Reel Time: Hindi pito kundi walo ang beki sa pamilya Tubato
Summary
TLDRThe transcript features a personal and emotional monologue by Christian, who is grappling with their identity and societal expectations. They express internal conflict between how their family views them and how they truly feel about their gender. Christian recounts moments of being teased and misunderstood, struggling with their desire to be accepted. Despite societal pressure to conform to traditional male roles, Christian contemplates their future, reflecting on their aspirations, challenges, and the complex dynamics with their family, especially in terms of financial difficulties and emotional support.
Takeaways
- 😀 Christian feels pressured by family expectations to act and present himself as a man, even though he struggles with his true identity.
- 😔 Christian's mother and family believe he should act like a man based on his appearance and behavior.
- 🤫 He hides his true identity from his family due to fear of their reaction, especially from his father.
- 😟 Christian wishes he could be open about his true self, but he feels scared and continues to hide it.
- 👨👩👧👦 Christian's family members, especially his siblings, often tease him and don't fully accept who he truly is.
- 🏀 Christian used to play basketball and act more like a boy in his younger years but started feeling different as he grew older.
- 👗 His family doesn't believe he is feminine or 'bakla,' though some people think his mannerisms suggest otherwise.
- 💼 Christian is focused on his studies and future career to secure a job, knowing that he will need to be self-reliant.
- 😭 The constant teasing and pressure from his family cause Christian emotional distress, but he remains determined to make his own decisions.
- 🙅♂️ Christian's family believes his body and appearance are suited for being a man, adding to the conflict between who he is and what they expect of him.
Q & A
What is the name of the person narrating the transcript?
-The person narrating the transcript is named Christian Bato.
What does Christian reveal about his family's perception of him?
-Christian reveals that his family wants him to be a boy, but he feels that he is not a boy and is afraid to show his true self to them.
What does Christian's mother say about the number of children in their family?
-Christian's mother says there are seven children in their family, but Christian feels that he is the eighth because he is included.
What does Christian express about his appearance and how others perceive him?
-Christian expresses that he does not want to be seen as a boy and is afraid of how his family would react if they knew his true identity.
What does Christian say about his past activities that were typically associated with boys?
-Christian mentions that he used to play basketball, which was a sport typically associated with boys, but he still felt different.
What does Christian's classmate say about him?
-Christian's classmate says that he is really a girl, not a boy, and that he cannot move his body like a boy.
What does Christian say about his siblings' opinions on his appearance?
-Christian mentions that his siblings tease him about his appearance, saying that he does not look like a boy.
What does Christian say about his relationship with his siblings?
-Christian mentions that he is competitive with his siblings, especially with Marlon, and feels pressure to be better than them.
What does Christian reveal about his financial situation?
-Christian reveals that he sells 'chika' (a type of snack) to make money because his family is struggling financially.
What does Christian say about his mother's financial responsibilities?
-Christian mentions that his mother has many financial responsibilities, including paying debts and daily expenses.
What does Christian express about his future dreams and aspirations?
-Christian expresses that he has dreams but cannot afford to pursue them because of financial constraints.
Outlines
😕 Personal Struggles and Identity Conflict
In this paragraph, Christian narrates the challenges of self-identity, particularly the struggle between his true self and the expectations placed on him by his family. He expresses the internal conflict of hiding his identity, afraid of rejection, especially from his father. Despite a desire to be true to himself, Christian continues to conform to societal expectations due to fear and pressure. He mentions his past activities, such as playing basketball, which was more aligned with a male identity, but his desires conflicted with these expectations.
😔 Family Dynamics and Pressure to Conform
This paragraph focuses on Christian's interactions with his family, especially the difficulties he faces when compared to his siblings. He feels overshadowed by his brother Marlon, who has fully embraced his identity, while Christian is still grappling with his own. There is an emphasis on family expectations, financial struggles, and his attempts to provide for himself through small ventures. Christian expresses frustration at constantly being teased by his siblings and the emotional toll it takes on him.
💪 Self-Determination and Defiance
In this final paragraph, Christian reflects on his desire to live authentically despite the external pressures. He asserts that only he can determine his future and make decisions about his identity. Although others, particularly his family, try to dictate what they believe is best for him, Christian recognizes that the final decision about who he is and how he lives his life rests solely in his hands.
Mindmap
Keywords
💡Identity
💡Gender Roles
💡Family Expectations
💡Fear of Rejection
💡Self-Acceptance
💡Societal Norms
💡Conflict
💡Support System
💡Resilience
💡True Self
Highlights
The speaker expresses confusion about their identity, struggling with societal and family expectations of masculinity.
The speaker mentions their fear of revealing their true self to their family, worried about their father's reaction.
The speaker recalls their childhood experiences, being bullied for being perceived as different, and their efforts to conform to masculine norms.
The speaker mentions that they tried to suppress their true identity to meet their family's expectations.
The speaker describes an internal conflict between wanting to be true to themselves and the pressure to appear more masculine.
They express a deep desire for acceptance, noting that their siblings also teased them about their appearance and mannerisms.
The speaker reflects on how others perceive them, emphasizing that their identity is their own decision.
The speaker recalls a moment of realization during their younger years, where they began to embrace their identity but still struggled with societal pressure.
The speaker shares memories of playing basketball when they were younger, trying to fit into a masculine image.
There is a mention of the speaker comparing themselves to their sibling, Marlon, and how they feel they are falling short in terms of societal gender norms.
The speaker notes that their body is perceived as masculine, and this adds to the difficulty of being accepted for who they truly are.
The speaker acknowledges that despite their efforts to conform, they have a natural tendency towards feminine traits.
The speaker talks about the economic hardships of their family, mentioning how they need to find ways to support themselves financially.
They mention their mother borrowing money and how financial struggles add to the complexities of their situation.
The speaker reaffirms that their journey and identity are personal choices and that they are determined to live authentically despite external pressures.
Transcripts
Ako si Christian EST Bato kilalang
pitpit dito sa n 16 nung October 31 lang
ako
ika ika isang a ika 12 sabi ni nanay
pito lang daw ang
pitong pito sila
e ibig sabihin
ang 8
Woo Kasi kasama na ako
[Musika]
doon Michelle ho 5 na ho bango na bango
na parao na palang uno
blue
[Musika]
[Musika]
sabi ni nanay pito lang daw ang bis
dati hindi ko pa sinasabi ang totoo na
ako ba tinatago ko pa sa kanila dahil
Natatakot pa
ako gusto nila maging lalaki talaga ako
pati nung dati
pa gusto ko na sana ilaglag ang pagkatao
ko pero hindi ko ma ilaglag kasi
natatakot ako sa kanila isa gustong
gumay yung
is gusto ka R maging Bak Wala naman
Hindi daw lalaki pa rin daw
siya magagalit si tatay okay lang
Itatago ko pa rin pagkatao ko kung ano
talaga ang ang totoo ang anyo
[Musika]
[Musika]
ko bakit ayaw nilang
maging kasi sabi nila hindi daw
nararapat sa akin magading lalaki daw
talaga ako itsura ko daw
lalaki pati kung Kum daw ako parang
lalaki talaga Hindi daw hindi daw talaga
bading kungo naririnig sa kanila
pinapasok dito nilalabas
dito ang inuuna ko ang pag-aaral ko
dahil kung mawala naman ang mga magulang
namin ako may trabaho na at alam ko na
ang Anong gusto kong gawin
siong
at
aman si sharmina si Liya si
hamir totoo ang magandang Classmate ko
nung grade 1 ako lalaki talaga
ako nung grade 2 rin Grade 2 doon na
naggaganyan
hindi pa rin galaw pa galaw ko pa rin
lalaki pero yun ba Oh mga kasama ko mga
babae nangaasar sila sa akin nagalit rin
ako pag sinasabihan nila ako
bading dati nagba-basketball ako nung
lalaki pa ako nagbasketball kami diyan
totoo lang basketball talaga magandang
laruin lalo na yung magjump jum ka
mag-shoot Anong madalas mong laruin Cha
and Chinese
Garter Ang sabi ko sa
kanag na siya maging bakla kasi nga
hindi niya kaya pagalawin ang katawan
niya pag naki-click siya hindi niya din
kaya kasi h naayos ang sarili niya kaya
niya lang magbili bili lahat ng mga
gamit niya inaayos niya yung mga mukha
niya k h naman siya maganda mag
tigas-tigas ng
katawan h mo ako naniniwala kasi kasi
may nagsasabi rin sa akin niya O
marunong daw talaga mag kembot malambot
daw talaga ang katawan
ko pati maganda daw R saakin magbaba
kung mahaba na daw talaga buhok ko
magbakla kasi nakita daw nila ang isang
kapatid ko kasi mukha kasi mukha daw
niya ganyan ganyan kasi kakambal daw
kami dalawa Hindi
man Marlon Opo naman kasi magkapatid
kami
pwede yung ganda ko Ano ka
baa ako kasi ako ang mahabang ngon don't
you will be better than me Sino mas
maganda sa inyo ni Marlon Si Marlon pa
rin Talo na talo na ako dahil siya ang
nauna siya lang siya ang naunang naging
ganyan ako ang first runner at siya na
talagang
[Musika]
nanalo Ba't yan Ang Tsinelas mo ang
tsinelas ko ginamit sa kapatid
kananga sa kapatid ko si
Christopher
mahirap nahihirapan
ako palitan mo
yan ka naman bag pero magpapakalalaki ka
para sa kanila ipalabas ko rin kung kung
anong mga yun sa mga yun oh
babae Ganyan din ang
akin asukar
[Musika]
is chika lang meryenda ganyan tawag
namin dito chika lang may nagbibili sa
akin 50
100
20 sa naghahanap pa sila
[Musika]
kulang chik lang chika
lang chika lang namin masarap Ba't ka
nagbebenta ng chik lang ganyan na talaga
pag walang pera naghahanap talaga ng
paraan para magkapera
[Musika]
ka ph
ph umaasa sa nanay ko kasi alam ko rin
ang nanay ko Madami rin siyang yun o
kasi nangutang yan siya may binabayaran
yan siya everyday
nagdidiskusyon
supposed to be dapat Ang kinita ko
ngayon
140 kinain ng mama ko ang isa ngayon 135
na lang isa sa ulit ko ng hiniram kong
pera akin
55 Ba't mo anongo binigay mo kay nanay
75 day mamaya ko na bayaran ha kasi wala
pa ako binayaran Ha Oo babayarin ko na
yan mamaya Oo
Ilan y day
PH Pangarap
moas pangarap ko pero walang pang bayad
pero sinabi ko man sa kanya itago lang
kasi babayaran ko talaga
[Musika]
y Hindi
naman mahaba buhok mo at alam nila na
Bading ka
[Musika]
talaga Ong mukha ko dahil gusto ko ung
totoo Ayaw ko ung ano tayo mag an mag
kokopya sa mga babae maglalagay tayo ng
boobs ayaw mo yung simple lang
bding Sino mas maganda sa inyo Ako hindi
ka maganda Kasi wala ka pang Anong kas
Bakit ako maganda kasi babae talaga oo
alam namin na babae ka
Magsisisi ka muna ngayon kasi ikaw bata
ka paan kayo magkakapatid sa seven si
Ricardo si Manuel si Mark Si Marlon
Christopher si Bonnie si Rick rck Si
Christian daw hindi na yan hindi pa siya
bagay kasi yung katawan niya panglalaki
tingin mo malaking mask ladoo niya pwede
din sa amin Tama
hindi pati pang niya panglalaki dapat
siya maging lalaki yan si Christian
Bakit sabi ni Bonnie ito lang daw silang
baling sinungaling yan umiyak ako dahil
palagi nila
ako tinutukso mga kapatid ko sino ba
naman hindi iiyak kahit kay kahit kayo
pin paniwalaan mo na sila na na ako ay
lalaki
talaga
kakainis manukso na lang wala pa talaga
sa lugar dting nga raw katawan mo hindi
Nam ako naniniwala kasi kasi may
nagsasabi rin sa akin na Oo marunong da
talaga mag kembot malambot daw talaga
ang katawan ko hindi daw tunay pwede
kayo
paniniwalaan hindi kayo ang nagdadala sa
aon ko Ako ang nagdadala ako ang
magdesisyon kung ano ang gusto ko sabi
nila kung ano ang nararapat para saakin
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