Substance Abuse: Hannah's Story

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23 Mar 201702:43

Summary

TLDRThe speaker candidly shares their harrowing journey with substance abuse, beginning in high school with marijuana and escalating to heroin, painkillers, and cocaine. Despite numerous close calls and the tragic death of a close friend, it was a personal revelation that led them to seek help. The narrative emphasizes the importance of understanding the 'why' behind addiction and the transformative power of personal motivation in recovery. The speaker now cherishes their role as a family member and finds beauty in everyday life, with a renewed outlook on the future.

Takeaways

  • πŸ”’ The individual was secretly using drugs, including heroin, behind the backs of their family members.
  • 🌿 The person began experimenting with various substances, such as marijuana, alcohol, pain pills, and cocaine, during their freshman year.
  • πŸ’‰ The first encounter with heroin was during the freshman year, and it had a profound impact, leading to a strong desire to continue using.
  • πŸŽ“ The senior year was marked by heavy substance use, with heroin, alcohol, or amphetamines being the primary means of coping.
  • 🚨 There were numerous instances where the person's life was at risk, but they survived, highlighting the dangerous nature of their lifestyle.
  • 😒 The death of a close friend during the summer had a significant emotional impact, leading to hospitalization.
  • πŸ”„ Despite the tragedy, the person resumed drug use immediately after being discharged from the hospital, indicating a strong addiction.
  • πŸ€” The individual recognized the need for self-motivated help and understood that detoxification alone was not enough.
  • 🧐 There was a realization of the need to understand the 'why' behind the drug use and behavior, which had been suppressed for years.
  • πŸ’‘ The person's perspective on their future changed from expecting a short life to finding beauty in relationships and roles within the family.
  • 🌟 The experiences at 'sbri' (possibly a rehabilitation or support program) were positive and are expected to continue improving.

Q & A

  • What substance did the speaker start using during their freshman year?

    -The speaker started using marijuana, alcohol, pain pills like peret and vicadin, and cocaine during their freshman year.

  • When did the speaker first try heroin?

    -The speaker first tried heroin during their freshman year.

  • What was the speaker's situation during their senior year?

    -During their senior year, the speaker was heavily dependent on drugs, primarily heroin, alcohol, or amphetamines to get through each day.

  • What significant event occurred during the summer mentioned in the script?

    -The speaker's best friend, who they had known for six years, died during that summer.

  • Why was the speaker admitted to the hospital?

    -The speaker was admitted to the hospital because they were a wreck after their best friend's death.

  • What did the speaker do the day after being discharged from the hospital?

    -The day after being discharged, the speaker used drugs again and did not stop.

  • What realization did the speaker come to regarding seeking help for their addiction?

    -The speaker realized that they wouldn't truly get help unless it was their own idea, and it wasn't just about getting off the drugs but understanding why they used them.

  • What was the speaker's previous outlook on their future before seeking help?

    -The speaker used to think they would die by age 30 and would be high for the rest of their life.

  • What has changed for the speaker after seeking help and experiencing the process of recovery?

    -The speaker now finds beauty in the people around them and takes motivation from being able to be a sister and a daughter, roles they didn't think they would fulfill.

  • What does the speaker expect from their future after going through the recovery process?

    -The speaker expects their future to get better and is optimistic about the positive changes they have experienced.

  • What is the speaker's perspective on the daily work of recovery?

    -The speaker acknowledges that recovery is something that has to be worked on every day, indicating a commitment to ongoing self-improvement.

Outlines

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πŸ’‰ Struggle with Addiction

The speaker recounts their journey into drug addiction, beginning with marijuana and alcohol during their freshman year, escalating to painkillers, cocaine, and eventually heroin. They describe their transformation into a 'monster' and the daily struggle to maintain their habit, often behind the backs of their family. The narrative includes the tragic death of a close friend, which led to a hospital admission but did not deter them from continuing to use drugs upon release.

Mindmap

Keywords

πŸ’‘Heroin

Heroin is an illegal and highly addictive opioid drug derived from morphine. It is known for its devastating effects on individuals and communities. In the video's context, the speaker describes their daily use of heroin, which led to a significant deterioration in their life and relationships, highlighting the theme of substance abuse and its consequences.

πŸ’‘Addiction

Addiction refers to a chronic brain disease characterized by compulsive engagement in rewarding stimuli, despite adverse consequences. The speaker's narrative is a testament to the power of addiction, as they continued to use drugs like heroin and alcohol despite the clear negative impact on their life, illustrating the struggle with overcoming addiction.

πŸ’‘Substance Abuse

Substance abuse involves the harmful or hazardous use of substances such as drugs or alcohol. The video's theme revolves around the speaker's journey with substance abuse, starting from experimentation with various drugs during their freshman year to daily heroin use, showcasing the progression and severity of the issue.

πŸ’‘Detox

Detox, short for detoxification, is the process of allowing the body to eliminate toxic substances, particularly drugs or alcohol. The speaker mentions detox as a step in their recovery, emphasizing the physical aspect of overcoming addiction and the need to address the underlying causes of substance abuse.

πŸ’‘Recovery

Recovery in the context of addiction refers to the process of regaining control over one's life after substance abuse. The speaker's story includes their realization of the need for recovery, not just from the physical dependence on drugs but also from the behavioral patterns that led to their addiction.

πŸ’‘Self-Harm

Self-harm involves the deliberate infliction of pain or injury upon oneself. The speaker's actions, such as continuing to use drugs despite life-threatening situations, can be interpreted as a form of self-harm, reflecting the depth of their struggle with addiction.

πŸ’‘Support System

A support system consists of people who provide emotional, psychological, and practical help to an individual. The speaker mentions the importance of their family and the role they play in their recovery, emphasizing the value of a strong support system in overcoming addiction.

πŸ’‘Motivation

Motivation is the drive or desire to achieve a goal or engage in a behavior. The speaker finds motivation in their new role as a sister and daughter, illustrating how personal relationships and a sense of purpose can be powerful motivators in the recovery process.

πŸ’‘Reflection

Reflection involves thoughtful consideration or analysis, often of one's beliefs, feelings, or experiences. The speaker engages in deep reflection about their past actions and the reasons behind their substance abuse, which is crucial for understanding and addressing the root causes of their addiction.

πŸ’‘Behavioral Patterns

Behavioral patterns refer to the regular and repeated ways in which individuals act. The speaker discusses the behavioral patterns that led to their addiction, such as using drugs to cope with life's challenges, indicating the importance of identifying and changing these patterns for lasting recovery.

πŸ’‘Overcoming Adversity

Overcoming adversity means to triumph over difficulties or challenges. The video's theme includes the speaker's journey of overcoming the adversity of addiction, showcasing the resilience and strength required to face and surmount such personal struggles.

Highlights

Individual started using heroin daily behind family's back during freshman year.

Began smoking marijuana and drinking heavily in 'fun state'.

First tried pain pills like peret and vicadin, then cocaine.

Heroin use began and individual knew they would continue using.

Senior year involved daily substance use, either heroin, alcohol, or amphetamines.

Survived dangerous situations that should have been fatal.

Best friend died during the summer, leading to hospitalization.

Continued using drugs the day after being discharged from hospital.

Realization of needing to seek help on their own terms.

Detox was just the first step, understanding why they used drugs was crucial.

Suppressed thoughts and emotions about drug use for many years.

Daily work on understanding and overcoming past actions and behaviors.

Used to envision dying by age 30, now sees beauty in life and relationships.

Being a sister, daughter, and having a future is a strong motivation.

Positive experiences and expectations of continued improvement.

Transcripts

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I was shooting heroin every day I was

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doing it behind my mom's back my

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family's back I just became a

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monster when I was a

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freshman that was like the fun State you

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know that's when I really started

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smoking good weed drinking heavier and

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um I tried pain pills like peret and

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vicadin for the first time I tried

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cocaine for the first time and so year I

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tried heroin for the first time I always

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wanted to feel that way and I knew from

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that moment like I'm definitely going to

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like this and I didn't want to

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stop my senior year I

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was wow I don't really remember a lot of

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it I know if I didn't have heroin it was

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definitely alcohol or it was um

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amphetamines to get me through I would

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improvise but it was pretty much every

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day that summer I was pushing my pushing

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my luck there should have been a dozen

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times where I should be dead and you

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know one of my best friends that I've

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had for the past six years she died that

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summer I got admitted into a hospital

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because I was just a wreck after she

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died and then when I got out the next

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day I used and I didn't

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stop I don't know what inside me

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push myself to get help like my own help

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but I knew that I wasn't going to get

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help truly unless it was my

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idea it wasn't just like getting off the

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drugs like detox was for getting off the

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drugs that next level was just like why

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did you do those drugs why did you act

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the way that you did why are you the

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person that you are and that's what I

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was suppressing for so many

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years

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but you know it is something that you

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have to work on every day I used to look

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at my future and think like oh I'll just

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die by age 30 you know I'm just going to

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be high the rest of my life but now it's

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just

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like you know you find so much Beauty in

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the people around you the fact that I

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can be a big sister today to my little

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brother and I'm a sister to my older

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sister and I can be a daughter I can be

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these things today that is the biggest

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motivation the things that I've

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experienced in sbri are so great and I

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just expect them to get

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[Music]

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better

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