Finding a way through suicidal feelings | 8 stories of hope
Summary
TLDRThe speaker shares a deeply personal story of despair and suicidal thoughts at 13, feeling like a burden and wanting to escape the pain. They emphasize the misconception of suicide as selfishness and the struggle to seek help. The turning point was asking for help, leading to overwhelming support and a realization of hope. They encourage others in similar situations to reach out, highlighting the importance of connection and the possibility of overcoming despair.
Takeaways
- 🌌 The speaker felt hopeless and wanted to escape their pain at the age of 13.
- 🛫 They had a desire for the plane to crash to avoid the feeling of fault.
- 🏥 They wished for a terminal illness as a way to numb their emotional pain.
- 👨👧👦 The speaker felt like a burden to their family and wanted to alleviate that.
- 🤔 They struggled with the misconception that suicide is a selfish act.
- 🗣️ It was difficult for them to ask for help, fearing acknowledgment of their situation.
- 💪 Asking for help provided a sense of relief and support from friends.
- 👫 The speaker's friends were shocked but supportive when they opened up about their feelings.
- 🌟 They found hope and strength in the support of others and the realization that they were not alone.
- 🏆 The speaker highlights the importance of holding onto hope, even if it's just a small glimmer.
- 🤝 Encouraging others to reach out and seek support, emphasizing that they are not alone.
Q & A
At what age did the speaker first attempt to end their life?
-The speaker was 13 years old when they first attempted to end their life.
What was the speaker's emotional state during the flight when they were 13?
-The speaker was feeling hopeless and wanted the plane to fall out of the sky to escape their pain.
Why did the speaker feel they had no future?
-The speaker felt they had no future because they thought they were going to lose their children forever.
What was the speaker's primary motivation for wanting to escape their body?
-The speaker wanted to escape their body to numb the pain and torment they were experiencing.
How did the speaker perceive their situation compared to others?
-The speaker felt at an intense disadvantage, comparing their struggle to slogging through thick mud while others seemed to walk by casually.
What misconception about suicide does the speaker address?
-The speaker addresses the misconception that suicide is a selfish act, explaining that it's not about selfishness but feeling like a burden during intense pain.
What was the speaker's greatest fear when considering asking for help?
-The speaker's greatest fear was being locked up, which made it difficult for them to ask for help.
What was the speaker's experience after finally asking for help?
-After asking for help, the speaker was met with support and felt an immediate sense of relief.
How did the speaker's mindset change after seeking help?
-After seeking help, the speaker felt lighter, both physically and mentally, and started to see hope.
What advice does the speaker give to those who are considering suicide?
-The speaker advises finding someone they feel comfortable with to say they are not okay and to hold onto any light of hope, no matter how small.
What message does the speaker want to convey to those who are struggling with suicidal thoughts?
-The speaker wants to convey that they are not alone, that others care about them, and that there is a way out of their situation.
Outlines
💔 Struggling with Suicidal Thoughts
The speaker shares their personal experience of suicidal thoughts at the age of 13. They describe the desperation and hopelessness that led them to wish for an end to their life. They felt like a burden to others and believed that ending their life would be a solution for both themselves and their family. Despite this, they also recognized an inner desire to live, indicating a conflict between the pain they felt and the wish to escape it without actually dying. The speaker emphasizes the importance of seeking help and the relief that comes from asking for support, which was met with understanding and assistance from friends and family.
🤝 Support and Hope in Darkness
The speaker discusses the power of support and the importance of not feeling alone when facing suicidal thoughts. They encourage reaching out to someone, even if it's difficult, and express the value of holding onto hope. The speaker shares their own journey of recovery and the significance of small glimmers of hope that can help one to keep going. They also emphasize the importance of others showing up for those in need, simply by being present and offering support without judgment. The message concludes with a reminder that one is more than their depression and that there is much to look forward to on the other side of despair.
Mindmap
Keywords
💡Suicidal Thoughts
💡Mental Pain
💡Hope
💡People Pleasing
💡Support
💡Asking for Help
💡Stigma
💡Relief
💡Depression
💡Connection
Highlights
The speaker shares a deeply personal experience of attempting suicide at the age of 13.
A desire to escape the pain of living, feeling like a burden to others.
The misconception that suicide is a selfish act, when it's often a cry for help.
The struggle to ask for help, fearing judgment and the stigma associated with mental health.
The relief and support received from friends and family after openly admitting suicidal thoughts.
The importance of seeking help and not viewing it as a sign of weakness.
The transformative power of admitting to oneself and others that one needs help.
The feeling of a burden being lifted after opening up about mental health struggles.
The realization that there is hope and that life can improve after hitting rock bottom.
The speaker's determination to live for the sake of their daughter and the hope she represents.
The message that suicidal thoughts are isolating but one is not alone in their struggle.
The encouragement to reach out to someone, even if it's difficult, to find support.
The speaker's belief that there is more to life than depression and that there is hope for a better future.
The powerful impact of simply being present and offering support to someone in need.
The affirmation that many people care and love you, even if they haven't met you yet.
The final message of the importance of connection, love, and the potential for change in one's mental state.
Transcripts
uh so i guess why
i'm
sharing this is because uh you know i
feel i'm fortunate enough to have
been through an experience that i've
managed to learn quite a bit from
so i was 13 at the time
and that was the first time when i tried
to end my life
this was on a flight and i was looking
out the window
i just wanted the the plane to fall out
of the sky just at least then i would
have felt that it wasn't my fault i wish
when i go to the doctor's he will tell
me i've got a terminal illness at that
time i felt like i had no future i had
no hope i thought
i was going to lose my children forever
i wanted to numb that feeling
to numb what was going on in my own head
because i didn't understand it the
thought process at the time was the only
way i can escape this pain is to escape
this body because i thought that was my
only option i was at the point that i
would do anything
just just to stop the pain and the
torment if this was all that there was
to look forward to for the next 50 60
years i just wanted to check out i just
didn't want to be
in existence anymore i couldn't see a
reason to live
you're slogging through thick mud and
you look around and you see that people
are just casually walking by it feels
like you're in an intense disadvantage
one of the common misconceptions about
suicide is that it's
a selfish act but in the moment of that
intense pain it's not about a
selfishness you feel like you're a
burden to everyone because of the way
you feel i'd learned to be a people
pleaser and i didn't want to be a burden
myself to others even at 10 years of age
i thought that i was actually being mean
to my family
by staying here by living it felt like a
solution for me and it felt like a
solution for my family and yet there was
this other side of my brain that was
telling me
that i didn't actually want to be dead
it was just that i wanted the pain to
stop i knew i wanted the pain to go away
but i didn't want to die i needed to get
help desperate at that stage but i
gained delayed and delayed and delayed
the hardest thing to do
was to ask for help because it
acknowledges two things one that
things aren't the way that you want them
to be and two that they can be better
the worst thing that i could that i was
afraid of was being locked up the
difficulty can be
those first words i always used to be
afraid of using the word suicidal are
you having thoughts of suicide there's a
huge relief when you say those words out
loud
i was met with something completely
different that i didn't think was going
to actually happen i was met with
support they're in shock my mates
but
100 supportive i just said quite loudly
and really strongly
tried to end my life on the weekend i
really need help and i felt an immediate
sense of relief you do need to seek help
it's not a sign of weakness and in fact
a sign of strength sami
i knew something had changed i put my
hand up
and said to my husband please help me
and those three words changed everything
the moment that i actually just let it
all out
i felt those
really heavy weights
just lift off my body not even just my
shoulders my body i felt lighter
my mind felt lighter
that pain peaks at the top like when
you're on a roller coaster that
eventually it becomes
bearable
and that was the part that every now and
then would come into my head and say you
know george there is hope there is
something out there and there's so much
that i would have missed winning an
undefeated premiership even if it is the
division three reserves is still
undefeated as far as i'm concerned it
made me feel like i wasn't in this alone
i'm so glad to be here because i have my
daughter and you use the hope that bit
of hope and fight
you keep pushing through for you i know
that what you're feeling right now
feels like the only option that you have
i completely understand
that feeling
of not wanting to be here and how
intense that can be suicidal thoughts
particularly want you to be alone you're
not alone others have that experience
and that there is a way out of that
find someone that one person who you
feel comfortable and saying you know
what
i'm not okay you might not
feel like you can do it for yourself
right now
do it for your friends and your family
because they care about you so much hold
on to that light no matter how small it
is you are and i am more than my
depression i am many things there's so
much to hope for there is a whole other
side to this that mindset might just
change too
maybe it is worth it you know maybe
there is a reason to keep going if you
or a loved one is facing this situation
it's so powerful just to say to them i'm
here with you i'll ask nothing of you
than to just sit and be
together
i want you to live
i want you to know that you're not alone
many of us care about you and we love
you even if we haven't met you yet
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