you,
but I woke up last night, as I often do lately, with a horrible migraine
and there was no way I could have done any work,
so I had to postpone recording until today, and then this morning I realized
that what had happened last night was in fact
the perfect beginning for
this small series of recordings on prayer at night.
You see, lately, for the last eight months or nine months
or so, I have almost daily migraines, and I
often get caught up in my room, and migraines
simply prohibit me from leaving my room, and
we've just gone through a pandemic that has kept many of us inside our
rooms, and it is a possibility that
those lockdowns will come back to us and we'll have to re-experience
that feeling of being closed inside and not being able to communicate with
the outside world, and often also many of us, all of us at
some point or another in our lives, simply due to illness or weakness or
just sadness are unable to leave our beds or our rooms and we just
lie down all alone, and it is a very tempting thought
that these alone times, these moments when we are
stuck inside are moments which are wasted somehow in our spiritual growth,
when in fact these are the moments we should look upon with great
courage and great hope, because these are the opportunities for all of us to
go back to the very beginning of real growth in our spiritual life, to
go back to the basics, the foundation of our
spiritual life. Saint John of the Ladder, the wonderful
teacher for monastics and all Christians
concerning the spiritual life and our growth from
one virtue to another, Saint John of the Ladder defines
aloneness, defines separation from the world, our being stuck
somewhere apart from the world as the very first step on which
we have to climb in order to begin our real growth.
Real growth, according to Saint John of the Ladder,
begins with separation from the world; and it is tempting to
think that Saint John was only speaking
for monastics, and indeed he was addressing specifically monastics, but
his teaching, the essence of his teaching is
applicable to all Christians, no matter of the sort of life that
they live. He speaks to monastics because he was a monastic himself
and because those were the people he was concerned with,
but growth follows more or less the same pattern
for all of us, and separation from the world
applies to married people or people who are single in the world
as much as for monastics. A hermit will leave the world behind by going to
live his life in the desert or in a place
where there is no one else. A monastic will leave the world behind
by closing himself or herself in within the walls of his or her monastery.
A married person will leave the world
behind by dedicating himself or herself
exclusively to the person with whom they are married now. A person who is single
in the world will leave the world by assuming
this state of being single as their cross, their offering before the
Lord, and by separating themselves from the
idea of marriage or the idea of a monastic
community. These are our vows before God,
we define before God where is our aloneness
and what constitutes our world, and then we leave
the world behind in order to be alone with Him,
alone with Him in our desert, in our monastery,
in our marriage or in our single life. This is only the beginning,
this separation from the world simply marks the beginning of our spiritual
growth, and every time I find myself caught
in my room because of a migraine and every time we go through
a situation such as this pandemic and the lockdown that followed,
we could look at this, if we are willing to see the positive in things and if we
are willing to constantly grow in our spiritual life, we
can look at this as an opportunity
to go back to the beginning, to go back to that foundation of all spiritual
growth, our separation from the world and our
focus on who we are before Christ our God. This
advice of separating ourselves from the world
is particularly, particularly important for our generation because,
because of this story: There is a story that
one of the disciples of one of the Holy Elders of the desert
failed to do anything good, and he ended up going to the Elder and
confessed to the Elder that he cannot do anything.
When the Elder would advise him to pray, that poor disciple answered 'I cannot
pray, I try but I cannot pray'. 'If you cannot pray,'
the Abba said, 'then at least keep vigil at night'.
And the disciple said, 'I cannot keep vigil either'. So the Elder would say,
'If you cannot pray and you cannot keep vigil, then at least
fast'. And the disciple would say, 'I cannot even fast, Elder'.
So eventually the Elder answered him--- and I think his answer applies to us
perfectly today---'If you cannot fast, if you cannot do prostrations,
if you cannot keep vigil, if you cannot pray,
then go into your cell, lock the door behind you,
and stay inside, and your cell will teach you everything'.
And it may seem different from what Saint John of the Ladder has taught us,
but staying inside, keeping yourself, with everything that
you are as a complex human being, inside
your cell is the same as leaving the world behind,
and they both, in fact, are reduced to keeping oneself
in the reality of life, keeping yourself real,
in the reality of the given context of your life. If
you are married, then your cell is your family, and you have to keep
yourself, with everything that you are---your body
and your mind and your words and your heart---within
your family. If you are a monastic then your cell is your cell, your actual
monastery with those people who live there with you, your brothers and your
sisters in the monastic life. If you are a single
person, your cell, your monastery is the Church
and your friends. This is the vow that we make before Him, the tool
we give Him so He can work our salvation. We are the
ones who define and decide what this
saving tool is. If you are married and you keep yourself within the
confinement of your sacrament, the confinement of
your cell, your marriage, then Christ will know
that He can use your marriage, with its joys and its accomplishments as well
as with its difficulties and its sadness, to work everything that is necessary
for your salvation; and similarly for a single person or a monastic person.
These are our monasteries, these are our cells,
and we need to keep ourselves in the reality of that
present, of those people and of the behaviours
that we encounter. This is in fact a battle to keep our minds
and our hearts within the reality that is before our eyes and away,
separated from the world, of a fantasy world which we create
ourselves based on our past and its experiences. All of this may
sound theoretical, all of this may sound like
it's lacking any sort of practical importance, but trust
Saint John of the Ladder and trust the Elders
of the Egyptian desert, separating ourselves
from the fantasy world of our past and grounding our life in the reality of
the here and now, the cell of our monastery, single life or marriage,
is the beginning and the condition, the absolute condition for real growth
in the spiritual life. Let me give you a few examples and maybe that will help us
understand why this is absolutely vital: In a marriage for instance, when your
spouse, your wife for example, says
something that hurts you and then you get
trapped in this never-ending circle of remembering those words
and getting angry and then remembering those words
with the weight of your new anger which makes them sound even worse and then you
get even more angry, and then you remember them again and
they become increasingly annoying and increasingly hurtful,
and every time you remember them you accumulate more and more
anger, it is worth remembering that you are interacting with a person
who is real, this is your wife, this is the person whom you
loved enough to make a vow before God that you would
spend your entire life with this person, that you would become
one with this person before God, this is
not a previous person with whom you've had a previous relationship,
the hurt that she has made you feel has nothing to do with the echoes
of the hurt which other people from your past
have made you feel; if you keep your mind and you bring your emotions within the
confinement, the limits of your cell, of the reality
of your life, the reality of your marriage, and if you
remember simply those words as they were said,
not as you hear them now being influenced by your past emotions
and your past traumas; if you just look at the reality
of that behaviour, the reality of those words, and the reality of
this particular human being whom you loved
so much that you gave yourself to her before God, then within
the reality of that small space and without the influences of your past
fantasy world, you will discover that nothing is as
hurtful or as traumatic as it sounded only a few minutes before.
And the same applies to monastic life: Very frequently people who
have lived more in the world and who have accumulated a lot of experience,
either by being married before, or having tried to live in
other monasteries before they joined a particular community,
or simply people who go into a monastery later in their lives; they've accumulated
so much experience that
everything that they hear, every behaviour that they encounter,
every person with whom they interact is in fact so much more
than those words, that behaviour, and that person,
because every word that you hear has an entire
bibliography behind it, every behaviour that you encounter
has an entire bibliography of references from your past, these references
being nothing else but your past experiences;
and so although the person in front of you, your monastic brother
or your monastic sister, or your friend, or your spouse
has no intention to hurt you, maybe they've just said something that
sounded hurtful because you are going through a bad mood
that particular moment or maybe they are going through a bad mood that particular
moment, or maybe it was just the way that both
of you interacted that morning---it doesn't
matter, the point is that instead of interacting
with the reality of yourself,
the simple, naked reality of that person, those words,
that behaviour, within the reality of your cell,
you have allowed your mind to access the outside world, you have allowed your
mind to access this deep,
endless bibliography of past traumas and past experiences which
inform now---I'd better say deform now the reality of your life;
and I say deform because even what we call the wisdom of our past
experiences, things we learn based on our past,
even that is not much more than fantasy, because we rewrite
our past, we constantly, unwillingly, without knowing most of the
time, we reassess what happened, we renegotiate
what that person has said and how he answered,
and in doing that, we rewrite our past; we learn from a past
that actually was never real. Instead of interacting with the
practical, real realness
of our cells; instead of keeping ourselves
within the walls of our monastery, our friendships, our church, and our
marriage, our minds interact
and react to our past which is all fake, all rewritten
in a way that serves us best. If you think about a temptation,
to give you another example, if you think about the way in which
many of us react to a temptation, if you think about
anger, because we've used anger before, but you can think about anything else:
lust or greed or any other temptation--- if you think about the way in which we
are tempted and then we get to a point where we recognize a pattern
and we know, 'Oh! This has happened not once before, not ten times before, but
hundreds of times before, and every time I got to this point I failed',
and that's the moment when you've actually abandoned, that's the moment
when you've just allowed the enemy, you've allowed that
temptation to take over you, and you've done that because of the same
thing, because instead of keeping yourself
grounded as a soldier of Christ, fighting
till the last breath against that particular temptation, you've allowed
this reality of the temptation, of the
here and now to disappear, and instead of fighting in the here and
now, you've allowed the fantasy world of your
past to take over and to defeat you,
and we do that of course because it's so much more comfortable
than to keep on fighting every time, it's so much more comfortable,
but it is in fact a tragedy, it is a tragedy for at least two reasons---
first, abandoning the reality of yourself and
allowing yourself, allowing your feelings and your mind and your body
to respond to the fantasy world of your past, of the outside world,
is to fail to do anything real, because the people with whom you
interact now, although they are made of flesh and
bones, in your mind and in your heart they are no longer
those real people, they are the fantasy people which your
past has shaped for you; you no longer respond
to the reality of that spouse of yours, or that brother or sister in the
monastic life of yours, you respond to a human
being which was created in your mind, and that
is a tragedy because it is so much easier
to hate, to judge, to condemn,
and to reject a fantasy being than the reality
of your spouse and of your brother. And even
more tragic than this is the fact that when we begin to act that way,
we allow our past, we allow the world, these fantasies which
we have created, we allow them to act as the lens
through which we perceive the world, we allow
this fantasy world and its virtues, which are all false because
we have created them, we have rewritten them,
but we allow them to be the judges of our current real life,
and we end up judging and condemning people
based on the criteria of a fantasy world instead of seeing them for who
they are, and you know why this is the greatest tragedy of all,
because that is idolatry, that is the moment when instead of
allowing Christ to step in in the reality of our present,
and instead of allowing Him to be the lens
through which we perceive the world and the people within our cell,
we allow our past, we allow the inventions,
the false criteria, the false virtues, the false idols, which we created
from the outside world, from our past, to be these lenses,
and instead of responding according to the commandments of the reality of
Christ, which is never to judge, always to love,
to put yourself on a cross in order to save yourself and
every single other human being ever created,
we allow these idols of ours to judge the world and to condemn the
world, and we end up thinking that we serve
God while we butcher our neighbour, we end up believing
that we serve Christ, who is God, God who is Love, when in fact
we butcher spiritually, and sometimes physically, our brothers
and our sisters.
The beginning of any growth in our spiritual life, the beginning
of our spiritual life per se, is to leave the world
behind and to stay in our cell. If you cannot
pray, stay in your cell, and your cell, the reality
of your life, will teach you how to pray. The reality of your marriage, or your
single life, or your monastic life will teach
you how to pray, how to really pray. If you cannot
fast, stay in your cell, forget all about your past, forget all
about the fantasies of that outside
world, of not the now and not the here, the then and the there,
stay in the here, stay in the now, and the pain that you see in the real
people in the here and the now of your life,
that pain, that sin that you will perceive
in them will teach you how to fast for them; the love
which Christ will inspire your heart here and now to feel will teach you,
will force you to fast, will teach you, will force you to pray and to keep vigil,
because your heart will have no rest as long as you perceive a drop of pain
in this reality of your cell. Don't allow the fantasy
of a world which we imagine by projecting,
projecting the experiences of our past onto the reality of our present,
don't allow that fantasy world to compromise our only
hope of salvation, which is to be real and present
in the reality of your cell, whatever that cell may be.
I wanted to record this at night time, because I wanted
to start working on our booklet on prayer by night;
but I couldn't because of my migraine, but in a way
this has also been a blessing and an opportunity,
because this is the beginning of that booklet.
There is no way you can engage with real prayer until you engage
with your real self, alive, existing
in the reality of your real cell.
May God bless every pore of your hearts and of your bodies,
dear ones; and may we all be saved by the prayer of all the Saints
and of the Theotokos.
Amen.
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