OPENING UP ABOUT MY EATING DISORDER | Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID)

Ashley
5 Aug 202019:02

Summary

TLDRIn this video, Ashley discusses her personal experience with Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID), a condition that has affected her since childhood. She shares her journey, the challenges it has posed in social and professional settings, and the misconceptions surrounding it. Ashley also talks about her limited diet, her past attempts to overcome the disorder, and her plans for the future, including starting a new YouTube channel focused on food.

Takeaways

  • 🎥 The video is hosted by Ashley, who addresses her audience, both new and returning, with a warm welcome.
  • 🌟 Ashley announces the launch of a new YouTube channel focused on food, separate from her current channel.
  • 📅 She plans to post her first video on the food channel on August 8th and encourages viewers to subscribe.
  • 🍽️ The main topic of the video is Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID), which Ashley personally struggles with.
  • 📚 Ashley provides an overview of ARFID, explaining that it's a relatively new entry in the DSM-5 and is distinct from anorexia and picky eating.
  • 🚫 People with ARFID severely limit the types or amounts of food they eat, which can lead to nutritional deficiencies and health issues.
  • 🥗 Ashley shares her personal experiences with ARFID, discussing specific foods she avoids and the reasons behind her choices.
  • 🔍 She describes the social and professional challenges ARFID presents, such as eating in public or during professional events.
  • 🤔 Ashley has tried various methods to overcome ARFID, including hypnotherapy, and is currently focusing on accepting her condition.
  • 💡 The video aims to raise awareness about ARFID, dispel misconceptions, and provide support to others who may be experiencing similar struggles.

Q & A

  • What is the main topic of Ashley's video?

    -The main topic of Ashley's video is about her personal experience and struggle with Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID).

  • What is ARFID and how does it differ from anorexia?

    -ARFID is a condition where individuals severely limit either the amount or type of food they eat, or both. Unlike anorexia, people with ARFID do not stress about their body shape or size, and they don't have a fear of gaining weight.

  • How is ARFID different from being a picky eater?

    -ARFID is different from being a picky eater because it involves severe limitations and often leads to nutritional deficiencies, whereas picky eating is a temporary phase that most children outgrow as they try new foods and expand their dietary horizons.

  • What are some of the symptoms of ARFID mentioned in the script?

    -Some of the symptoms of ARFID mentioned in the script include dramatic weight loss, constipation, lethargy, upset stomach, severe restriction of food types or amounts, fear of choking or vomiting, lack of interest in food, irregular periods in women, dizziness, fainting, sleep problems, dry skin, thinning hair, muscle weakness, and impaired immune functioning.

  • What is Ashley's new YouTube channel about?

    -Ashley's new YouTube channel is centered around food. She plans to critique places in LA and other places she travels to, based on certain foods she eats, cook, and possibly include mukbangs.

  • What is unique about the way Ashley eats food?

    -Ashley is selective with her foods and restrictive with the amount. She has specific reactions to the texture, color, and smell of food, and she avoids green fruits and vegetables, particularly broccoli.

  • How has ARFID impacted Ashley's social life?

    -ARFID has impacted Ashley's social life by making her avoid social situations involving food. She finds it embarrassing to order off the kids menu on dates or to have to explain her eating habits to new friends.

  • What are some of the foods Ashley typically eats?

    -Ashley typically eats foods like grilled cheese, tomato soup, pasta, pizza with specific restrictions, meats like chicken and steak, and sugary or carb-based foods like candies and desserts.

  • How does Ashley's ARFID affect her professional life?

    -Ashley's ARFID makes professional situations awkward, especially when food is involved. She may not eat anything at professional lunches or dinners, which can reflect negatively on her in a professional setting.

  • What methods has Ashley tried to overcome her ARFID?

    -Ashley has tried facing her fears by eating the foods she's afraid of, hypnotherapy, and taking supplements to ensure she gets necessary nutrients. Currently, she's not trying new methods but is considering seeing a behavioral therapist in the future.

  • What is the significance of the date August 8th mentioned in the script?

    -The date August 8th is significant because it is when Ashley plans to post her very first video on her new food-centered YouTube channel.

Outlines

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🎥 Introduction and Personal Connection to ARFID

Ashley, the host, welcomes viewers to her channel, expressing hope for their well-being. She introduces the topic of Avoidant/Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID), a condition she has personally struggled with. Ashley explains her motivation for creating this video was to raise awareness about ARFID, as it is a relatively new and under-discussed issue. She aims to show those affected that they are not alone and to clarify misconceptions. Ashley also promotes her new YouTube channel focused on food, which will feature critiques of food places, cooking, and mukbangs, starting with a video on August 8th. She invites viewers to subscribe and discusses her current channel's focus on personal and fashion topics.

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🍽 Understanding ARFID and Personal Experiences

Ashley provides an overview of ARFID, distinguishing it from anorexia and picky eating. She explains that ARFID involves severe limitations on food types or amounts but without the body image concerns of anorexia. Symptoms can include weight loss, constipation, lethargy, and social challenges around food. Ashley shares her personal experiences, noting that her ARFID manifests more in food selectivity than restriction. She describes her aversion to certain food textures, colors, and smells, particularly green vegetables like broccoli, which cause panic attacks and disgust. She recalls a period of severe calorie restriction, which she now recognizes as unhealthy. Ashley's narrative emphasizes the psychological impact of ARFID and its influence on her life since childhood.

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🥗 Dietary Restrictions and Social Challenges

Ashley discusses the specific foods she eats, which are limited to certain carbohydrates, sweets, and some proteins, with a strong aversion to vegetables mixed with other foods. She admits to having a childlike diet, preferring simple and familiar meals. The social implications of her eating disorder are significant, as she avoids situations involving food to prevent embarrassment or the need to explain her condition. Ashley recounts experiences of feeling judged or misunderstood, even by therapists, which adds to the challenge of managing ARFID. She also touches on the professional impact, where her eating habits can be perceived as immature in business settings.

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🌟 Coping Strategies and Future Outlook

Ashley talks about her attempts to overcome ARFID, including trying new foods and hypnotherapy, which did not have the desired effect. She currently focuses on living with her condition, taking supplements to ensure nutritional needs are met, and accepting her dietary limitations. She expresses a desire to try behavioral therapy in the future. The video concludes with Ashley's hope that sharing her experiences will help others feel less alone and encourages viewers to engage with her content. She invites questions and feedback, promising to address them in future videos, and thanks her audience for their support.

Mindmap

Keywords

💡Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID)

ARFID is a feeding and eating disorder characterized by the avoidance or restriction of food intake, causing significant distress or impairment in the individual's life. In the video, the creator, Ashley, discusses her personal experiences with ARFID, highlighting its impact on her life and how it differs from anorexia and simple picky eating. The script mentions that ARFID was formerly known as selective eating disorder and is now recognized in the DSM-5, indicating its clinical significance.

💡DSM-5

The DSM-5, or the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fifth Edition, is a widely used classification system for mental health disorders. It serves as a guide for clinicians and researchers to diagnose and understand mental health conditions. In the context of the video, Ashley refers to ARFID as a relatively new addition to the DSM-5, emphasizing the importance of its formal recognition in the field of mental health.

💡Picky eating

Picky eating typically refers to the selective consumption of certain foods, often seen in young children and usually outgrown as they mature. The video script contrasts picky eating with ARFID, noting that while picky eating is a temporary phase, ARFID is a more severe and persistent condition that continues into adulthood and requires clinical attention.

💡Nutritional deficiency

Nutritional deficiency occurs when the body does not get enough of one or more nutrients, which can lead to various health problems. In the video, Ashley discusses the potential for ARFID to cause nutritional deficiencies due to the restricted intake of certain foods. She mentions taking supplements to counteract this, underlining the importance of addressing nutritional needs despite her limited diet.

💡Social impact

The social impact of ARFID is significant, as it can affect an individual's ability to participate in social situations involving food. Ashley shares her experiences of feeling embarrassed or awkward during dates or social gatherings due to her dietary restrictions, which can lead to isolation or difficulty in maintaining relationships.

💡Hypnotherapy

Hypnotherapy is a therapeutic technique that uses hypnosis to access the subconscious mind to create positive changes in behavior or emotional patterns. Ashley mentions trying hypnotherapy as a method to overcome her ARFID, suggesting that she explored various treatments to manage her condition, although it did not lead to the desired outcome.

💡Supplements

Supplements are substances taken to provide nutrients that may be missing or not consumed in sufficient quantities in one's diet. Ashley discusses taking supplements to compensate for her limited food intake, which is a common practice for individuals with ARFID to ensure they receive essential nutrients despite their restrictive eating habits.

💡Anorexia

Anorexia is an eating disorder characterized by an intense fear of gaining weight and a distorted body image, leading to extreme food restriction. The video script distinguishes ARFID from anorexia by noting that individuals with ARFID do not necessarily have a fear of body size or shape, but rather have a restrictive or avoidant relationship with food based on other factors such as texture or taste.

💡Food texture

Food texture refers to the physical sensation experienced when food is manipulated in the mouth during eating. Ashley mentions that the texture of food can be a trigger for her ARFID, causing her to avoid certain foods like seafood due to its texture. This highlights how sensory experiences can significantly influence food choices in individuals with ARFID.

💡Fear of choking

A fear of choking is a common symptom among individuals with ARFID, often leading to the avoidance of certain foods that may be perceived as difficult to swallow. In the video, Ashley does not explicitly mention this fear, but it is listed as a symptom, indicating the range of psychological responses that can be associated with ARFID.

💡YouTube channel

Ashley announces the launch of a new YouTube channel dedicated to food, which will involve critiquing restaurants and cooking, given her specific dietary preferences. This part of the script shows how she is leveraging her personal experience with ARFID to create content that is both relevant to her condition and engaging for her audience.

Highlights

Ashley introduces a new YouTube channel focused on food critique and experiences.

The new channel will feature critiques of food places in LA and during travels, with a focus on Ashley's specific dietary needs.

Ashley discusses her personal struggle with Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID).

ARFID is a relatively new addition to the DSM-5, previously known as selective eating disorder.

People with ARFID severely limit the amount or type of food they eat, unlike anorexia which involves body image concerns.

ARFID is different from picky eating as it persists beyond childhood and involves severe restrictions.

Symptoms of ARFID include dramatic weight loss, constipation, lethargy, and nutrient deficiencies.

Ashley's personal experience with ARFID involves selective eating based on food's texture, color, and smell.

Ashley recalls a period of severe calorie restriction, leading to malnutrition and health issues.

ARFID has impacted Ashley's social life, leading to avoidance of food-related social situations.

Ashley has tried various methods to overcome ARFID, including hypnotherapy, with limited success.

Supplements have been a part of Ashley's routine to address nutritional deficiencies due to ARFID.

Ashley's dietary restrictions have affected her professionally, creating challenges during work-related meals.

The video aims to raise awareness about ARFID and to let others with similar struggles know they are not alone.

Ashley invites viewers to engage with her content by subscribing to her channels and sharing their thoughts.

Transcripts

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[Applause]

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hey everyone welcome back to my channel

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or welcome to my channel if you're new

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here my name is ashley and i hope that

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you are having a wonderful

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day an original week and

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a wonderful life so today i'm going to

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be talking about something that has

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affected me

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for like as long as i can remember part

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of the reason that i wanted to make this

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video was because i haven't really seen

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anybody

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talking about it granted it is like a

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relatively new

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thing but still i haven't really seen

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anybody talking about it and i know

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that when i was younger and even now if

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i had seen people talking about it would

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have helped me

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a lot just to know that i am not the

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only one

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going through this so i wanted to make

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this video to let people know who may be

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going through a similar thing

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that you are not alone i also wanted to

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make this video

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to spread some information because as i

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said it's a relatively new thing i don't

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really see it being talked about that

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much

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so a lot of people don't really know

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about it and there's a lot of

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like misconceptions about it so i just

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wanted to share some information

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i also kind of wanted to make this video

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because i wanted to

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plug myself for a second i'm going to be

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starting a new youtube channel that is

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separate from this one and it's

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completely centered around

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food so as i'm going to talk about in

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this video there are only certain foods

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that i eat so i thought it would be fun

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to make a youtube channel dedicated to

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critiquing places in la and like if i

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travel places than those places but

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taking the certain foods that i eat

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and specifically critiquing them to my

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like very

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specific specifications

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i couldn't think of a better way to say

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that i'll also include

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like cooking on that channel and

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mukbangs and stuff like that so if

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you're interested in any of that go

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ahead and subscribe i will have it

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linked

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down below and i will be posting my very

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first video

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this saturday august 8th i believe

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i do try to post every wednesday on this

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channel um this is more of like a

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personal channel and lately it's been

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more of a fashion channel

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however just starting out i don't think

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i will be posting consistently on

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that channel i really don't eat out that

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much especially because it's a

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pandemic i'm not eating out as much as i

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would like to

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for safety reasons um but when i do i

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will be filming it when i cook something

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different or something that i like i

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will be filming it and it will be up on

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that channel

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so go ahead and subscribe i would really

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appreciate it thanks and i mean if

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you're new here and you're not

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subscribed to this channel you could

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also subscribe to this channel if you

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wanted to

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just say okay let's actually get into

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the video now

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the eating disorder that i'm going to be

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talking about today that i suffer from

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is avoidant restrictive food intake

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disorder or arfin

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it used to be called selective eating

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disorder however now it is called

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arfid it is a relatively new addition to

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the dsm-5 if you don't know what the

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dsm-5 is it is

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the diagnostic and statistical

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manual of mental disorders the fifth

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edition

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first i'm gonna give a little overview

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of arfid and then i'm gonna talk about

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how

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it manifests for me specifically because

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it is different

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for everybody i'm also gonna talk about

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some of the things that i do and don't

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eat and why i

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do or do not eat them and then i'm going

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to talk about how

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having this eating disorder has impacted

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my life

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as like a social aspect and as like a

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child and

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stuff like that and then i'm going to

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talk about things that i have done to

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try to overcome this eating disorder and

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what i am currently doing

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to overcome it so our food is really

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similar to anorexia in the sense that

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people who have it

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severely limit either the amount of food

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or the type of food

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that they eat or both they could

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limit the amount and type of food i

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guess however unlike anorexia people who

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have arfid

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do not stress about their like body

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shape or their body size or like

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have a fear of like having fat on their

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body or anything outfit is also really

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different from

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just being a picky eater so i'm i'm

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pretty sure like most kids go through a

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picky eating phase

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where they only eat certain foods

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usually foods that are not very good for

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them but then eventually as

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they grow up they outgrow it they try

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different foods they expand their

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horizons

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and eventually they are able to eat like

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a normal adult which

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is eating most things obviously

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everybody has foods that they don't like

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but most adults are capable of trying

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new foods

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and eating a majority of food

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also typically when adults who don't

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have our food come in contact with foods

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that they don't like

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they don't have like physical or severe

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like mental

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reactions to the food they simply just

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don't like it

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because people with arthritis severely

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limit the types and amounts of foods

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that they eat they can be severely

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deficient in

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the amount of food that they're eating

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and in the nutrients that they're

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getting

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and this can lead to them being very

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underweight or extreme weight loss and

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also being very like nutrient deficient

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which can lead to a host of other issues

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so a lot of the symptoms of arfid are

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like dramatic weight loss um

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constipation

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lethargy having like an upset stomach

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all the time or like feeling like you

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have an upset stomach severely

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restricting

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the amount or the type of food that you

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eat having a fear of choking or vomiting

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just having a lack of interest in food

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in general

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men who suffer with arfid they can have

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irregularities in their period

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um you could have dizziness fainting

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sleep problems dry skin

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thinning hair muscle weakness and

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impaired immune functioning so people

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with arthritis they either

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limit the amount of food that they eat

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meaning like the calories that they

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intake

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or physically like the amount of bites

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that they're eating specifically

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um stuff like that or they might limit

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the types of foods that they eat and

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that could be based on

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a variety of criteria such as the

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texture of the food the color of the

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food

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the smell of the food um

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i'm trying to think if there's a certain

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thing about the food

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they like won't eat that certain thing

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if that makes sense so

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for me personally i am more selective

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with my foods than i am restrictive with

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the amount of foods

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there's only one time that i can

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remember being really restricted with

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the amount of food that i was eating

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um some might even say that i was having

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a

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moment of anorexia i guess if

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i guess that's how it's like defined um

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i was severely limiting the calories

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that i wasn't taking to probably

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at a maximum 500 calories a day and that

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was mostly because i went to the doctor

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and i saw my weight on the scale

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and i did not realize i had gained that

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much weight and

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something in my head clicked and said

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that i needed to lose that weight

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instantly no matter how i did it no

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matter how unhealthy it was i needed to

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lose it by

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like the day before like i was not

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something in my mind was like you are

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not allowed to be that big

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and that feeling sucked i was very

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malnutritioned looking back on pictures

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from that time

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i was very pale i was really really

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skinny

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i took it a little bit too far i looked

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tired i was tired all the time but i

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looked tired all the time

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and i was getting sick like all the time

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which really sucked for me personally if

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i don't like the smell of the food i

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can't eat it

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like seafood i can't do it also the

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texture of the food can sometimes

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put me off from eating it also the main

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color that triggers

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me the most is green so like i can eat

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like green candies and stuff

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but like green fruits and vegetables

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freak me out

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specifically broccoli broccoli is like

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the number one food that i do not eat

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i have definitely had a few bad

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experiences with broccoli um those are

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definitely

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like story times and i don't want to put

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it in this video because it's going to

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be too long but yeah definitely some

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bad broccoli experiences so when i do

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come in contact with foods that i don't

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eat the way that our food manifests for

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me

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is in panic attacks and just like

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complete

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disgust for things like vegetables which

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are the number one things that i do not

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eat those tend to be the things that

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give me panic attacks

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specifically or just complete disgust so

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there are a lot of foods that i have not

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tried

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but just looking at it i can imagine how

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it feels

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to bite into it how it sounds to bite

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into it

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and how it tastes just by looking at it

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i like create this whole like

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profile for it in my head i guess and i

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just feel

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disgust to the point where sometimes i

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do want to throw up i don't actually

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throw up but sometimes i want to throw

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up

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i don't know how to explain it other

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than i just feel disgusted

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so i remember suffering from this from

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the time i was about like six years old

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probably

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um but i can't remember a time where i

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didn't suffer from it however my parents

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did tell me

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that when i was younger i used to eat

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literally anything you put in front of

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me except for like

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a couple things obviously um like sweet

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potatoes i think

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other than that like i would steal food

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off of people's plates like i

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loved every single food vegetables

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fruits

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everything i loved it all um and then i

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can kind of remember

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one day when i was about six i think six

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or seven something like that

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when i just came home and i was just

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like i'm not eating vegetables anymore

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and that was that my parents rightfully

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just thought i was like a normal kid and

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i was just gonna be a picky eater for a

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little bit and then eventually i would

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get over it

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like most kids do um so this is not

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their fault at all they want to push me

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too hard to eat it because i was also a

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very like defiant

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kid and i think they knew that i would

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that would make me not want to eat it

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more so they just planned on letting it

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like play out

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um they would try here and there to get

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me to eat it obviously but it was never

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forced

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so it's definitely not their fault at

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all i'm sure sometimes they do

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blame themselves for my inability to eat

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foods that are really good for me but

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it's definitely not their fault at all

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it's entirely like me

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and like a mental thing that i have

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going on that i just i can't figure out

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how to fix it

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but because that's around the time that

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i stopped eating

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most things um that happens to be the

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like

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food group that i got stuck in i guess i

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don't know if that happens for everybody

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but that happened with me so i

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eat like a child like a seven-year-old

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like things that like kids like

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beg to eat like i eat that um it's a

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very small list so it's like grilled

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cheese

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and tomato soup and i can only dip in

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the tomato soup i can't like eat the

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tomato soup with a spoon that's like so

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weird

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like pasta pizza so meats

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chicken steak if i get something like

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tacos

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like i have to have it with just the

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meat and the tortilla there can't be any

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vegetables i can't eat anything mixed

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with vegetables so

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i can't eat a hamburger because there's

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vegetables all up on that and i also

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don't like ground

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beef so then i eat things like pancakes

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cereal most cereal anything that's like

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sugary or like

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carbs um like candies desserts

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stuff like that that's all i eat pretty

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much

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i also further restrict that list

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because something like

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pizza for example if it's a new pizza

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place i haven't tried i don't like

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chunky sauce so no chunks of tomatoes or

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onions or any of that

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so i have to lift up the cheese and if

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there are chunks in the sauce then i

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just scrape the sauce off and then i

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just have the

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bread the cheese and the pepperoni and

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that's it so

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my very narrow list is narrower because

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i

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also am very selective with the way that

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those foods are prepared i guess

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so how having this eating disorder has

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affected me

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obviously nutritionally i was lacking a

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lot of the natural

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foods and things that would give me the

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nutrients that i need however my parents

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did teach me from a very young age that

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if i'm not going to be eating those

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things

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then i need to take supplements in the

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form of like vitamins

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so i have been doing that all my life

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and i

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every time i go to the doctor they tell

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me i'm healthy i'm in good shape

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as a kid arfit affected me because i

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would take hours and hours to eat

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everything because i had to examine

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every single bite of what i was eating

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for example say i was eating like a

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chicken nugget or something

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i would bite into it and then i would

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have to examine

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the next bite to make sure that i wasn't

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going to be biting into

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a piece of fat because for some reason

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the texture and like the sound of biting

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into a piece of fat

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made me think that i was like biting

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into an eyeball like a chicken eyeball

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and i was

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terrified that i was going to be eating

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a chicken eyeball and so i needed to

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like examine every bite

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so it would take me hours and hours to

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eat also as a kid

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my parents would have to make me

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different meals than them all the time

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so i pretty much ate pasta every night

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from what i can remember sometimes i

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would have

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like boiled chicken or something but for

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the most part it was pasta

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and still most of my meals are pasta um

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just this one specific kind of pasta

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that my mom used to make me all the time

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i still make it for myself

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most days um but that was definitely

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like a hassle

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for my mom who was cooking my food

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obviously when i was a kid i couldn't

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cook my own food because she would have

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to make like my

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parents meals and then my meal

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separately

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also as a kid telling them that i didn't

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want to eat something people

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would try to force it on me and be like

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oh you just haven't tried it you don't

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know if you like it whatever

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and that i'm not gonna say that that was

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like traumatizing for me

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but it was definitely a really really

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negative experience to have it forced on

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me

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um i didn't like that and again i was a

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defiant kid so i think that that made me

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more like well now i'm

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definitely not eating it because you're

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forcing it on me i don't know what was

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wrong with me as a kid i'm still like

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that though

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so not much has changed um another way

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that it's affected me

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is for example on like a date or

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something if we go to a fancy restaurant

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fancy restaurants usually have all these

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like toppings and things mixed in and

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things that i just don't like i like it

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very plain and basic

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um so i would usually have to order off

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the kids menu

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on a date which is so embarrassing

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luckily people that i dated were

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typically really understanding of it but

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still pretty embarrassing socially this

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has definitely impacted me because i

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just tend to avoid social situations

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where food is involved altogether

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they're terrifying for me i don't want

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to have to explain myself especially if

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there's going to be a lot of people

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there i don't want to have to

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explain it like to disclose it it feels

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embarrassing to have to disclose it to

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people all the time

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but if i don't if i was like oh i just

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don't eat it then i feel rude

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like when i was in high school or

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something and i would sleep over a

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friend's house and

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their parents would make dinner or

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something i would just have to say like

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oh i already ate

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then i would just like pick at snacks

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for the rest of the night or something

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even though like i probably didn't eat

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and like that small like

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treat was like my whole dinner um or i

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would just have to say like sorry i

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don't eat that which made me feel so

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rude and like so bad because i was so

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appreciative that they would even make

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me food at all

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but like i physically could not eat it

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also when i make new friends obviously

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friends go out to eat and stuff

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and so i have to explain that i can't

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eat

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certain things and like i have to

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disclose it to them

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and then it kind of sucks because it

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feels like in the friendship

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we're forced to eat whatever i want to

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eat and never what they want to eat that

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makes it a little bit inconvenient and

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hard and so i feel like i just don't

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really want to hang out with people in

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general because i don't

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want to like feel like i'm forcing them

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i guess

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to like eat whatever i want to eat like

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they should be able to eat what they

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want to eat you know

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also sometimes people can be kind of

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like

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judgmental about it i've even had i've

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gone to like a couple of therapists

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about it

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and like they were pretty judgmental

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about it one of them even

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laughed at me like a therapist so that

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just kind of makes it harder to like

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tell people about it because you never

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know who's going to be like super

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judgmental or who's going to be like

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understanding

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thankfully i have been telling a few

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more people recently and

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they have been really understanding

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which i'm super thankful for

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and having other people like be

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understanding about it just makes it a

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little bit easier when

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like the time comes that i have to

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disclose it to

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more people also affected me

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professionally so there are some like

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professional lunches or dinners or

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whatever that i have been to

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where the restaurant that we pick or the

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catering that's there like i just don't

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eat anything

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and in a professional setting it's so

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awkward because

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like i said everybody automatically just

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assumes like oh she's just a picky eater

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um but it's a little bit weird for an

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adult to be a picky eater

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and i feel like for some reason it

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negatively like reflects on me in like a

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professional way like

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it just makes me seem like immature like

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a kid who's a picky eater

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because again like it's it's not like

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socially acceptable for an adult to be a

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picky eater most of the time for some

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reason so in those situations normally i

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would just pick out like appetizers or

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the bread that's there or something like

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that

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but if there's not any then i won't eat

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anything and it's really awkward

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to be the only one in any situation but

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especially in a professional

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scenario um it's really awkward to be

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the only one not eating

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so that's many of the ways that it's

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affected me

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some things that i've done to try to fix

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it i've tried just

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getting over it like everybody suggests

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i've tried just to eat the foods and i

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have those physical

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disgusted reactions um and no matter how

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hard i've tried

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it's it doesn't really change i also do

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have some motivations that will allow me

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to

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try a new food i don't think it would

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allow me to eat foods that i already

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know i don't like but foods that i

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haven't tried

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there are some motivations that let me

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try those i also tried hypnotherapy i

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thought at hypnotherapy

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like the hypnotist would just hypnotize

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me and then like snap her fingers

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and then something in my brain would

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like click and then

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i would be good to go like i could eat

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whatever but that's not how it happened

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let me know down below if you want a

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story time of my hypnotherapy experience

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so some things that i'm doing now to fix

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it i'm still kind of coming off of the

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whole hypnotherapy thing even though it

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was like a year ago i'm still kind of

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coming off of it but i'm kind of

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just going with the flow

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um and by that i mean i am not really

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trying anything new

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and not trying to eat any vegetables i'm

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also taking

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like supplements and stuff as i always

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have been but i think the supplements

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i'm taking now

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are better than the ones i was taking

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before because i feel a lot

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healthier so that's pretty much what i'm

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doing now in the future i think i would

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want to try

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going to a behavioral therapist so i

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think

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that that is it hopefully this video

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isn't too long

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but i wanted to share some information

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and share my experiences

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with our fin so if you have any

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questions feel free to

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leave some comments down below and i can

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make another video answering them or i

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can just answer them directly if there

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aren't that many of them

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also let me know if you all want to hear

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some like story times

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um they were kind of traumatic but like

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kind of funny about me

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trying to eat like vegetables or like a

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new food or something

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i have a few of those so i can totally

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make videos about that if you all want

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um give me a thumbs up if you learned

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something new

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in this video and don't forget to go

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my food channel if you want to i really

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appreciate it so

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thank you all so much for watching thank

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you for listening

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hopefully you learned something new or

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hopefully i let you know that you are

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not alone and how you're feeling and the

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experiences that you have

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i feel like that's super important to

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let people know that they are not alone

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in those things

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so hopefully i helped with that a little

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bit

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i will see you all next week in my next

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to my food channel then i will see you

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so until then i hope you stay safe and

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healthy and happy

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and all that good stuff and i will see

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you then bye

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you

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