The reason why I'm Chistian

Summary

In this video, the speaker explores their evolving perspective on faith and love. Initially skeptical about the existence of goodness, they questioned religious concepts and believed success was linked to selfishness, while selflessness led to failure. After struggling with personal challenges, they turned to the idea of divine love for healing. A pivotal moment came when they realized that love comes from within, and the answer to their struggles wasn’t a specific person but the concept of goodness itself. The speaker’s journey reflects their growing connection to Christianity and spiritual understanding.

Takeaways

• 😀 The speaker is not yet a Christian but believes in the existence of good and the importance of goodness in the world.
• 😀 The speaker feels that good must exist, and without it, something is wrong in the world.
• 😀 Initially, the speaker was skeptical of good and disliked the idea because it required obedience, which seemed restrictive.
• 😀 The speaker thought that selfish people would be successful, while those practicing love and justice would become poor or struggle.
• 😀 The speaker fought against societal norms but eventually failed in their efforts.
• 😀 In an attempt to change their mindset, the speaker tried to 'modify' their brain, which led them to shut off their conscious awareness.
• 😀 This self-imposed change caused the speaker to lose all sense of love, prompting a search for a way to recover it.
• 😀 The speaker believed that a 'beautiful guard' could help restore their lost love, but this belief did not provide the answer they were seeking.
• 😀 The speaker ultimately realized that the answer to recovering love came not from any external figure but from the concept of good itself.
• 😀 The speaker was influenced by a song from the AL project, which helped them understand that the 'beautiful guard' was not the answer, leading to a closer connection with the idea of good.
• 😀 Ultimately, the speaker concludes that the concept of good is the source of love and personal fulfillment, aligning them closer to Christianity.

Q & A

What does the speaker mean by 'close to Christianity'?

The speaker refers to being close to Christianity in terms of their belief in the concept of 'good' but not fully identifying as Christian. They believe in the existence of good and its importance, but they have not fully embraced the faith itself.

What does the speaker believe about the existence of good?

The speaker believes that good must exist in the world. They feel that without good, everything would be wrong, which reflects their perspective on morality and the need for goodness to exist.

What was the speaker's initial view on Christianity?

Initially, the speaker disliked Christianity because they felt it required strict obedience to predefined rules. They believed it imposed a set structure on people's actions, without leaving room for personal preferences.

Why did the speaker struggle with the concept of good?

The speaker struggled because they felt the concept of good required obedience to a system that didn’t align with their own desires and beliefs. This created a sense of conflict with the idea of enforced moral standards.

How did the speaker attempt to modify their own mindset?

The speaker attempted to modify their own mindset by consciously trying to alter their brain, which led them to a state of oblivion. They sought to change their internal consciousness but felt they lost their sense of love in the process.

What role did love play in the speaker’s journey?

Love was central to the speaker’s journey. They felt that love was essential for their well-being, and at one point, they believed that external forces, like a beautiful girl, might restore it. However, they later realized that love could not be externally sourced but was rooted in something deeper.

How does the speaker relate to the idea of recovering love?

The speaker ultimately discovers that the key to recovering love is the concept of good, not a person or external substance. They find solace in the idea that goodness is what can restore and guide them toward love.

What does the speaker’s story have to do with the 'AL project' song?

The speaker's story is depicted through the 'AL project' song, referencing lyrics that speak to their feelings of searching for love and grappling with their personal transformation. The song appears to have helped articulate their internal struggles and emotional journey.

What realization does the speaker have about a girl they mention?

The speaker realizes that the girl they initially thought could provide the answer to their quest for love and guidance was not the solution. This moment of clarity shifted their perspective away from looking for love in external sources.

What conclusion does the speaker come to by the end of their reflection?

By the end, the speaker concludes that the answer to their quest for love and understanding lies in embracing the concept of good, which has brought them closer to a Christian-like perspective, even though they do not fully identify as Christian.