VIVIR SIENDO SOCIOPATA (Entrevista a Kanika Batra)

Summary

En esta entrevista, Kanika aborda su diagnóstico de trastorno de la personalidad antisocial, también conocido como sociopatía. Explica que se caracteriza por la falta de empatía y remordimiento, y desmiente la idea de que los sociopata son inherentemente malvados. Kanika es consciente de sus capacidades manipuladoras y busca cambiar su enfoque hacia la compasión y el amor, a pesar de su naturaleza. Ella también discute su relación con el amor y la felicidad, y cómo su diagnóstico le ha proporcionado un sentido de cierre y entendimiento de sí misma.

Takeaways

• 😔 La trastorno de personalidad antisocial (ASPD) se caracteriza por la falta de empatía, culpa y remordimiento.
• 🗣️ No se considera un término médico formal, pero a menudo se asocia con comportamientos manipuladores y carismáticos.
• 🌟 La entrevistada describe su personalidad como animada y amigable, a pesar de su diagnóstico de ASPD.
• 🤔 Ella siente que la percepción pública de las personas con ASPD está distorsionada y que suelen ser malinterpretadas.
• 🚫 Existe una preocupación personal por no querer ser abusiva, ya que reconoce la capacidad de manipulación inherente al trastorno.
• 🔄 Ha trabajado en cambiar su forma de ver las situaciones y a las personas, luchando contra sus instintos naturales.
• 💔 Aunque no siente remordimiento por acciones pasadas, reconoce que fueron incorrectas y crueles.
• ❤️ A pesar de su falta de empatía, es capaz de amar y mantener relaciones significativas.
• 🤝 Ha cambiado su enfoque hacia ser más atento a las necesidades y deseos de los demás, involucrándose en movimientos de justicia social.
• 🕒 La revelación de su diagnóstico a los 13 o 14 años le brindó una perspectiva sobre su diferencia con los demás.

Q & A

¿Qué es el trastorno de la personalidad antisocial según Kanika?

El trastorno de la personalidad antisocial es caracterizado por una falta de empatía, culpa y remordimiento. Las personas con este trastorno no se conectan socialmente con otros de manera apropiada según las normas de la sociedad y tienden a ser manipulativas.

¿Cómo describe Kanika su propia personalidad a pesar de su diagnóstico de ASPD?

Kanika se describe a sí misma como muy alegre y amigable. A pesar de no sentir culpa o remordimiento y tener una empatía mínima, cree que es una persona compasiva y leal a sus amigos.

¿Por qué Kanika cree que los individuos con ASPD suelen tener un mal nombre en los medios?

Kanika cree que los individuos con ASPD tienen un mal nombre en los medios porque algunos individuos con este trastorno que cometen actos horribles son los que reciben la atención, lo que genera una mala percepción general sobre todos los individuos con ASPD.

¿Cómo es el miedo de Kanika a convertirse en un abusador dado su diagnóstico de ASPD?

Kanika tiene el miedo de convertirse en un abusador debido a su capacidad para manipular a otros, ya que es fácil abusar de alguien cuando no tienes empatía, remordimiento o culpa. Por eso, se esfuerza por cambiar la forma en que ve las situaciones y a las personas.

¿Qué significa para Kanika el amor y cómo se relaciona con su capacidad de empatía y remordimiento?

Para Kanika, el amor no está directamente relacionado con la empatía o el remordimiento. Aunque ve las relaciones como más transaccionales que otros, cree que puede amar profundamente a pesar de su diagnóstico de ASPD.

¿Cómo describe Kanika su felicidad y de dónde obtiene su alegría?

Kanika menciona que su felicidad es rara y de corta duración. Alega que obtiene alegría de su pareja, programas de televisión, salir y socializar, y su amor por sus gatos.

¿Qué consejo le da Kanika a alguien que se identifica con su descripción de ASPD?

Kanika aconseja que cualquier persona que se identifique con sus descripciones debería ser evaluada por un psiquiatra para obtener un diagnóstico adecuado y no confiar en el autodiagnóstico.

¿Cuál fue el impacto del diagnóstico de ASPD en la vida de Kanika?

El diagnóstico le proporcionó un sentido de cierre y entendimiento sobre su situación. Aunque temía el estigma y la reacción en los medios, cree que es importante abrazar su diagnóstico para ayudar a otros y para su propio bienestar.

¿Cuál fue la edad en la que Kanika se dio cuenta de que era diferente a los demás?

Kanika se dio cuenta de que era diferente a los demás alrededor de los 13 o 14 años, notando que no experimentaba las mismas reacciones emocionales que los demás ante situaciones comunes.

¿Cómo responde Kanika a la idea de que los individuos con ASPD pueden tener éxito y contribuir positivamente a la sociedad?

Kanika argumenta que los individuos con ASPD no son inherentemente malas personas y que, en circunstancias adecuadas, pueden lograr mucho y contribuir positivamente a la sociedad, citando ejemplos de ejecutivos, médicos y abogados con éxito.

Outlines

00:00

😔 Diagnóstico y Comprensión de la Trastorno Antisocial de Personalidad

Kanika aborda su diagnóstico de trastorno antisocial de personalidad, también conocido como sociopatía. Explica que este trastorno se caracteriza por la falta de empatía, culpa y remordimiento. A pesar de que 'sociopatía' y 'psicopatía' no son términos médicos actuales, describe cómo la persona con este trastorno tiende a ser manipuladora y carismática, lo que puede llevar a una mala percepción en la sociedad. Kanika reflexiona sobre su propia personalidad, destacando que, aunque no siente remordimiento o culpa, se considera compasiva y leal a sus amigos. Afirma que no debería ser definida únicamente por su trastorno y critica la estigmatización que sufren las personas con ASPD.

05:02

😥 Reflexiones Personales y Cambios de Comportamiento

Kanika comparte su experiencia personal con el trastorno antisocial de personalidad, incluyendo sus acciones pasadas y cómo ha cambiado su forma de responder a las personas. Reconoce haber participado en peleas físicas y conflictos, pero ahora busca ser más compasivo y amoroso para no repetir esos errores. Describe su enfoque en la autosupervisión y la mejora de su comportamiento, a pesar de la dificultad de ir en contra de sus instintos. Además, menciona su participación en movimientos de justicia social y su éxito en la vida personal, como tener una relación estable y escribir un libro, logros inusuales para alguien con ASPD.

10:04

🤔 Identificación Temprana y Perspectiva sobre el Amor y la Felicidad

Kanika reflexiona sobre su identificación temprana de ser diferente a los demás a los 13 o 14 años, notando su falta de reacción emocional frente a situaciones que afectaban a otros. A pesar de su dificultad para experimentar una felicidad profunda y duradera, encuentra alegría en su pareja, programas de televisión y su amor por sus gatos. Respecto al amor, argumenta que, aunque su enfoque en las relaciones puede ser más transaccional, es capaz de amar y sentirse conectada con algunas personas. Finalmente, ofrece consejos a aquellos que se identifican con sus experiencias, recomendando una evaluación profesional y destacando que las personas con ASPD pueden contribuir positivamente a la sociedad.

Keywords

💡Antisocial Personality Disorder

El trastorno de personalidad antisocial, también conocido como sociopatía, es un diagnóstico médico que se caracteriza por la falta de empatía, remordimiento y culpa. En el guion, se menciona que el personaje principal lo padece, lo que afecta su capacidad para conectarse socialmente con los demás y su comportamiento en sociedad. Este trastorno es central en el tema del video, ya que se discute cómo afecta la vida del entrevistado y cómo él maneja sus relaciones interpersonales.

💡Empatía

La empatía es la capacidad de comprender y compartir las emociones de los demás. En el guion, se destaca que el entrevistado tiene una empatía muy limitada, lo que influye en su interacción con los demás y cómo percibe y responde a las situaciones sociales. A pesar de ello, él afirma sentir compasión y ser amable con las personas, lo que subraya la complejidad de su condición.

💡Manipulación

La manipulación es el acto de influir en las acciones o decisiones de otra persona de manera engañosa o indirecta. El guion menciona que los individuos con trastorno de personalidad antisocial pueden ser manipuladores, y el entrevistado reconoce esta tendencia en sí mismo, pero también expresa su esfuerzo por ser consciente y cambiar su comportamiento.

💡Remordimiento y culpa

El remordimiento y la culpa son emociones que surgen cuando una persona se siente responsable de un daño o un error. El entrevistado explica que él no experimenta remordimiento o culpa, lo que es un rasgo distintivo de su trastorno. Sin embargo, reconoce que sus acciones pasadas fueron incorrectas y crueles, lo que demuestra su intento de autoconciencia y mejora personal.

💡Compasión

La compasión es la capacidad de sentir y compartir el sufrimiento de los demás, y desear aliviarlo. A pesar de la falta de empatía y remordimiento, el entrevistado afirma ser una persona compasiva y amable, lo que indica que puede haber formas de expresar preocupación y cuidado por los demás más allá de las emociones tradicionales.

💡Movimientos de justicia social

Los movimientos de justicia social son esfuerzos colectivos que buscan promover la igualdad y la equidad en la sociedad. El entrevistado menciona su participación en tales movimientos, lo que sugiere su deseo de contribuir positivamente a la sociedad y su esfuerzo por superar su pasado y comportamientos problemáticos.

💡Narcisismo

El narcisismo es un trastorno de la personalidad caracterizado por una exagerada importancia o admiración de uno mismo. El entrevistado admite tener tendencias narcisistas, pero también ha trabajado en cambiar su enfoque y prestar más atención a las necesidades y deseos de los demás, lo que demuestra su crecimiento personal y su lucha contra sus impulsos narcisistas.

💡Relaciones amorosas

Las relaciones amorosas son conexiones emocionales profundas entre dos personas. El entrevistado discute su capacidad para amar y estar en una relación, a pesar de su trastorno, argumentando que el amor no está necesariamente vinculado a la empatía o el remordimiento. Esta discusión destaca la complejidad de las emociones y las relaciones en individuos con trastornos de personalidad.

💡Felicidad

La felicidad es un estado de bienestar y satisfacción. El entrevistado menciona que la experimenta raramente y de manera efímera, lo que puede reflejar la lucha interna y la complejidad emocional que vive. A pesar de esto, encuentra alegría en su pareja, sus gatos y la socialización, lo que demuestra que hay fuentes de alegría en su vida, aunque sean superficiales o temporales.

💡Love bombing

El 'love bombing' es una táctica de manipulación que implica inundar a alguien con atención y afecto para ganar su confianza rápidamente. El entrevistado admite utilizar esta estrategia, lo que demuestra su habilidad para conectarse con las personas, aunque sea de una manera que puede ser considerada inapropiada o dañina.

Highlights

Kanika discusses being diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder, explaining its characteristics.

She clarifies the difference between sociopath and psychopath, noting they are not medical terms currently.

Kanika describes her own personality as bubbly and friendly, while acknowledging her lack of guilt or remorse.

She expresses feeling compassionate despite her diagnosis, challenging the media's portrayal of people with ASPD.

Kanika talks about the unfair stigma associated with ASPD, emphasizing that only a small percentage of the population has it.

She admits to having been involved in physical fights and hurtful behavior in the past due to her lack of self-awareness.

Kanika shares her fear of becoming an abuser and her efforts to double-check her behavior for signs of manipulation.

She explains her view on love and relationships, stating that she is capable of love despite her diagnosis.

Kanika discusses her happiness, which she finds in socializing, TV shows, and her cats, but admits it's often shallow and short-lived.

She addresses her ability to socialize with new people and her tendency to 'love bomb' them.

Kanika reflects on her diagnosis as a form of closure and a part of the solution to her struggles.

She talks about the hidden suffering of those with ASPD, including loneliness and isolation, which can lead to violent acts.

Kanika shares her age when she first realized she was different, feeling like she was on the outside looking in.

She advises those who feel they might have ASPD to seek professional help for an accurate assessment.

Kanika concludes by advocating for people with ASPD, stating they are not inherently bad and can contribute positively to society.

Transcripts

kanika how are you i'm very well thanks

how are you

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i'm i'm very well too first of all is

there any question that you don't want

me to ask you

no not so far but if i think of

something i'll let you know okay

i want to start from the beginning um

you were diagnosed with

an antisocial personality disorder also

known as sociopathy

yes what does that mean so anti-social

personality

is essentially it is characterized by a

lack of empathy

guilt and remorse um

sociopath and psychopath aren't medical

terms of the moment

but yeah it's it's basically a disorder

that characterizes

um a personality that is

antisocial in that people with a

disorder do not connect socially with

people

or act in let's say appropriate

sort of behavior um

like according to what society says

so they tend to be a little bit more

manipulative um

you know that they're very very very

charming and

that's kind of what lures people in how

would you describe your own personality

so i i i'm really bubbly friendly

in terms of the aspd i don't personally

feel guilt or remorse

um i have very very minor empathy

but i do think i'm a very compassionate

person i'm

very kind to people i know i'm loyal to

my friends

and it's just i feel like

because of a couple of bad eggs we kind

of

get just destroyed in the media and said

like everybody assumes we're abusers

or that we're evil and you know cunning

constantly um yeah so

it's kind of like a unfair stigma

because and i don't think i should be

defined by it

because when you rule this it's easy to

find articles that say that

people with this disorder can easily

manipulate other people's and have no

uh remorse for wrongdoing and no regrets

for other people's feelings so

yeah that makes you think uh people with

this disorder are like that

yes so the thing is when it comes to

personality disorders especially this

one

there's not much information out there

and basically

anyone who is evil or does horrible

things

is classified as associative rap but in

reality

only one percent of the population has

anti-social personality

so we're kind of getting the bad rap

from everybody based

on the actions of other people so i can

understand people being cautious because

there is a tendency

to be manipulative but i believe

that if you have self-awareness

and you do seek therapy to be kind to

others

and to understand them that antisocial

personality can be very good for you in

terms of

yeah just being able to succeed in life

you've said in one of your videos that

you are

afraid of becoming an abuser since you

have the ability to manipulate other

people

um are you really afraid of that i mean

is that something you cannot control

i tend to double check like all of my

behavior

so if i'm angry at somebody or if i stop

talking to somebody i'm thinking is this

a form of manipulation or abuse

because i know that a lot of people with

this disorder do

tend to become abusers because it's so

easy

to abuse someone when you don't have any

empathy or remorse or guilt

so like i'm trying to change the way i

view situations and people

which you know is really difficult like

i imagine just

you as a neurotypical imagine going

against

every fiber in your body to

you know behave in a way that society

has changed

so it's made me quite

hesitant to seek help so i personally

like

regulate it within myself and you know i

very like with my in terms of my

emotions i i try to keep them in check

and i try to you know not participate in

anything that can be considered abusive

or controlling

in that same video you admit you've done

uh horrible things and

you don't have remotes on them what do

you mean by horrible things

i'm not going to incriminate myself but

um let's just say that

when i was younger i tended to be quite

not pleasant because i had no

self-awareness i wasn't diagnosed and

you know i thought what i was doing was

completely normal

but obviously i i was involved with some

physical fights

i was involved with like you know

attacking others for certain

characteristics

and you know yeah i got into a number of

altercations

i've hurt many people uh i don't

necessarily feel remorse for it but i

know that it was

incorrect and cruel to carry out any

like any behavior of the sort

i didn't want to hurt people anymore

like it goes against my nature but i'm

fighting

every instinct to speak so i try to be

as

compassionate and loving as i can

so that i don't participate in negative

behavior

do you like who you are i do will you

change anything

what i've changed is the way i respond

to people

i try to because i do have narcissistic

personality as well

so usually i'd consider myself the

center of the universe and everyone to

just be orbiting around me

but i have tried to put more like i've

been putting more attention

into noticing other people and their

needs and desires

this is kind of you know i i'm like i

used to not see

other people as being on the same level

as me i didn't

care term like terribly much about that

but like

problems or issues but now i'm really

involved with

like some social justice movements i

am in a successful relationship i have

written a book

which is very unlikely for someone with

aspd because

we lose attention a lot

and um so yeah i'm trying to do all the

positive things

to offset the bad things i've done in

the past

you were saying uh that you are in a

relationship

and um and i don't know how to ask this

but

how do you feel love

you you are saying you don't have

remorse on on the bad things you can do

to other people so is it difficult for

you to love someone

so i feel like um our relationship has

nothing to do with empathy or remorse

which i know

is debatable because a lot of people

have

said that this is incorrect but i

personally don't think they're related

in terms of love i am 100 able to love

although i do view relationships as more

transactional than other people do

i feel like other people purposely

believe that there's nothing wrong with

being trans like that

people are generally not transactional

in their relationships

people think that there's genuine

altruism and

i disagree there i believe that what

goes into our relationship

is effort time and

consideration so it's like understanding

the other person's needs

offering that to them trying to not make

it all about myself

again i don't know how neurotypicals

love

but for me i i feel loved very deeply

i do get attached to some people

it's not often that i do but if i do it

it becomes quite serious

and i do have feelings of happiness

and yeah i think i think

i'm not sure what the difference would

be but i think generally

we do tend to be unlikely to fall in

love

and but yeah it's happened to me so i

believe it can happen fathers

you you were saying you feel happiness

are you a happy person

no not often um i feel happiness

somewhat rarely and for a small amount

of time generally where do you find your

happiness

i'd say my partner tv shows

i like um going out and socializing i

love

socializing um i love my cats very much

and they make me really happy but yeah

it's kind of

very shallow happiness and it does tend

to disappear

after you know a small period of time

is it difficult for you to socialize

with new people

no no i'm great meeting new people um

i do tend to love bomb i'm not sure if

you've heard that

um about what love bombing is

but essentially it is bombarding someone

with attention

so sending them texts and phone calls

and

you know all that sort of stuff trying

to get them more involved in your life

so that like people do tend to be drawn

to me

it like at least at first and um

because i like i tend to mirror people

as well

so often they'll see behavior that they

believe to be genuine

that is similar to their own even though

it's kind of a sign for me

being diagnosed did it change anything

in your life um i feel like having

the diagnosis is very

i guess it's a kind of closure because i

i finally realized that

like this is what's going on with me and

this is

the problem and also part of the

solution

so it's i feel like it hasn't impacted

me too badly

apart from like public knowledge i

that's why i didn't

come out as you know someone with aspd

because

i knew i would get like annihilated in

the media which i did

um but i know that there's a lot of

people suffering out there

who have aspd and mood disorders

and um there's this article it's called

the hidden suffering of a psychopath

so people who are likely to

murder or hurt other people they are

profoundly lonely

and this sort of isolation that they put

into

kind of pushes them towards these

violent acts

so i i want to get rid of that and i

think i can only do that while i embrace

my actual disorder how old were you when

you realized that there was something

about you that was different from

other people 13 14 and what did you

notice

i i felt like i was on the outside like

i felt it was a bubble

and i was just sitting on the outside

and i couldn't really access

those people inside and so

like it just felt like something was

really missing because

people would have these strong emotional

reactions to things

and i would just be standing there i

didn't feel a thing

so i thought there must be something off

this doesn't seem right

like people have these strong bonds and

people

are so emotionally affected by the

struggles of others

whereas i was just kind of there i had a

like flat effect i

don't i never really experienced

any you know emotional distress

so i knew that i was different from

other people

what would you say to someone who is

feeling

identified with what you are describing

right now i think

it's a good idea to be assessed by a

psychiatrist

because obviously self-diagnosis can be

a real problem

if you go to a psychiatrist and let them

evaluate you

over a couple of sessions you can find

out if you do have hpd

which is very very unlikely because of

how

rare the disorder is but i would

recommend if you peel those feelings

definitely go check it out with the

doctor is there anything

else you would like to say i just want

to say that people with acd are not

inherently bad people

that there is a proclivity to violence

and you know antisocial behavior

but put in the right circumstances they

can achieve a lot for humanity

and they have them so there are so many

psycho

psychopathic ceos um doctors

lawyers and they positively contribute

to society they're not just people in

jail for

you know doing a couple of petty crimes

so don't write up someone just because

they have aspd they can bring a lot of

joy to your life as well

thank you very much for doing this

interview thank you for being here i

know um

what time is it that right now it's nine

a.m

okay it's really early in the morning

youtube is

thank you very much for being here thank

you