JUDE ANTOINE TESTIMONY
Summary
TLDRIn this powerful testimony, a 45-year-old man recounts his journey from a sheltered Catholic upbringing to a life of despair following his father's sudden death at 45. At age 15, he faced his father's passing alone, leading to a rebellion against God and a downward spiral into a life of crime and self-loathing. Three years later, on the brink of suicide, he challenged God for a sign, and a profound spiritual experience transformed his life, filling him with peace and a new purpose. He now shares his story to inspire others and demonstrate the power of faith.
Takeaways
- 👨👩👦 The speaker is an only child who grew up in a protective and religious Catholic family.
- 🙏 Despite a lack of formal religious education, the speaker participated in Catholic sacraments due to his father's close relationship with the parish priest.
- 😢 At age 15, the speaker experienced the sudden death of his father, which deeply affected him and led to a crisis of faith.
- 🏠 The speaker, being the only child, had to take responsibility for his father's funeral, a burden that fell on him at a young age.
- 😡 The speaker's life spiraled downward after his father's death, leading him into a life of crime and self-hatred.
- 🔪 At the lowest point, the speaker contemplated suicide as a way to escape his pain and despair.
- 🌟 In a moment of desperation, the speaker decided to give God a 'second chance,' seeking a sign or intervention.
- 👼 The speaker experienced a profound spiritual encounter where he felt a presence and heard a voice, which he attributes to God.
- 😇 This experience led to a transformation in the speaker's life, replacing anger and hatred with peace and a renewed sense of purpose.
- ✝️ The speaker emphasizes the power of faith and the belief that God can overcome sin and change lives, encouraging others to entrust their sins to God.
Q & A
How old was the speaker when he lost his father?
-The speaker was 15 years old when he lost his father.
What was the speaker's relationship with his father like before his father's death?
-The speaker was very close to his father, as he was an only child and his father was a strong influence in his life.
What was the speaker's initial reaction to his father's death?
-The speaker was shocked and could not understand how his father, who was strong and had no history of illness, could die from a single heart attack.
How did the speaker cope with his father's death at the age of 15?
-The speaker took on the responsibility of handling his father's funeral, trying to stay strong and not show emotions like crying or sadness.
What was the speaker's view on religion after his father's death?
-The speaker became disillusioned with religion, seeing it as a fabrication by weak men to cope with their own weaknesses, and he walked away from God, church, and faith.
What negative path did the speaker's life take after his father's death?
-The speaker's life spiraled downwards as he got involved with the wrong crowd, engaging in extortion and visiting prostitutes, leading to a life filled with anger, hatred, and self-loathing.
What was the turning point for the speaker that led him to reconsider his stance on God?
-The turning point was when the speaker, at the age of 18, decided to give God a second chance and asked for a sign, after which he experienced a supernatural encounter that changed his life.
What supernatural experience did the speaker claim to have had?
-The speaker claimed to have felt a physical presence and heard an audible voice that told him God would be his father from that day forward and would change his life.
How did the speaker's life change after his supernatural experience?
-After the experience, the speaker's anger, pain, and hatred were replaced with a sense of peace, and he began to speak in tongues, which he later learned was a spiritual gift.
What message does the speaker want to convey about God's love and forgiveness?
-The speaker wants to convey that God loves people immensely, is willing to do anything for them, and that their sins are not an issue for God, who conquered sin on the cross.
What advice does the speaker give for breaking the stronghold of sin in one's life?
-The speaker advises recognizing the need for God's help and handing over one's sins to Him, implying that this is the way to break free from the cycle of sin.
Outlines
😔 Loss and Disillusionment
The speaker, Jude, shares his life story starting at the age of 45, being an only child in a protective Catholic family. He recounts his close relationship with his father and the minimal religious education he received, leading to a superficial understanding of his faith. At 15, he experiences the sudden death of his father, which deeply shocks him and leaves him feeling lost. He attempts to pray but feels disconnected from God. Taking on the responsibility of his father's funeral, he feels overwhelmed and decides that religion is a fabrication by weak men, leading him to abandon his faith. His life spirals downward for three years, filled with anger, hatred, and a sense of hopelessness.
🔪 A Desperate Turn and Divine Intervention
Jude's life continues to deteriorate as he gets involved with criminal activities and prostitution, harboring deep resentment towards everyone, including God and himself. After three years of his father's death, he reaches a breaking point and contemplates suicide. However, a thought to 'give God a second chance' enters his mind. After a struggle, he challenges God to show Himself. To his surprise, he feels a physical presence and hears a voice promising to be his father from that day forward and to change his life. This experience fills him with peace, and he begins to sob, releasing years of pain and anger. The speaker concludes by emphasizing the love of God and the power to overcome sin, encouraging the audience to surrender their sins to God.
Mindmap
Keywords
💡Asthma
💡Catholic
💡Holy Communion
💡Heart Attack
💡Funeral
💡Depression
💡Sin
💡Gift of Tongues
💡Suicide
💡Redemption
💡Faith
Highlights
The speaker, at 45 years old, reflects on his life as an only child and his close relationship with his father.
Despite being asthmatic, the speaker's parents were very protective, and he had a strong bond with his father.
The speaker's Catholic upbringing is detailed, with a focus on his early religious experiences and the role of the parish priest.
At 15, the speaker's father suffered a fatal heart attack, which left him shocked and questioning his faith.
The speaker was left to handle his father's funeral at a young age, an experience that deeply affected him.
A moment of crisis led the speaker to question God's existence and his role in his father's death.
The speaker's life took a downward spiral, involving negative influences and self-destructive behaviors.
After three years of turmoil, the speaker considered ending his life as a way out of his despair.
In a moment of desperation, the speaker decided to give God a 'second chance', seeking a sign or intervention.
A profound experience of feeling a presence and hearing a voice led the speaker to a spiritual awakening.
The speaker describes a transformative moment where he felt a release of anger and pain, replaced by peace.
The speaker's life changed dramatically after this encounter, leading him to a renewed faith and purpose.
The speaker shares the message that God's love is unconditional and that he is willing to do anything for those who believe.
The speaker emphasizes the power of faith in overcoming sin and the importance of surrendering to God.
The speaker concludes by encouraging the audience to recognize and break free from the stronghold of sin in their lives.
Transcripts
you can be free you know friends let me
just give you a brief testimony of my
own life I'm 45 years old I said just
now 45 years old and I am the only child
in my family there was mummy daddy and
Jude no brother no sister Lone Ranger
not even Tonto you know Tron Tron only
only child I was born asthmatic and
because I was born asthmatic my parents
were very very protective of me I was
very very close to my father very very
close to my father at the age of 15 my
father okay before before that we grew
up in a very good Catholic family my
parents were very close to the parish
priests and as as a young man for my
Holy Communion because my father was
very close to the parish priest even and
said to the parish priest father never
mind my son only learn never mind I
don't need catechism trust too much okay
just give him a Holy Communion okay God
within two months of catechism I got my
Holy Communion then after that
confirmation same thing happened never
mind love my son like give him holy
confirmation now okay then two months
our catechism I got my confirmation so
my understanding of my Catholic faith
was when Father Son Holy Spirit our
Father Hail Mary glory be I know when to
stand up sit down kneel down to walk in
front stick out my tongue
God was there I was in the chair God you
stay there I stay here I'm happy you're
happy
okay I was a good Catholic I was good
Catholic at the age of 15 years all my
my father went to work my father worked
in the railways he went to work and I
went to school and middle of school the
principal comes to my class to say Jude
your mother called to say that your
father's very sick in hospital I'm to
take you back home so grab your school
back and I will take you back home and
on he he put me in the car and as he was
driving me home the principal told me
and Jude actually what your father's
what your mother said was that your
father had had a heart attack
he had collapsed and died in the
hospital I was shocked
remember I was 15 my father at that time
was 45 my age now 45 years old he was a
strong man he never smoked never drank
alcohol
had a history of heart problem never had
a cough cold flu fever I could not
remember him sick for all my life and
here he was went to work get one heart
attack the first heart attack
collapsed and died and I could not
understand how that was possible so for
the first time sitting in the car I
tried to pray and say God please don't
take away my father but you know you
know what I didn't know how to talk to
God so I ended up saying our Father hill
made a glory be until the car drove into
the house and sure enough as the car
drove into the house my body was in a
stretcher in the living room of my in
the living room of my house we usually
keep the body at home for two nights and
and my father was adopted so there was
no one from his side of the family to
take care of the funeral
my mother had had strained relations
with her family and so there was no one
from her side of the family even to
handle the funeral arrangements so at
fifteen years old I undertook my
father's funeral my father's funeral at
fifteen years old I was the man of the
house I said I'll make my heart strong
don't feel anything no cries no tears I
will handle my father's funeral and I
undertook the coffin the Undertaker that
cemetery the church the whole thing we
keep the body like I said in the house
for two nights the first night my mother
sat awake with the body the second night
I said awake with the body at about 12
o'clock when everybody else was asleep I
was sitting next to my father's coffin
and I'm trying to figure out how is this
possible
this man 45 years old no history of
heart problem just one heart attack and
died he's not responsible I'm not
responsible I figured my mother is not
responsible so guess who's responsible
God I said you know God you're
responsible we had a good Catholic
family we have a Bible in the house
except nobody opens the Bible so it's
full of dust you know so I wipe the dust
off the cover and I open the Bible it
was written in English but look like
Greek to me
I said to God God they say this is your
word tell me from your word why you took
away my father God was absolutely quiet
I said this is nonsense I threw the
Bible against the wall
I said to God God you tell me now and
Wrekin fifteen years old you know I said
to God God you'll tell me now why you
took away my father but God was
absolutely quiet two o'clock in the
morning three o'clock four o'clock five
o'clock six o'clock the Sun was rising
God was
absolutely quiet that day I made up my
mind
15 years old I made up my mind that God
church religion faith Christianity
Catholicism was a load of crap it was
not there was no such thing it was made
up by weak men to satisfy their own
weakness so they created a God like that
so there is really no God because it's
impossible that if there is a God he
could allow something like this to
happen so that day friends I walked away
from God Church religion faith 3 years
of my life spiral downwards it became
worse and worse there was no God my
father was dead I was my mother was in a
in the pit of depression
she had no concern for what was
happening to me and there I was no one
to care for me I got involved with the
wrong company of friends the next three
years of my life was a spiral downwards
friends I got involved with people who
extort money from the customers of
prostitutes and with a with a knife he
would go stick the knife at the back and
say your wallet please and I got
involved with these kind of people I
visited the prostitutes myself I got
involved with these people I got
involved with everything except drugs in
the back lanes of the streets of the
city that I come from messed up my life
my heart was filled with anger and
hatred I hated myself I hated the people
around me I hated my father for dying on
me I hated my mother for being in the
depression I hated God I hated myself
for being in this in this very big mess
and it only went deeper and deeper it
was like quicksand that was pulling me
deeper and deeper and deeper at the end
after three years after the death of my
father I came to this point that the
only thing that made sense to me was to
end my life so I thought to myself since
I extort money with her with a knife so
I will also finish my my life also with
a knife so I thought I would slash my
wrists and it'll be over so three years
after that of my father I put the knife
in the living room of my house my mother
was asleep three rooms behind I put the
knife in front getting ready to slash my
wrists and as I was about to do that a
thought came into my mind give God a
second chance give God a second chance
I said why give God a second chance he's
never been around for me not for my
father not for my mother why give God a
second chance
the thought persisted what have you got
to lose nothing to lose give God a
second chance and after 45 minutes of
struggling with this thought I said okay
if there is really if really there is a
God you show yourself to me arrogant 15
I said that I'm 18 years old
I reckon 18 years old if you're a god if
there is a God you show yourself to me
now I believe but not tomorrow my life
will be finished by then now you show
yourself to me friends what happened
after that changed my life the moment I
said those words I was sitting in a sofa
the back of the sofa was a wall there
was no one in the living room except me
and as I said I sweat those words
I felt somebody standing behind me and
putting a right hand over my shoulder
but there could be no but nobody
standing behind me because it was just a
wall but I felt a physical hand in my
shoulder then I heard a voice a voice an
audible voice as clearly as you hear my
voice now I was not in my head but in my
ears
the voice said to me dude it was I who
took away your father but from this day
onwards I will be your father
and I will change your life forever
friends when my father died I did not
cry I did not cry but that day I began
to sob and sob and sob and as I cried
the anger the pain the hatred was all
being lifted out and in its place in its
place there was tremendous amount of
peace peace was coming into my heart
filling my heart my tongue started to
move by itself I thought I was going
crazy later they told me that was called
a gift of tongues that one day friends
changed my life 1981 changed my life
friends you have a God who loves you so
much loves you so much he will do
anything for you because you are so
precious to him because you are so
precious to him
your sin is not an issue for him he
conquered sin on the cross 2,000 years
ago
amen your sin is defeated all you got to
do is give your sin into his hands very
quickly let me let me wrap up by by by
sharing with you how to break the the
stronghold of sin in your life first
recognize
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