content on this channel / message to my viewers / life update vlog

Summary

In diesem DARS vlog teilt der YouTuber mit, dass er vorübergehend keine neuen Inhalte mehr erstellen wird, da sein Videoeditor Dualis einen neuen Waschmaschinen hat und er selbst keine Lust mehr hat, an YouTube-Content zu arbeiten. Er betont, dass er genug Geld verdient hat und keine weiteren finanziellen Anreize hat. Zudem gibt er einen Überblick über sein Leben, seine Beziehungen und seine Erfahrungen auf TwitchCon und bei der LCS-Finale. Der YouTuber bedankt sich bei seinen Zuschauern für ihre Unterstützung und teilt seine Gedanken über Beziehungen und sein Leben in Kansas mit.

Takeaways

• 🎮 Der Kanalinhalt wird aufgrund eines technischen Problems (Washingmaschine) und mangelnder Motivation (Zufriedenheit mit dem Leben, keine Lust auf Steuerarbeit) vorübergehend pausiert.
• 🔧 In Zukunft werden die Videos ungeschnitten und roh sein, da der Schöpfer sich nicht der Mühe einer detaillierten Bearbeitung unterzieht.
• 📢 Für Feedback und Diskussionen wird die Community auf Discord umgeleitet, da YouTube-Kommentare selten gelesen werden.
• 👴 Der Schöpfer spürt, dass er alternd wird und nimmt sich selbst und seine Reaktionen auf die Dinge im Leben kritisch wahr.
• 🙏 Er dankt den Zuschauern für die Unterstützung und betont, dass er ohne sie nicht dort wäre, wo er heute ist.
• 🏠 In den letzten fünf Jahren hat er das Haus kaum verlassen, bis er sich zu LCS-Finalen und TwitchCon bewegte.
• 🤝 Bei diesen Veranstaltungen empfand er Herzlichkeit und Anerkennung von Fans und ehemaligen Teamkollegen, was ihn emotional berührte.
• 🍲 Er lebt in Kansas und genießt die dort verfügbaren asiatischen Essensoptionen, was auf seine Herkunft aus Hawaii und seine genetische Mischung zurückzuführen ist.
• 🌐 Er hat festgestellt, dass er sich in Bezug auf romantische Beziehungen eher zurückhaltend und unzureichend als Partner verhält und auf der Suche nach einer Person ist, die dies akzeptiert.
• 🏋️‍♂️ Er ist sich seiner Gewichtsprobleme bewusst und plant, abzunehmen, auch wenn er sich selbst in Bezug auf sein Äußeres nicht im Fokus hat.
• 🎲 Er teilt mit, dass er an einem Dungeons & Dragons-Spiel teilnehmen wird und sich auf das Erreichen von Meisterstatus in Street Fighter 6 vorbereitet.

Q & A

Welche Gründe führten dazu, dass der Content-Ersteller seine YouTube-Videos pausieren möchte?

Der Content-Ersteller möchte seine YouTube-Videos pausieren, weil er finanziell ausreichend ist und keine Motivation hat, mehr Geld zu verdienen. Er findet auch, dass das Bezahlen seines Mitarbeiters Dualis und die Steuerarbeit, die damit verbunden ist, lästig sind.

Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Beziehung zu Dualis und dessen Waschmaschine gesagt?

Der Content-Ersteller zeigte Verständnis für Dualis' alte Waschmaschine aus den 80ern und erwähnte, dass er sie ihm jetzt gekauft hat, um ihn in einen besseren Zustand zu versetzen.

Wie bezeichnet der Content-Ersteller seine zukünftigen Videos?

Die zukünftigen Videos werden 'Raw' genannt, was bedeutet, dass sie kaum bearbeitet und möglicherweise mit einigen Schnittstellen versehen sein werden, aber keine intensiven Edits.

Welche Empfehlungen hat der Content-Ersteller für die Zuschauer, wenn sie Feedback haben oder ihn erreichen möchten?

Der Content-Ersteller empfiehlt, auf Discord zu gehen und ihn im 'Ask the Irish Channel' zu taggen, anstatt auf YouTube-Kommentare zu warten, die er nicht oft liest.

Was hat der Content-Ersteller über sein Leben und seine Zuschauer gesagt?

Er hat sich für die Unterstützung seiner Zuschauer bedankt und betont, dass er ohne sie nicht dort wäre, wo er heute ist. Er drückt auch aus, dass er das Glück anderer teilt und dass dies ihm eine Lebensabsicht gibt.

Wie geht der Content-Ersteller mit negativen Reaktionen oder Hassern seiner Zuschauer um?

Er sagt, dass er keine Grollkämpfe führt und keine Rache plant. Er ist offen für ehrliche Gespräche mit Hassern, verlangt jedoch, dass sie nicht überdramatischen oder nutzlosen Fragen stellen.

Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Beziehungsleben in den letzten Jahren gesagt?

Er hat durch einige Beziehungen in den letzten Jahren gelernt, dass er in Bezug auf Beziehungen eine apathische Person ist und dass er sich für das Zusammensein und Kuscheln mehr interessiert als für sexuelle Aspekte.

Was hat der Content-Ersteller über sein Leben in Kansas und seine Bewegungsgründe gesagt?

Er mag Kansas, weil es viele gute Essensoptionen hat und er dort seit drei Jahren lebt. Er hat auch Fiber-Internet, was für ihn ein großer Vorteil ist und das verhindert, dass er zieht.

Was hat der Content-Ersteller über sein Aussehen und seine Selbstwahrnehmung gesagt?

Er ist sich seiner Gewichtszunahme bewusst und fühlt sich selbst als fett, was durch frühere Erfahrungen beeinflusst wird. Er plant, Gewicht zu verlieren und ist bestrebt, gesünder zu leben.

Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Zukunftspläne und sein Interesse an einer Familie gesagt?

Er sagt, dass er bereit ist, eine Familie zu gründen, wenn ein zukünftiger Partner dies möchte, obwohl er sich selbst nicht als besonders bereit dafür hält.

Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Erfahrungen auf TwitchCon und LCS gesagt?

Er hatte auf beiden Veranstaltungen viel Spaß und war dankbar für die freundliche Behandlung. Er traf viele alte Bekannte und Teamkollegen wieder und empfand die Erfahrung als herzwarm.

Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Meinung zu sozialen Medien und Twitter gesagt?

Er hat eine unangenehme Erfahrung mit dem 'Für dich'-Abschnitt auf Twitter beschrieben und sagt, dass er sich nicht mehr dort einmischen wird. Er warnt auch seine Zuschauer davor, ihm auf Twitter zu folgen, da seine Präsenz dort rückläufig ist.

Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine bevorstehenden Pläne und Aktivitäten gesagt?

Er erwähnte, an einem DND-Spiel teilzunehmen und sich auf das Erreichen des Meisters in Street Fighter 6 vorzubereiten. Er plant auch, weiterhin Gewicht zu verlieren und gesünder zu leben.

Outlines

00:00

🎥 Content-Pause und Lebensaktualisierung

Der Sprecher kündigt eine Pause im Content-Upload auf dem Kanal an und erklärt, dass er zuvor nicht damit gerechnet hatte, längere Zeit mit YouTube-Content und -Bearbeitung zu verbringen. Er erwähnt, dass sein Mitarbeiter Dualis jetzt einen modernen Waschmaschinen hat, was auf eine frühere Geschichte zurückgeht, in der Dualis einen sehr alten Waschmaschinen zeigte. Der Sprecher betont, dass er keine Motivation hat, mehr Geld zu verdienen, da er bereits genug verdient hat und eine gute finanzielle Situation hat. Er teilt mit, dass zukünftige Videos roh sein werden, da er keine Zeit oder Motivation hat, sie zu bearbeiten, und fordert die Zuschauer auf, Vorschläge für neue Inhalte oder Feedback im Diskurs zu hinterlassen.

05:02

🙏 Danksagung an die Zuschauer

Der Sprecher bedankt sich bei seinen Zuschauern für ihre Unterstützung während seines Internet-Lebens als Dyr us. Er betont, dass er ohne sie nicht dort wäre, wo er heute ist, und dass er ihre Unterstützung sehr schätzt. Er reflektiert darüber, was er ohne sie möglicherweise getan hätte, und wie sein Leben durch die Unterstützung der Zuschauer und durch seine Karriere als professioneller League of Legends-Spieler verändert wurde. Er betont, dass er nicht verschwinden wird und weiterhin aktiv bleibt, und bittet die Zuschauer, ihm über Discord zu kontaktieren, falls sie Fragen oder Bedenken haben.

10:03

🏠 Leben im Lockdown und persönliche Herausforderungen

Der Sprecher teilt, dass er in den letzten fünf Jahren sein Haus kaum verlassen hat, bis er letztendlich die LCS Finals besucht hat. Er beschreibt, wie es ihn empfunden hat, alte Teamkollegen und Rivale zu treffen und wie herzhaft es war, viele Fans zu treffen, die ihn noch erinnern und ihm für seine Unterhaltung dankbar sind. Er reflektiert über seine Einsamkeit, da er derzeit single ist und wie es ihn beeinflusst hat, auch wenn er sagt, dass er damit zurechtkommt. Er erwähnt auch, dass er in der Vergangenheit Beziehungen hatte, aber er hat gelernt, dass er sich nicht für viele der Dinge interessiert, die in einer Beziehung üblich sind, und dass er eher zurückhaltend ist.

15:05

🤔 Selbstreflexion und Lebensumstände

Der Sprecher spricht über sein Selbstbild und seine Beziehung zu seinem Körper, da er in den letzten Monaten Gewicht zugenommen hat. Er beschreibt seine Bemühungen, wieder abzunehmen und wie er sich selbst wahrnimmt. Er reflektiert auch über seine Beziehungsleben, seine sexuelle Orientierung und seine Erfahrungen mit verschiedenen Partnern. Er sagt, dass er sich in Beziehungen oft unwohl fühlt und dass er auf der Suche nach einer Person ist, die seinen Lebensstil und seine Interessen akzeptiert.

20:05

📍 Wohnort und Lebensstil

Der Sprecher erklärt, dass er sich in Kansas aufgesiedelt hat und dass er es dort gut findet, insbesondere wegen der guten Lebensmittelvielfalt. Er betont, dass er nicht mehr in Texas lebt und bittet seine Zuschauer, ihn nicht mehr nach Texas zu fragen. Er teilt auch mit, dass er gerne so bleibt, wo er ist, da er einen gemütlichen Lebensstil hat und nicht viel unternimmt, außer zu Hause zu bleiben und zu spielen.

25:06

💬 Soziale Medien und öffentliche Wahrnehmung

Der Sprecher reflektiert über seine Erfahrungen mit sozialen Medien, insbesondere Twitter, wo er sich in einem Missverständnis über einen Post eines anderen Users wiedergefunden hat. Er erklärt, dass er sich nicht mehr in die 'Für dich'-Sektion von Twitter begeben möchte und dass er seine Präsenz auf den sozialen Medien reduzieren wird. Er betont, dass er sich auf sein Leben konzentriert und nicht darauf, was andere über ihn denken.

30:08

🎲 Zukunftspläne und Interessen

Der Sprecher teilt mit, dass er an einem DND-Spiel teilnehmen wird und dass er sich auf die Herausforderung freut, die Meisterschaft in Street Fighter 6 mit dem Charakter Zangief zu erreichen. Er erwähnt auch, dass er versucht, Gewicht zu verlieren, und dass er bereit ist, eine Beziehung oder sogar eine Familie zu haben, sollte er den richtigen Partner finden. Er endet mit einem Dankeschön an seine Zuschauer und betont, dass er auf sein eigenes Tempo und seine eigenen Bedürfnisse achtet.

Keywords

💡Washing Machine

Eine Waschmaschine ist ein Elektrogerät, das zur Reinigung von Kleidung und anderen Textilien verwendet wird. Im Video wird sie als Metapher für den Übergang des Charakters Dualis in einen besseren Lebenszustand verwendet. Der Sprecher teilt mit, dass Dualis nun eine Waschmaschine hat, was auf eine Verbesserung seiner Lebensbedingungen hindeutet.

💡Content Pause

Eine 'Content Pause' bezieht sich auf eine Unterbrechung oder einen längeren Stopp der Produktion von neuen Inhalten. Im Kontext des Videos bedeutet dies, dass der Sprecher vorübergehend keine neuen Videos für seine YouTube-Kanal erstellen wird, was mit der Einstellung der Produktion von neuen Inhalten zusammenhängt.

💡YouTube

YouTube ist eine der weltweit bekanntesten Online-Plattformen für das Teilen von Videos. Im Video erwähnt der Sprecher, dass seine Videos auf YouTube geteilt werden und dass er vorübergehend keine neuen Inhalte hochladen wird, was sich auf die Verbreitung und die Interaktion mit seinen Zuschauern auswirken könnte.

💡Laziness

Faules Verhalten oder Trägheit bezieht sich auf das Ausweichen vor Arbeit oder Anstrengung. Im Video gibt der Sprecher zu, dass seine Faulheit ein Grund für die Einstellung des regelmäßigen Uploads von Videos ist, da er die Anstrengung, Steuern zu bearbeiten und Geld zu verdienen, vermeiden möchte.

💡Financial Stability

Finanzielle Stabilität bedeutet, dass jemand über ausreichend Einkommen oder Vermögen verfügt, um seine finanziellen Verpflichtungen zu erfüllen und ein sicheres Leben zu führen. Der Sprecher teilt mit, dass er finanziell stabil ist, was bedeutet, dass er keine dringende Notwendigkeit hat, mehr Geld zu verdienen, um zu überleben.

💡Raw Videos

Rohe Videos sind unbearbeitete Aufnahmen, die ohne zusätzliche剪辑 oder Postproduktion freigegeben werden. Im Video kündigt der Sprecher an, dass zukünftige Videos in roher Form geteilt werden, was bedeutet, dass sie möglicherweise unpoliert und in ihrer ursprünglichen Form präsentiert werden.

💡Discord

Discord ist eine Instant-Messaging-Plattform, die häufig von Gamern und Online-Communities verwendet wird. Der Sprecher empfiehlt seinen Zuschauern, auf Discord zu gehen, um ihm direkt Feedback zu geben oder Fragen zu stellen, was darauf hindeutet, dass er在那里更活跃 und schneller auf persönliche Nachrichten reagieren kann.

💡Life Update

Ein Lebensupdate ist eine Zusammenfassung der aktuellen Situation oder der Änderungen im Leben einer Person. Im Video nutzt der Sprecher den Begriff, um seine Zuschauer über seine neuesten persönlichen Entwicklungen, wie beispielsweise sein Gewicht, sein Wohnort und seine Beziehungsstatus, zu informieren.

💡Self-Consciousness

Selbstbewusstsein bezieht sich auf die Wahrnehmung und das Bewusstsein, das eine Person von sich selbst hat, einschließlich ihrer Erscheinung, Fähigkeiten und Eigenschaften. Der Sprecher teilt mit, dass er sich wegen seines Gewichts selbstbewusst ist, was bedeutet, dass er sich unsicher oder unzufrieden mit seinem äußeren Ansehen fühlt.

💡Relationships

Beziehungen beziehen sich auf die Verbindungen und Interaktionen zwischen Menschen. Im Video spricht der Sprecher über seine Erfahrungen in Beziehungen, einschließlich der Erkenntnis, dass er sich in bestimmten Arten von Personen, wie z.B. 'fem boys', zufriedenstellend fühlt, und dass er bereit ist, eine Familie zu gründen, sollte er den richtigen Partner finden.

💡Twitch

Twitch ist eine Live-Streaming-Plattform, die hauptsächlich für das Streaming von Videospielen und anderer Unterhaltungsinhalte genutzt wird. Der Sprecher erwähnt, dass er immer noch auf Twitch streamt und dabei Street Fighter 6 spielt, was zeigt, dass er trotz der Einstellung des regelmäßigen Videouploads auf YouTube noch aktiv in der Gaming-Community ist.

💡Dungeons & Dragons (DND)

Dungeons & Dragons, oft abgekürzt als DND, ist ein Rollenspiel, das eine Gruppe von Spielern erlaubt, in einer共同创造的奇幻Welt zu navigieren und Abenteuer zu bestehen. Der Sprecher teilt mit, dass er an einer DND-Kampagne teilnehmen wird, was zeigt, dass er an Spielen und Gemeinschaftsaktivitäten interessiert ist.

Highlights

Content on the channel will be on pause due to Dualis getting a new washing machine.

The channel's videos will be raw and unedited due to the creator's lack of motivation for editing and tax work.

The creator expresses satisfaction with his current financial status, not feeling the need to earn more money.

Viewer feedback is welcomed on Discord, but the creator asks for genuine concerns and not time-wasting.

The creator acknowledges getting older and feeling less connected to certain aspects of internet culture.

A heartfelt thanks to viewers for their support throughout his online career as Dyrus.

The creator discusses the emotional impact of attending the LCS finals and reconnecting with the community.

Mentions of loneliness and the importance of viewer support in providing a sense of purpose.

The creator's realization of being bi and his preferences in relationships.

His current relationship status and the challenges he faces in forming meaningful connections.

The creator's move to Kansas and his appreciation for the local food options.

A discussion on the creator's body image issues and his efforts to lose weight.

The creator's experience at TwitchCon, including meeting friends and enjoying the event while under the influence.

His participation in an upcoming DND campaign with friends and a VTuber.

The creator's reflections on his social media presence and his decision to be less active on Twitter.

A final message of appreciation to viewers and a sign-off.

Transcripts

why hello there and welcome to another

DARS vlog

today I'll be talking about the content

on this channel

a little bit of a life update and a

message to you guys my viewers

um starting with the content uh it's

gonna be on pause

dualis has his washing machine now so

um

basically the story behind that is one

day he showed me a video of what his

washing machine looked like and it was

it looked like something from the 80s so

God I just oh my God that's not why I

hired him but I wasn't planning on going

this long with uh YouTube content and

with editing and such

but

it was bad so he's got that now so he's

probably in a better place now and

um

ultimately

uh the reason is because videos on this

channel mostly kind of go even when it

comes to paying him

and when it comes to like

you know getting paid on YouTube uh but

I mean the other reason is because I'm

ultimately lazy because I don't want to

do tax work

and I don't really care about making

money since I'm made enough to make do

like I'm good in life I'm not rich but

I'm not poor just just good I don't

really have motivations to make more

since

uh all the motivations I've had have

kind of come the past or things have

happened it is what it is

um

yeah so

uh any more videos on this channel will

be Raw

and what I mean by that is that there

will just be no editing maybe some

clipping here and there I have like some

free software but I won't really be

uploading that much if you have any

interests or suggestions and wanting me

to upload on YouTube and it gives you

Joy uh if you have feedback the other

posting in the comments because I

probably won't read it I'm reading

YouTube comments doesn't really happen

that often unless the video pops off uh

what you should do is you should go to

my Discord and tag me in the ask the

Irish Channel

um

and just let me know that you're from

this video and I'll give you my honest

answer my proper response uh and please

don't waste my time with stupid

statements or questions I'm I'm just

like you know I'm getting old

I I I can't really

I see a lot of things as cringe now but

it's not a big deal I just

I don't know I'm just in a different

generation now or something I I I'm just

like I'm actually just getting old

so don't worry too much about it but if

you have a question or Genuine concern

or anything like just let me know

they're out and I'll try my best to

answer you

um

I guess the next thing is my life update

uh but before I give the life update I

guess I'll just give a message to you

guys my viewers

um

so

what I was gonna do was explain things

that happened in my life but a lot of

you who have followed me already already

know because I've said it over and over

again so I don't want to overload you

guys with the same [ __ ] but basically

what I want to say is thank you guys for

supporting me throughout my internet

life as dyrus

I'm not going anywhere or anything I'm

just saying that like I wouldn't be

where I am today

without your support

and

I mean I can't really say it enough like

I would have been working some part-time

job somewhere or working in the police

force or some [ __ ] I don't know what I

would have been doing

um

but

uh because I became a professional

League player and because I became

popular and because I've had the support

of my viewers I was able to make enough

money from streaming and playing

advertisements and doing sponsors and

and be where I am today and be like in

an okay place so for that I thank you

guys

um a lot of people that share the

sentiment are watching anymore because

you know they have their own lives here

but if you're still here like I still

appreciate you just as much

um what matters right now is in this

moment rather than like what was

um

yeah I have nothing to do with my life

right now and making you guys happy

makes me happy and I know that's weird

to say because I always sound miserable

in my life like I always complain or do

something like you know you know how I

am if you've watched my stream

um

yeah the way my brain works is like when

other I see others happy I'm happy and

when I see others sad I'm sad like

that's just the way my brain works and

so by having you guys around it gives me

purpose

um

and once I find something I get addicted

to then that purpose is fulfilled

because I give that entertainment or joy

and it goes back and forth and it's just

it's just good for me

So yeah thank you guys for that

um the bat the downside of the message

is that I'm only one person

so the thing is

if you're watching this now and you've

had a negative reaction from me it's not

because I'm specifically targeted on you

as a viewer as one person

it's just that I've had so many

interactions they all mixed together and

my mind just gets overloaded and not not

to mention it comes from playing games

too much my video game addiction all my

life all the excuses you can think of

you know

um

if you're one of the people watching

this video that are hate watching which

is very rare it doesn't really happen

that often most of them kind of just

aren't really worth even talking to but

if you've gotten to this point you

probably have some kind of resentment if

POS like if you do

um this message is basically to say that

if I hurt you I don't hold grudges I

don't want to make others feel bad

and I'll just be completely transparent

with my thoughts like I just I don't

care enough to do all of that Revenge

Grudge [ __ ] like that's just not just

not me

um

I won't be playing a tug of war game

like I'm not your friend I'm not your

enemy I'm just me

so if you're [ __ ] pissed off at me

you can feel free to leave me a message

at the Discord too if you want an honest

answer like if you be over dramatic then

it's probably not going to end well but

I'm just saying like I just don't want

any of that like this I don't

I don't care enough but it's weird for

me to say because I do care

but I don't it's just yeah anyways

that's that love you guys thank you so

much for watching I'm gonna get into the

Life Update part now

um frequently asked questions

I guess for in my life I haven't really

left my house for the last five years

um until recently this last year I went

to the LCS finals the LCS 10. I got to

meet some old teammates some old rivals

um got to talk to a lot of people

and that was just very like heartwarming

for me because as someone who hasn't

been around in the league scene for a

while or hasn't really talked to anyone

that much in a while

I just

fell

lost and not relevant anymore because

you know I don't play the game so they

don't care about me more so all the hot

the thoughts in my head kind of jumble

and I think worst case scenarios but

when I went to The League finals

um

like a lot of my friends like they were

just the same as they always were they

haven't changed a bit there's a lot of

fans who just loved me and I just I I

couldn't hold it and I uh I really

teared up a lot because people

um

they remember me as I was and they

thanked me for like the entertainment I

gave them and that just made me really

happy like because I haven't really

been around

for a while

and so

the thing about that is that I've been

usually fine

but

God I'm just repeating basically when I

was in a relationship none of that was a

problem because no matter what happened

I had someone to rely on but now because

I'm single and because I only have

myself to rely on and besides talking to

my friends like you know sometimes it

gets lonely even for me and I'm not

trying to like look for anything like I

don't regret anything and I'm where I am

today like I'm I'm completely like fine

with it all and I'm over it as it is but

I

I've had moments of weakness and I've

made mistakes

not not big mistakes like you would

imagine I just kind of blow things out

of proportion

um

but

just hearing that and talking to people

and having it like be like really

heartwarming like even

uh my old rivals were treating me like

good close friends like Po belter uh

Smithy like they really lifted up my

spirits even if they don't now that

um I appreciate them a lot for

how I was treated at the lake thing I

got to see turtle

I got to see Barry uh Berg for a bit a

little bit awkward but you know he's the

still same old good guy

he's all grown up now

because when I first met him he was just

a little beard

God I sound old anyways yeah I um

going to that really helped me a lot

because I haven't left the house for a

long time all that stuff so I went there

I had a lot of fun I uh got out of my

shell for a little bit

and that was good uh right uh sponsored

me to go there and I uh don't regret it

at all a shout out to my agent Justin

for that I doubt he'll watch this but if

he does I'll be surprised he's uh

he's uh doing good things

thinks he's like

he's got his own company and stuff

man I'm I'm just talking like I'm old

God anyways moving on so the next thing

that happened in my life from last year

was I went to twitchcon I went to an

Airbnb with a bunch of my VR friends a

bunch of good friends good people thank

God they're normal enough because anyone

in VR is [ __ ] crazy or has some kind

of issue

um

but yeah I went to twitchcon

and I'm not sure if I should be saying

this but

uh weed is legal in California

and one of the first things we did was

went to one of those legal

weed shops and I got those like 10 piece

like fruit roll-up gummies

uh like I don't even know like

watermelon

and I was just blasted the entire

twitchcon trip uh if you saw me at

twitchcon you could probably tell but I

was just not

there and sober not not a single second

that I was there I was sober I had the

most fun ever it was actually crazy like

oh my God the first day I didn't even

think I would be able to get my

twitchcon badge I didn't even know if I

had a badge like TSM said they had like

some stuff set up for me but it was like

really vague but I just showed up I said

my name and I got treated like a VIP at

twitchcon and I was just so thankful for

that because God I did not want to wait

in line I did not want to [ __ ] do all

the [ __ ] [ __ ] everyone else has to do

I know it's like some first world

problem but I you know I've done this

[ __ ] so much like dude I come on let me

let me yeah

I'm not taking up that much space I I

don't stay for that long I'm just

looking saying hi to people and I'm out

like I'm doing my thing you know

so I was blasted at twitchcon and I

somehow made it to the badges

and

I mean it was like the day before

twitchcon and so a lot of things were

kind of a blur but I've had the main

things to note was I got to meet a lot

of my VR friends

um some notables was like nags

uh he's like one of those content

creators for vr's nicest guy I've ever

met speaking of nicest guy I ever met I

got to see Dan Den

um

uh some of you guys don't know him but

he's uh it's Reggie's brother

Andy's brother for TSM

um it's so weird to explain it this way

but yeah nicest people I've ever met in

my entire life like

oh man

this is crazy it was a crazy last year

for me like it's been like an emotional

like

roller coaster like I've been going

through it and after twitchcon and the

league thing in the league finals like

my life just became like back to normal

I mean obviously all the hype things

that I've had for league and being a pro

is not back to normal but like it's fine

like I don't I don't really care too

much anymore I'm not really doing

anything

um

I guess other things at twitchcon other

than seeing my friends I got to see my

old teammates again I got to see odd one

and God I have a story for you guys so I

was going to one of the bnbs or no no I

was going to A Team Liquid party it was

like one of those like public private

parties I don't [ __ ] know

and

I was already blasted and I had some

drinks I saw a beard parf odd one

I got to see a special at some point on

the trip and that was cool I got to see

I don't think I saw turtle at twitchcon

but I got to see special which was

surprising uh photography seemed to be

doing good

um I got to talk to T1

laughs

he's so friendly just nothing but last

with that guy

um I got to

I got to see a lot of people it's all

kind of a blur now because I'm doing

this vlog

and talking about this so many months

later like I usually just upload this

stuff because in the past I'd be like oh

I want to share all my experiences I'm

living life but now I'm old and I'm

doing things on my own pace

so you some of you guys would be like

what the [ __ ] are you talking about

anyways

um

so for twitchcon

yeah

I just keep repeating myself

it was good for me

I'm uh I'm in a better place now in life

uh 31 years old now you might notice

that I might be looking a little bit

different

uh I weigh 230 pounds at the moment when

I was at twitchcon I was

198. so I gained a lot of weight since

the last eight months but I lost a lot

of weight on the way to those occasions

by coincidence and I looked pretty good

there

so

yeah I'm getting old

I have like one of those dad bodies

basically but I mean I could still work

it like I'm I'm my body's in a place

where if I just worked out I would

actually look pretty good but I'm too

lazy and I don't really have any love

interest at the moment so I haven't

really done any of that but I'm also on

a diet again not like a strict diet but

I'm slowly losing weight again I uh I

lost like six pounds in the last two

weeks I know that's not how it actually

works but I mean I think the higher your

weight you are the more weight you lose

faster so I just I'm just on my

healthier diet where I eat salmon

lettuce cherry tomatoes chicken maybe

rice sometimes and I get like one fiber

bar a day or something because eating

too many of those makes me feel sick

speaking of which I've had like insane

allergies because my house has been

Dusty that's why you hear the little

uh fan in the background that's just the

air purifier

um

let me think

hmm

yeah I'm just

2 30 for me is I I feel fat I've been

bullied growing up and I'm super

self-conscious of it of being fat

and I feel like I'm fat right now and

some of you guys might say oh you look

fine well in my eyes and my brain like

I'm always gonna think that because of

the experiences I've had throughout life

it's not a big deal right now but yeah I

haven't really been using webcam on

stream because I'm self-conscious

um but I'm on my way back down so when I

feel good again maybe I'll use webcam on

stream again honestly the only reason

why I use webcam in the first place is

because when I was around 19 years old

people were like oh show us your face

show us your face and I showed my face

after I was like at the most jacked

point of my life and they're like oh my

God you're so hot oh you know and that's

where the [ __ ] whole league thing

started

but now I'm 31 and now I mean I think I

look okay but I don't really

yeah I don't really it's not really a

Focus right now I'm just playing games

and just trying to do the bare minimum

being healthy

um I'm six three so

even though I'm this weight I don't look

that bad because of my height but if I

was shorter God it would be so much

worse that is the only thing I like

about being tall

and that's just a nice privilege to have

and I'm grateful for that

um I guess the next thing to talk about

oh

um I noted them that I'm single now

but I've been through like some

relationships in the last couple of

years not very long ones

but

um

I've realized in life with that what I

want out of girls is that

well or guys I'm kind of I found out

that I'm bi

um not for all guys but just some of

them

uh

I guess you would just be calling them

fem boys which is kind of embarrassing

to talk about I won't talk about too

much but basically

I've went through a couple of

relationships and I've realized that

a lot of relationships play this tug of

war game

where

you have to like put a certain amount of

effort or you and you want it back and

that depends on who you're talking to

but for me all I really care about is

playing games

and when I'm with like a significant

other like I appreciate their company

and cuddling but I don't care about like

sex I don't care about uh

uh I don't care about doing a lot of

things I'm very apathetic as a person

and so if they don't tell me

I won't do [ __ ]

so I basically the point I'm very is I'm

a terrible boyfriend

I didn't know what it meant to be in a

relationship for a very long time and as

I grow older I'm now understanding that

to be in a relationship you need to give

and take and you need to put more effort

into it

but the kind of person I am it's just

really hard too so I'm just waiting for

that day I find that significant other

that basically is fine with me

but I'm not really in a rush I'm not if

not if nothing happens I don't care I'm

also

finally ready to like start a family

um well maybe I'm not that ready

but I'm like if if a significant other

wanted to start a family I would I would

be okay with that because in the past I

would always reject it because I don't I

never thought I was ready for it and the

truth is is like if I keep saying that

I'll never be ready it's not really a

priority

I don't really care

enough

but

yeah basically what I'm talking about is

that

yeah relationships for me is as a person

have caused me a lot of emotional

distress and I just don't

really want them as much but I but I

want the company so it's like it's like

a seesaw like seesaw effect of like what

I won I don't know I hate that side of

me I I [ __ ] hate it I really hate

like being that emotionally uh

influenced

um

uh so another thing is I live in Kansas

right now

uh some people that come to my twitch

streams are like hey how's Austin Texas

and I'm just like

bro I haven't lived there for five years

I've lived in Kansas for the last three

years

um I kind of like it here

because there's a lot of good food

options surprisingly a lot of like

Asians live here so I get a lot of like

Chinese food Japanese food Vietnamese

food and I love all that because I'm

from Hawaii

um I'm half white and half Chinese

myself and like 160 Native American

Cherokee I have like a really flexible

I don't know tastes taste buds so the

food here is good but most importantly I

have a t fiber and that is one of the

reasons why I haven't moved here from

Kansas having fiber compared to not is a

huge difference a massive difference

like it's just it's not even close like

I I

appreciate it too much to move

uh the living prices here are pretty

good

and I have a few friends here not that

many but

just a few I don't really do anything I

don't really leave the house so it

doesn't really matter that much

I'll leave the house when I'd and

absolutely have to like the covid shot

or if I'm going on a trip

um

yeah

so that's that

I don't think I'll move for a while

because I'm lazy

but I'm good where I'm at I live in

Kansas

please don't ask me if I live in Texas

like if you hear this like I just

I'm so tired of answering the same

questions over and over anyways this is

an FAQ

um next thing is uh my Twitter well I

guess it's called X now

I posted

a comment to one of TF blades posts and

I don't really know TF played I don't

really watch him but he was a mutual on

League

and I woke up one morning and I saw a

comment to his post saying I didn't

really read his post but I saw someone

say that league is a children's game and

you need to get off the internet and

those two things just annoyed me because

league is the game that made my life

basically so that annoyed me for that

like I was a professional at that and

then

uh getting off the internet I hate the

idea of people on Twitter telling other

people what to do but the reason why

they did that is because his post was

actually really bad and I didn't realize

that so what I replied to is like who

the [ __ ] do you think you are and it

wasn't about the post that TF blade made

it was more about like those two things

that they said

and I mean that was a mistake I I do not

want to post in the for you section ever

again on Twitter because what happened

there is I retracted League fans

Minecraft fans

uh V tubers fans

uh

K drop uh K stands so I got a whole mix

of those kinds of people in the reply

saying all kinds of terrible [ __ ] to me

besides like one or two people that were

generally confused on why I put the pose

so

I apologize to the one or two people

because you know I

I don't I don't want to hurt those

people like there's no I don't have a

reason to and then for everyone else I

basically said well oh I [ __ ] up

my bad you know and one guy I I have one

[ __ ] parasol severe I was like I just

took a jab at them basically

but it's whatever now I'm not getting

involved with the for you section on

Twitter I might post on Twitter more now

uh when I have things to post

actually I don't know don't don't follow

my Twitter in fact if you're watching

this video on YouTube like I If you want

to unsubscribe that's all good like it's

not a big deal like I you look at my

social blade for my my uh

Twitter and all that

and twitch like it's all in the red the

the league phase has ended a long time

ago

there there's no personal feelings or

bad grudges they're just they're moving

on with our lives

um uh speaking of which for twitch I

still stream on Twitch every once in a

while I've been playing

uh Street Fighter 6 and I've been

playing a character named Zangief

because I love griefing people if you

know my personality I enjoy that

um so I still stream on there

um but yeah everything else I don't

really use I guess I use Tumblr once in

a while at events but yeah so that's

basically been my life I wake up I play

games I eat food and I go to sleep the

only thing that's happening of relevance

for me recently is I'm going to be in a

DND campaign

with uh sterez the DM with a couple of

my friends sure foreign Gully and then

we have a v tuber named selin

she's she's okay I guess and then uh

Apex Pro player named the nocturnal and

he used to play league too so I know

uh known from that too

so that would be an interesting d d

campaign

um

and then other than that I'm just trying

to get the masters of Zangief which is

the league equivalent of

I guess Masters in league so

yep that's what that's my life update

um I'm probably gonna be losing weight

again because

since I am

uh a human being that gets

flustered I'm going to want a

significant other sooner or later

um

but if not then whatever that's life

anyways thanks for watching thank

uh God I hate repeating myself

appreciate you guys have a nice day

peace