Living With High Functioning Anxiety | Jordan Raskopoulos | TEDxSydney
Summary
TLDRIn this TED Talk, the speaker humorously contrasts their confidence on stage with their struggles offstage due to anxiety. They discuss how they thrive in public speaking but face 'life fright' in everyday social situations. The speaker shares personal anecdotes about coping with anxiety, including challenges in social settings, procrastination, and the need for structured environments. They also highlight the paradox of being both shy and loud, as well as the strength gained from managing anxiety. The talk combines humor, vulnerability, and insights into the complexities of mental health.
Takeaways
- 🎤 The speaker loves performing on stage and feels at home there, despite having an anxiety disorder.
- 🗣️ People often misunderstand mental health issues, reducing them to stereotypes like 'crazy' for mentally ill or 'sad' for depressed.
- 🤯 The speaker experiences anxiety in everyday situations, not on stage, which challenges the common perception of anxiety.
- 👥 'Shy loud' is a term the speaker uses to describe people who are shy in private but loud on stage, reflecting the complexity of social anxiety.
- 💼 High-functioning anxiety can lead to high achievement because of a fear of failure and a heightened sense of worry.
- 📈 The speaker finds that managing anxiety involves focusing on one thing at a time, which is easier on stage than in daily life.
- 📆 Procrastination is a coping mechanism for the speaker, where the work is done mentally before it is physically executed.
- 🤔 The speaker's anxiety makes simple tasks mentally draining, which is a common experience for those with high-functioning anxiety.
- 🏡 Controlling one's environment and having designated spaces for different activities can help manage anxiety.
- 🤝 Having allies or friends who understand and support the speaker's anxiety is crucial for navigating social situations.
- 💪 The speaker's anxiety has also given them strengths, such as the ability to handle stress and crisis situations effectively.
Q & A
What is the main theme of the speaker's TED Talk?
-The main theme of the speaker's TED Talk is the exploration of her experience with anxiety, specifically how she can be confident on stage yet struggles with social anxiety in everyday life.
How does the speaker describe her relationship with anxiety?
-The speaker describes her relationship with anxiety as having 'life fright' rather than stage fright, meaning she feels anxious in everyday social situations but not when performing on stage.
What is the term the speaker uses to describe herself and others who are shy yet perform well on stage?
-The speaker uses the term 'shy loud' to describe herself and others who might be shy in everyday situations but are loud and confident on stage.
What does the speaker mean by 'high-functioning anxiety'?
-The speaker refers to 'high-functioning anxiety' as a type of anxiety where individuals can work and function well in society, often being high achievers and perfectionists, but their anxiety is so high that simple tasks require a lot of mental energy.
How does the speaker cope with the anxiety of preparing for her TED Talk?
-The speaker copes with the anxiety of preparing for her TED Talk by procrastinating until the last minute, during which she mentally rehearses the talk, and then writing it out well-formed at the last minute.
Why does the speaker find it difficult to complete tasks when given a list of things to do?
-The speaker finds it difficult to complete tasks when given a list because she becomes anxious about all the items on the list, leading to procrastination and an inability to start any of them.
What paradox does the speaker mention about being perceived as arrogant and lazy?
-The speaker mentions the paradox that people perceive her as confident, outgoing, and fun on stage, but in person, they perceive her as rude, aloof, and arrogant due to her shyness and social anxiety. Similarly, they see her as talented and smart but lazy and unreliable because of her struggles with deadlines and communication.
How does the speaker use hobbies to manage her anxiety?
-The speaker manages her anxiety by engaging in hobbies that require concentration and brain power, such as painting, playing strategy games, and participating in roller derby.
What role do the speaker's friends play in helping her navigate social situations?
-The speaker's friends act as allies in social situations, helping her by introducing themselves to share the conversational load, recognizing when she needs to leave, and assisting her in exiting social events.
What does the speaker suggest is a strength that comes from her anxiety?
-The speaker suggests that her heightened level of stress and worry due to anxiety makes her very good in situations where others might be stressed and worried, such as on stage, in public speaking, and in moments of crisis.
What advice does the speaker give for dealing with anxiety?
-The speaker advises that talking about anxiety helps, as does cognitive behavioral therapy, having hobbies that engage the brain, controlling one's environment, and having allies or friends to help in social situations.
Outlines
🎤 Confidence on Stage vs. Anxiety in Life
The speaker begins with an energetic introduction, highlighting their love for performing and how they don't suffer from stage fright. Despite being confident on stage, they reveal that they struggle with anxiety in daily life, often feeling timid and nervous in social situations. The speaker contrasts their ability to control a performance with their struggles in regular conversations, emphasizing the nuanced nature of mental health. They explain that people misunderstand mental illness, often stereotyping it as extreme or constant fear, when in reality, anxiety affects them in specific situations, like meeting new people or engaging in social settings.
😰 Life Fright vs. Stage Fright
The speaker describes their experience of 'life fright'—anxiety during everyday activities such as attending social events, talking to strangers, and feeling out of place. They mention how this anxiety influences their behavior, leading to overthinking about simple tasks and social interactions. The speaker shares that they only recently learned about situational anxiety, social anxiety, and high-functioning anxiety. These terms resonated with them, especially as they explain that they perform well in society, often achieving high success due to their fear of failure. However, tasks requiring high levels of stimulation, like social events, can lead to mental shutdowns, making them struggle with completing even simple activities.
🕰️ Procrastination and the Pressure to Perform
The speaker talks about their experience preparing for a TED Talk, describing how they struggle with typical task breakdowns and schedules, which makes them procrastinate out of anxiety. They find that worrying about multiple tasks prevents them from starting any of them. Interestingly, their procrastination process often allows them to prepare mentally in the background, so they can eventually produce well-formed content. They acknowledge that this last-minute approach is unhealthy, unsustainable, and contributes to misconceptions about their personality, as they seem arrogant, lazy, or unreliable to others. They clarify that their perceived shortcomings are often due to their anxiety, not a lack of effort or care.
🧘 Finding Peace in Performance
The speaker explains that they rarely relax, even during moments of procrastination, as they are constantly rehearsing or thinking about their work. Performing on stage is the only time they feel relaxed, as it allows them to focus on one task. They mention the freeing realization of understanding their mental health challenges and the importance of talking about it openly. They advocate for cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) as an effective treatment and share how staying engaged in hobbies helps them manage anxiety. The speaker describes how controlling their environment and using specific spaces for specific tasks helps them cope. They also rely on friends as allies in social situations, ensuring they never face them alone.
💪 Strengths and Coping Mechanisms
The speaker reflects on the strengths they have developed as a result of dealing with anxiety, such as being able to handle high-stress situations well. This ability helps them excel at public speaking and improvisation. They recount how their anxiety allows them to focus and take control during crises, which contrasts with their struggles in regular social interactions. The speaker shares the irony of being comfortable talking to a large audience about anxiety while being too afraid to make a simple phone call for help. They highlight how they use humor and vulnerability in their performance to manage anxiety, demonstrating that talking about mental health openly can be therapeutic and empowering.
Mindmap
Keywords
💡Rock and Roll
💡Anxiety Disorder
💡Stage Fright
💡Mental Health
💡Situational Anxiety
💡Social Anxiety
💡High-Functioning Anxiety
💡Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT)
💡Shy Loud
💡Life Fright
💡Procrastination
Highlights
The speaker expresses excitement and encourages audience participation.
The speaker discusses the common misconceptions about anxiety disorders and their personal experience.
The speaker explains how they feel confident on stage but anxious in everyday situations.
The speaker humorously shares their fear of social interactions and 'life fright'.
The concept of 'shy loud' is introduced to describe people who are shy but perform well in certain situations.
The speaker discusses 'situational anxiety', 'social anxiety', and 'high-functioning anxiety'.
The paradox of shy loud people is explored, where they are perceived as confident but struggle with social interactions.
The speaker shares their unproductive procrastination habits due to anxiety.
The benefits of leaving tasks to the last minute for the speaker are humorously highlighted.
The speaker talks about the importance of hobbies and activities that require concentration to manage anxiety.
The speaker emphasizes the need for control over one's environment to cope with anxiety.
The speaker shares their experience with seeking professional help for anxiety.
The speaker discusses the strengths that come from dealing with anxiety, such as quick wit and crisis management.
The speaker humorously mentions their fear of phones but being able to talk in front of thousands.
The speaker concludes by encouraging talking about mental health issues as a form of therapy.
Transcripts
[Music]
woo come on yes
yes Rock and Roll come on Sydney let's
make some
noise
yeah awesome yeah all right yes now make
some noise if you love t
X
yes Make Some Noise if you hate public
speaking yes Make Some Noise if you
suffer from stage
fright Make Some Noise if the idea of
giving a talk in front of thousands of
people is your
nightmare yes yes it's not for
me no I love this I love this this is my
heart home uh I know how this works I
know all the rules here I know how this
works I know I can drop my voice a
little bit get a little more
conversational talk to someone in the
front row hey how you doing Ted X am I
right rock and
roll and then when I look up we all feel
like we know each other a little bit
better yeah I know that I can walk over
here and say something silly like
fart
fart you probably laugh maybe not it's
pretty conservative audience it was a
risk
[Applause]
I know that I can raise my voice to a
crescendo and let silence hang for 3
seconds and then speak
quietly purposefully and softly and I
have your full
attention I do not get stage fright so
people find it really odd when I tell
them that I have an anxiety disorder how
on Earth can you have a problem with
with anxiety Jordan when you are so
confident on stage well see the problem
is I am only confident on stage if you
meet me afterwards or in the street you
will see me as a timid mumbly wreck who
is probably lost for words see the
nuances of mental health are often lost
on people when people hear mentally ill
they think crazy when people think
depressed they think sad when people
hear anxiety they think very very scared
all the time and for some people that is
their truth but it's not for m not for
me no I am very very scared in
particular situations scenarios with
particular processes with particular
people and I am surprisingly confident
in other situations which would be
terrible for people like
this when people describe the sensation
of stage fright they often say things
like I'm nervous
I might be lost for words I might forget
what to say uh people are looking at me
people are judging me uh I think it's
all too much everything is racing in my
head and I feel like I'm going to
freeze and I know those feelings I just
don't get them on the stage I get them
when I'm talking to someone and I don't
know what their name is I get them if I
go to a party and I turn up too early or
too late or overdressed or underdressed
or if I don't see anybody I know
I get them in most conversations
particularly conversations with people I
don't know very well I get terrified
when I have a chatty taxi
driver or
hairdresser or
plumber I get terrified like I said in
most conversations I'm terrified of
checking my email and I am absolutely
petrified about talking on the telephone
yeah yeah I don't get stage fright I get
life
fright sometimes I'll try to challenge
myself think I might go out for the
weekend and meet people have a good time
you know so I'll get all dressed up put
on a nice frock put my do my makeup get
an Uber cross my fingers he doesn't want
to
chat and I'll get to an event uh
probably a bit early I notice that
nobody's there yet so rather than be the
first one to go in I think I'll stand
outside for a little bit and Pace back
and forth but then I I think oh maybe
people are watching me pacing back and
forth and that's not a really good thing
to be doing so I'm just going to walk
around the block a couple of times but
after I've done that for a little while
then I think oh maybe people are
noticing me walk around the B I better
go in I go in I notice that I don't know
anyone and so I go to the
toilet for a good 20 25
minutes then I think oh there's probably
people waiting for the toilet and
they're standing out going what is it
with this woman in the toilet why is she
taking so long what is wrong with her
bow I really need to go and so I leave
the toilet I notice that there's a bit
of a queue and I notice that they are
watching me and they are judging me and
my thoughts are racing I don't know what
to do and I freeze like I say life
fright it is only been in the last
couple of years that I have spoken to
people uh who have a similar
relationship with anxiety as I do it's
quite common amongst performers actually
and I have one friend who describes
herself as shy loud
yeah and I quite like the phrase shy
loud he perfect um and it was only in
the last year that I actually became
acquainted with the ideas of situational
anxiety social anxiety and high
functioning anxiety now the thing is
when somebody's anxiety is high
functioning that means that they work in
society in fact we work really well uh
us shouds uh we have such a heightened
sense of worry and such a fear of
failure that we are often very high
achieving and perfectionists the problem
is that our level of worry is so high
that even simple tasks require a huge
amount of mental energy and completing
multiple tasks at the same time is very
difficult which is why situations where
there's a lot of stimulation like a
party can overwhelm us and make us shut
down when I was asked to come on board
and uh give a TED Talk I was told that
the organizers like to be very involved
with the
talks yes and
so when I signed up I was bombarded with
a whole series of emails many phone
calls and a schedule of when I was going
to have a coffee and a meeting and when
they were going to expect a plan and a
first draft and a second draft and when
we're going to have a rehearsal and a
dinner and another coffee and a
chat all reasonable things right have
some social occasions to make people
less nervous you know and break down the
task into manageable chunks complete the
first task then the second task and so
on so the whole job is done without
anyone getting stressed out makes sense
not for
me when I see a list of seven things I
then get worried about seven things and
because I don't ever get a little bit
worried I am a lot worried about seven
things and I find it very difficult to
do any of them and so I worry and I
procrastinate and I do nothing at all I
would do much better if someone said you
have to do a TED Talk see you at the Ted
Talk the cool thing that I found out
though is with the type of work I do uh
My worry is actually me doing the work
so whilst I'm sitting there
procrastinating not actually doing
anything I am doing it just in the back
of my head so when it comes time to
write the thing it just comes out pretty
well formed for example this talk was
prepared at 5:00 in the morning on the
day of the first
rehearsal so all I've worked out right
is I just need to leave everything to
the last minute and it'll be
fine which is an absolutely terrible way
to work okay it's not sustainable uh it
it doesn't work in every scenario uh
it's not very good for my well-being and
when I talk about it like that I sound
very very
arrogant and that is the Paradox of the
shy loud people see me on stage and they
presume that I am confident and outgoing
and fun and well spoken and when they
meet me in person they notice that I
don't up hold up my end of the
conversation I rarely start
conversations I have trouble making eye
contact I ask very few questions and I
often make excuses to leave so they look
at me and determine from these two sets
of behaviors that I am
rude and I am aloof and I am arrogant
when people work with me they see that
my work is generally of a high quality
but they also see that I don't answer
the emails I don't answer the phone I
struggle with deadlines and so they
determine once again that yes I am
talented and yes I am smart but I am
lazy and I am
unreliable the truth is I'm not rude
I'm very nice I'm also very very shy I'm
not aloof I actually care about the
thoughts opinions and feelings of people
so much that I'm often stunned into
silence and I don't know what to
say I'm not
arrogant
man I actually have quite a low opinion
of
myself and I'm not lazy I actually think
about the work that I am doing so much
that I just can't do it I never get to
relax I never stop I'm never relaxing
even when I'm procrastinating you know I
did prepare the talk at 5:00 a.m. on the
day of the rehearsal but I was actually
rehearsing it for a good two months
beforehand in the back of my head I
never
relax unless I'm here in these spaces in
this time that I get to share with an
audience because when I am in this space
I only need to focus on one thing
fart there
is yeah said fart at Ted
Talk there's something very freeing
about finding out that you have a mental
health issue oh there's nothing wrong
with me there's just something wrong
with
me maybe I can do something about that
and I have talking helps talking about
it helps so this right now is helping
which is really good cuz you don't get
paid for doing a TED talk
so might as well get some therapy out of
it genuine therapy is really really good
too and if you find someone uh who can
help take you out of yourself and
analyze your own behavior in MO moments
of Crisis and calm yourself down that is
really great uh I'm not a psychologist
so I won't go into the mechanics of
cogni behavioral therapy but I will say
that it is very good for these sorts of
things I also find that I am most
anxious when I am idle so I find it hard
to relax when I've got nothing to do so
I have a lot of hobbies and in
particular I have hobbies that engage my
brain and require a lot of concentration
uh so I paint I play games of strategy
and I also do roller derby yeah yes yes
cuz it requires a lot of brain power to
stay on Wheels and not get hit
also my roller derby name is judge
booty controlling your environment is
really important too and if I find that
I'm in a situation where I can't cope
I'll find a way to take myself out but I
also take control of the environments
that I occupy different parts of my
apartment are are devoted to different
parts of my life if I am writing I write
by the desk near the window if I am
painting I paint at the red desk near my
bedroom uh near my kitchen if I am
playing games I play on the desk in my
bedroom okay basically if you have
anxiety all you need to do lots of
desks I also have allies I have friends
I make sure that I don't go to social
occasions alone uh and if they see me
struggling in a conversation they will
introduce themselves to share the load
uh often starting by asking the person's
name just to make sure that I've got it
they also know to recognize when I need
to evacuate and help me get out yeah the
other thing that I've noticed is the
strength that I have because of my
anxiety I deal with such a heightened
level of stress and worry that I am
often very very good in situations when
people are typically stressed and
worried very good on stage quite good at
public speaking I'm a very good
improviser I am quick witted but I'm
also really really good at taking charge
in a moment of Crisis like I said when I
can focus on one thing I
thrive when I first thought that I might
have a problem with anxiety I spoke with
my doctor and my doctor said yes it
sounds like you might have a problem
with anxiety you would benefit from
speaking to an expert and then she
handed me a piece of paper with a phone
number on
it and I thought about ringing that
number for a long
time I'm just too bloody scared of
phones and yet I have no issue talking
about it to 4,000 people tonight fart
[Applause]
[Music]
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