Why I keep speaking up, even when people mock my accent | Safwat Saleem
Summary
TLDRSafwat Saleem, a visual artist and animator, shares his journey of self-expression through his work, which includes humorous animations and educational videos. Despite facing criticism for his Pakistani accent, he initially avoids using his voice in his art. However, he challenges societal norms by embracing his unique voice and accent, drawing parallels to how ancient cultures recognized colors only after they could produce them. Saleem encourages us to continuously redefine 'normal' to see the true diversity of our world.
Takeaways
- 😴 The speaker used to have a recurring dream of being unable to speak in social situations, reflecting their anxiety and past experiences with stuttering.
- 🎨 As a visual artist, the speaker finds joy in creating humorous and poignant animations, often providing voice-overs for various characters.
- 🎬 The speaker's work on an educational video about video game history was initially well-received, boosting their confidence and sense of achievement.
- 👎 Negative comments about the speaker's voice and accent on the video led to a setback in their self-esteem and temporarily halted their use of their voice in their work.
- 🤔 The speaker's childhood experiences with stuttering were marked by avoidance and silence, as they felt different and struggled with the fear of being judged.
- 🔍 The concept of 'normal' is explored through the speaker's personal journey and the historical example of color perception in ancient cultures.
- 🌐 The speaker challenges the audience to consider how societal expectations and preconceived notions of normalcy can lead to discrimination and exclusion.
- 📚 The lack of diversity in children's literature is highlighted as a missed opportunity to expose children to a broader range of experiences and perspectives.
- 💪 The speaker decides to embrace their unique voice and accent, using their work and platform to challenge and redefine what is considered 'normal'.
- 🌟 The speaker concludes by encouraging continuous questioning of societal norms, drawing a parallel to the ancient Greeks' evolving perception of the color blue.
Q & A
What is the recurring dream that the speaker describes at the beginning of the script?
-The speaker describes a recurring dream where they enter a room full of people, trying to avoid eye contact. When someone approaches and asks their name, they panic and are unable to respond, leading to an awkward silence followed by others in the room asking if they've forgotten their name.
What does the speaker enjoy doing as a visual artist?
-As a visual artist, the speaker enjoys creating little animations where they get to do voice-overs for various characters, including a bear, a whale, a greeting card, and Frankenstein's monster.
What was the speaker's experience like when they first saw positive comments on their educational video about the history of video games?
-The speaker was excited to see positive comments on their video, feeling like they had finally arrived when people other than their mom were saying nice things about their work online.
How did the speaker react to the negative comments about their voice in the video?
-Initially, the speaker took the negative comments about their voice personally, but they decided to ignore them and continue working on the second part of the video.
What is the speaker's personal challenge with speaking?
-The speaker has struggled with stuttering for as long as they can remember, which made speaking difficult and often led to them avoiding situations where they had to speak, such as raising their hand in class or answering the phone.
How does the speaker use audio editing in their work?
-The speaker uses audio editing to refine their voice in their work, comparing it to Photoshop for the voice, where they can slow down, speed up, deepen, or add an echo to their voice, and fix stutters.
What realization did the speaker come to after receiving negative comments about their accent?
-The speaker realized that 'normal' is largely based on expectations and what people are accustomed to, and they decided to challenge the preexisting notion of normal with their work, voice, and accent.
What historical example does the speaker use to illustrate the concept of 'normal' being based on what we are exposed to?
-The speaker uses the example of Ancient Greek writer Homer, who mentioned very few colors in his writing, suggesting that cultures only began to recognize a color once they had the ability to make it, thus making it part of their 'normal'.
How does the speaker relate the concept of 'normal' to societal discrimination?
-The speaker relates 'normal' to societal discrimination by pointing out that expectations of what is normal can lead to favoritism and discrimination, such as reviewers finding more spelling errors in writing they believe is from a black person, or resumes with white-sounding names getting more callbacks.
What is the speaker's message about challenging the notion of 'normal'?
-The speaker encourages challenging the notion of 'normal' to allow society to see the true diversity and richness of experiences and perspectives, comparing it to how the Ancient Greeks eventually recognized the color blue after centuries of not seeing it.
Outlines
🎨 Artistic Expression and the Struggle with Voice
The speaker, a visual artist, shares a recurring dream of social anxiety where they are unable to speak their name when asked, reflecting their real-life challenges with stuttering. They express their creativity through humorous and poignant animations, where they enjoy doing voice-overs for various characters, including a bear, a whale, and Frankenstein's monster. Despite the joy of voicing these characters, negative comments on an educational video about the history of video games, criticizing the speaker's voice and accent, led to a period of self-doubt and withdrawal from using their voice in their work. The paragraph concludes with the speaker's realization of the impact of societal expectations on what is considered 'normal'.
🌈 Challenging the Notion of 'Normal'
The speaker delves into the concept of 'normal' by examining historical and cultural perspectives, such as the Ancient Greeks' limited color recognition due to their inability to produce certain colors. This analogy is used to illustrate how societal norms are shaped by exposure and visibility. The speaker discusses the unconscious biases that arise from these norms, citing examples of discrimination based on race and gender in academic and professional settings. They also highlight the lack of diversity in children's literature, which affects how children perceive themselves and others. The speaker concludes by expressing a personal commitment to challenge these norms through their work and voice, despite the fear and criticism they face.
🌟 Embracing Diversity and the Power of Persistence
In the final paragraph, the speaker emphasizes the importance of continuously challenging our preconceived notions of 'normal' to foster a more inclusive society. They draw a parallel between the Ancient Greeks' delayed recognition of the color blue and the slow societal acceptance of diversity. The speaker shares their renewed courage to use their voice in their work, acknowledging the possibility of setbacks but坚定地认为放弃不是一个选项. The paragraph ends with the speaker expressing gratitude and receiving applause, signifying the audience's appreciation for their message of embracing diversity and the power of persistence.
Mindmap
Keywords
💡Stuttering
💡Voice-over
💡Accent
💡Normal
💡Discrimination
💡Self-consciousness
💡Expectations
💡Ancient Greek
💡Challenge
💡Invisibility
💡Representation
Highlights
The speaker shares a recurring dream of social anxiety and the fear of forgetting their name.
As a visual artist, the speaker finds joy in creating humorous and bittersweet animations.
The speaker has voiced various characters, including a bear, whale, and greeting card, in their animations.
Frankenstein's monster is the speaker's favorite character to voice, requiring a lot of grunting.
An educational video about the history of video games allowed the speaker to voice Space Invader.
The speaker experienced a mix of positive and negative feedback on their video, including comments on their voice.
The speaker has a Pakistani accent, which was criticized by some viewers as being hard to understand.
The negative comments led the speaker to stop using their voice in their work, triggering memories of a childhood struggle with stuttering.
The speaker's childhood was marked by a fear of speaking and being perceived as abnormal due to their stutter.
The speaker's use of audio editing in their work was a way to feel normal, but negative comments undermined this.
The concept of 'normal' is challenged by the speaker, who explores its relation to expectations and visibility.
Ancient literature's limited color palette is used as an analogy for how 'normal' is constructed by what we can create and see.
The speaker discusses societal biases and discrimination, linking them to our narrow definitions of 'normal'.
Children's books often lack diverse characters, which affects how children perceive 'normal' and their own potential.
The speaker decides to challenge the preexisting notion of 'normal' through their work and voice, despite fear.
The speaker is now slowly reintroducing their voice into their work, embracing their accent and uniqueness.
The speaker concludes by emphasizing the importance of challenging our notions of 'normal' for societal progress.
Transcripts
I used to have this recurring dream
where I'd walk into a roomful of people,
and I'd try not to make eye contact with anyone.
Until someone notices me,
and I just panic.
And the person walks up to me,
and says, "Hi, my name is So-and-so.
And what is your name?"
And I'm just quiet, unable to respond.
After some awkward silence, he goes,
"Have you forgotten your name?"
And I'm still quiet.
And then, slowly, all the other people in the room begin to turn toward me
and ask, almost in unison,
(Voice-over, several voices) "Have you forgotten your name?"
As the chant gets louder, I want to respond, but I don't.
I'm a visual artist.
Some of my work is humorous,
and some is a bit funny but in a sad way.
And one thing that I really enjoy doing
is making these little animations
where I get to do the voice-over for all kinds of characters.
I've been a bear.
(Video) Bear (Safwat Saleem's voice): Hi.
(Laughter)
Safwat Saleem: I've been a whale.
(Video) Whale (SS's voice): Hi.
(Laughter)
SS: I've been a greeting card.
(Video) Greeting card (SS's voice): Hi.
(Laughter)
SS: And my personal favorite is Frankenstein's monster.
(Video) Frankenstein's monster (SS's voice): (Grunts)
(Laughter)
SS: I just had to grunt a lot for that one.
A few years ago, I made this educational video
about the history of video games.
And for that one, I got to do the voice of Space Invader.
(Video) Space Invader (SS's voice): Hi.
SS: A dream come true, really,
(Laughter)
And when that video was posted online,
I just sat there on the computer, hitting "refresh,"
excited to see the response.
The first comment comes in.
(Video) Comment: Great job.
SS: Yes!
I hit "refresh."
(Video) Comment: Excellent video. I look forward to the next one.
SS: This was just the first of a two-part video.
I was going to work on the second one next.
I hit "refresh."
(Video) Comment: Where is part TWO? WHEREEEEE? I need it NOWWWWW!: P
(Laughter)
SS: People other than my mom were saying nice things about me,
on the Internet!
It felt like I had finally arrived.
I hit "refresh."
(Video) Comment: His voice is annoying. No offense.
SS: OK, no offense taken. Refresh.
(Video) Comment: Could you remake this without peanut butter in your mouth?
SS: OK, at least the feedback is somewhat constructive. Hit "refresh."
(Video) Comment: Please don't use this narrator again
u can barely understand him.
SS: Refresh.
(Video) Comment: Couldn't follow because of the Indian accent.
SS: OK, OK, OK, two things.
Number one, I don't have an Indian accent,
I have a Pakistani accent, OK?
And number two, I clearly have a Pakistani accent.
(Laughter)
But comments like that kept coming in,
so I figured I should just ignore them
and start working on the second part of the video.
I recorded my audio,
but every time I sat down to edit,
I just could not do it.
Every single time, it would take me back to my childhood,
when I had a much harder time speaking.
I've stuttered for as long as I can remember.
I was the kid in class
who would never raise his hand when he had a question --
or knew the answer.
Every time the phone rang,
I would run to the bathroom so I would not have to answer it.
If it was for me, my parents would say I'm not around.
I spent a lot of time in the bathroom.
And I hated introducing myself,
especially in groups.
I'd always stutter on my name, and there was usually someone who'd go,
"Have you forgotten your name?"
And then everybody would laugh.
That joke never got old.
(Laughter)
I spent my childhood feeling that if I spoke,
it would become obvious that there was something wrong with me,
that I was not normal.
So I mostly stayed quiet.
And so you see, eventually for me to even be able to use my voice in my work
was a huge step for me.
Every time I record audio,
I fumble my way through saying each sentence many, many times,
and then I go back in
and pick the ones where I think I suck the least.
(Voice-over) SS: Audio editing is like Photoshop for your voice.
I can slow it down, speed it up, make it deeper, add an echo.
And if I stutter along the way, and if I stutter along the way,
I just go back in and fix it.
It's magic.
SS: Using my highly edited voice in my work
was a way for me to finally sound normal to myself.
But after the comments on the video,
it no longer made me feel normal.
And so I stopped using my voice in my work.
Since then, I've thought a lot about what it means to be normal.
And I've come to understand
that "normal" has a lot to do with expectations.
Let me give you an example.
I came across this story
about the Ancient Greek writer, Homer.
Now, Homer mentions very few colors in his writing.
And even when he does,
he seems to get them quite a bit wrong.
For example, the sea is described as wine red,
people's faces are sometimes green and sheep are purple.
But it's not just Homer.
If you look at all of the ancient literature --
Ancient Chinese, Icelandic, Greek, Indian
and even the original Hebrew Bible --
they all mention very few colors.
And the most popular theory for why that might be the case
is that cultures begin to recognize a color
only once they have the ability to make that color.
So basically, if you can make a color,
only then can you see it.
A color like red, which was fairly easy for many cultures to make --
they began to see that color fairly early on.
But a color like blue, which was much harder to make --
many cultures didn't begin to learn how to make that color
until much later.
They didn't begin to see it until much later as well.
So until then, even though a color might be all around them,
they simply did not have the ability to see it.
It was invisIble.
It was not a part of their normal.
And that story has helped put my own experience into context.
So when I first read the comments on the video,
my initial reaction was to take it all very personally.
But the people commenting did not know
how self-conscious I am about my voice.
They were mostly reacting to my accent,
that it is not normal for a narrator to have an accent.
But what is normal, anyway?
We know that reviewers will find more spelling errors in your writing
if they think you're black.
We know that professors are less likely to help female or minority students.
And we know that resumes with white-sounding names
get more callbacks than resumes with black-sounding names.
Why is that?
Because of our expectations of what is normal.
We think it is normal
when a black student has spelling errors.
We think it is normal
when a female or minority student does not succeed.
And we think it is normal
that a white employee is a better hire than a black employee.
But studies also show that discrimination of this kind,
in most cases, is simply favoritism,
and it results more from wanting to help people that you can relate to
than the desire to harm people that you can't relate to.
And not relating to people starts at a very early age.
Let me give you an example.
One library that keeps track of characters
in the children's book collection every year,
found that in 2014, only about 11 percent of the books
had a character of color.
And just the year before, that number was about eight percent,
even though half of American children today come from a minority background.
Half.
So there are two big issues here.
Number one, children are told that they can be anything,
they can do anything,
and yet, most stories that children of color consume
are about people who are not like them.
Number two is that majority groups don't get to realize
the great extent to which they are similar to minorities --
our everyday experiences, our hopes,
our dreams, our fears
and our mutual love for hummus.
It's delicious!
(Laughter)
Just like the color blue for Ancient Greeks,
minorities are not a part of what we consider normal,
because normal is simply a construction of what we've been exposed to,
and how visible it is around us.
And this is where things get a bit difficult.
I can accept the preexisting notion of normal -- that normal is good,
and anything outside of that very narrow definition of normal is bad.
Or I can challenge that preexisting notion of normal
with my work
and with my voice
and with my accent
and by standing here onstage,
even though I'm scared shitless and would rather be in the bathroom.
(Laughter)
(Applause)
(Video) Sheep (SS's voice): I'm now slowly starting to use my voice
in my work again.
And it feels good.
It does not mean I won't have a breakdown
the next time a couple dozen people say that I talk
(Mumbling) like I have peanut butter in my mouth.
(Laughter)
SS: It just means I now have a much better understanding
of what's at stake,
and how giving up is not an option.
The Ancient Greeks didn't just wake up one day and realize
that the sky was blue.
It took centuries, even, for humans to realize what we had been ignoring
for so long.
And so we must continuously challenge our notion of normal,
because doing so is going to allow us as a society
to finally see the sky for what it is.
(Video) Characters: Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Frankenstein's monster: (Grunts)
(Laughter)
SS: Thank you.
(Applause)
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