Should I come back

Summary

In this reflective video, the speaker looks back on their time in World of Warcraft, exploring the creation of past guilds like 'Hopeless Apathy' and 'Sparta.' They share how their mindset has changed over the years, moving from a toxic, depressed state to a healthier, more positive one. The speaker is contemplating returning to content creation, with ideas ranging from WoW guides to game lore, Minecraft, and anime reviews. They seek feedback from their audience about what content they'd like to see and if they should return to gaming and content creation. This video is a call for support and suggestions for the future.

Takeaways

• 😀 The speaker reminisces about past experiences in World of Warcraft, particularly with their guilds and clans, and reflects on the impact of those memories.
• 😀 The speaker expresses a desire to revive their past guilds, 'Hopeless Apathy' and 'Sparta,' but with a new foundation and less toxicity.
• 😀 They mention personal growth, including physical fitness and improved mental health, as reasons for considering a return to gaming.
• 😀 The speaker explains the origin and meaning behind the guild name 'Hopeless Apathy,' which was created during a time of depression and hopelessness, offering a sense of community and escape.
• 😀 They acknowledge the toxicity in their past gaming experiences but reflect positively on the fun and camaraderie that came with it.
• 😀 The speaker shares their personal struggles, including the loss of a fiancé, the death of role models like Chester Bennington and Juice WRLD, and the impact of COVID-19 on their life, leading to depression.
• 😀 A major turning point for the speaker was overcoming depression, getting back on track with finances, and becoming a happier, more positive person.
• 😀 They express a desire to get back into content creation and are considering starting a community around World of Warcraft or other games, with a focus on paying people for help with moderation and administrative tasks.
• 😀 The speaker outlines various content ideas they are interested in, including World of Warcraft, Path of Exile, Minecraft, anime reviews, game lore, and reaction videos.
• 😀 They emphasize the importance of making content that they enjoy and find sustainable, while also considering the audience's interests.

Q & A

Why is the speaker considering returning to World of Warcraft (WoW)?

The speaker is considering returning to WoW because they are reminiscing about their past experiences in the game, feeling nostalgic about their old guilds, and contemplating the idea of reviving them. They also have a desire to rebuild a community that is less toxic than before, along with a renewed mindset after personal growth.

What was the meaning behind the name 'Hopeless Apathy' for the speaker's guild?

The name 'Hopeless Apathy' symbolized a state of deep depression and lack of hope, which many people in the guild could relate to. It was a reminder that, despite their feelings of numbness and emptiness, the guild and the community could offer solace and support.

How does the speaker feel about their past behavior in the game and their mindset at that time?

The speaker acknowledges that their past behavior in the game was often toxic and that they had a negative, apathetic mindset, influenced by personal struggles. They recognize that they were in a much darker mental state, which affected their attitude toward others. Now, they feel that they have grown mentally and emotionally.

What were some of the personal struggles the speaker faced during the period they were heavily involved in WoW?

During this time, the speaker experienced a difficult breakup with their ex-fiance, the death of role models like Chester Bennington and Juice WRLD, and the onset of the COVID-19 pandemic. These events deeply impacted their mental health, leading to depression and a toxic attitude in their online interactions.

How has the speaker's mindset and lifestyle changed since their time playing WoW intensely?

The speaker has made significant improvements in their physical and mental health, including exercising, working on self-improvement, and gaining a better perspective on life. They no longer feel the need to devote excessive time to gaming or to act in a toxic manner, as they are focused on maintaining a more balanced lifestyle.

What is the speaker's approach to content creation now, compared to the past?

The speaker now wants to focus on content creation that is enjoyable and sustainable, rather than solely focusing on WoW content. They are exploring various types of content, including gaming videos, anime reviews, and even lore content, with an emphasis on creating something both they and their audience can enjoy.

What are some content ideas the speaker is considering for their channel?

The speaker is considering a variety of content types, including gameplay videos, anime reviews (e.g., Invincible, Dragon Ball Z), reaction videos, game lore content (e.g., WoW lore), and even Minecraft and Path of Exile videos. They are also exploring more creative and diverse content formats to keep things fresh and engaging.

How does the speaker plan to structure the potential return to WoW and their community?

If the speaker returns to WoW, they plan to rebuild a community with a different foundation, focusing on a more positive and less toxic environment. They are also considering hiring admins and moderators to help manage the guild, run raids, and organize giveaways, with the goal of making the community welcoming and enjoyable.

What role does the speaker want to take in terms of content creation management?

The speaker wants to play an active role in managing content creation, potentially hiring people to help with editing, moderating, and managing the community. They envision a team of admins and moderators to support the growth of the community, with financial compensation for their contributions.

What is the speaker's stance on the criticism they faced in the past?

The speaker has become more resilient to criticism, particularly from those who made negative content about them. They emphasize that they no longer care about being attacked or harassed online, and they are focused on building positive content and moving forward rather than dwelling on past negativity.