content on this channel / message to my viewers / life update vlog
Summary
TLDRIn diesem DARS vlog teilt der YouTuber mit, dass er vorübergehend keine neuen Inhalte mehr erstellen wird, da sein Videoeditor Dualis einen neuen Waschmaschinen hat und er selbst keine Lust mehr hat, an YouTube-Content zu arbeiten. Er betont, dass er genug Geld verdient hat und keine weiteren finanziellen Anreize hat. Zudem gibt er einen Überblick über sein Leben, seine Beziehungen und seine Erfahrungen auf TwitchCon und bei der LCS-Finale. Der YouTuber bedankt sich bei seinen Zuschauern für ihre Unterstützung und teilt seine Gedanken über Beziehungen und sein Leben in Kansas mit.
Takeaways
- 🎮 Der Kanalinhalt wird aufgrund eines technischen Problems (Washingmaschine) und mangelnder Motivation (Zufriedenheit mit dem Leben, keine Lust auf Steuerarbeit) vorübergehend pausiert.
- 🔧 In Zukunft werden die Videos ungeschnitten und roh sein, da der Schöpfer sich nicht der Mühe einer detaillierten Bearbeitung unterzieht.
- 📢 Für Feedback und Diskussionen wird die Community auf Discord umgeleitet, da YouTube-Kommentare selten gelesen werden.
- 👴 Der Schöpfer spürt, dass er alternd wird und nimmt sich selbst und seine Reaktionen auf die Dinge im Leben kritisch wahr.
- 🙏 Er dankt den Zuschauern für die Unterstützung und betont, dass er ohne sie nicht dort wäre, wo er heute ist.
- 🏠 In den letzten fünf Jahren hat er das Haus kaum verlassen, bis er sich zu LCS-Finalen und TwitchCon bewegte.
- 🤝 Bei diesen Veranstaltungen empfand er Herzlichkeit und Anerkennung von Fans und ehemaligen Teamkollegen, was ihn emotional berührte.
- 🍲 Er lebt in Kansas und genießt die dort verfügbaren asiatischen Essensoptionen, was auf seine Herkunft aus Hawaii und seine genetische Mischung zurückzuführen ist.
- 🌐 Er hat festgestellt, dass er sich in Bezug auf romantische Beziehungen eher zurückhaltend und unzureichend als Partner verhält und auf der Suche nach einer Person ist, die dies akzeptiert.
- 🏋️♂️ Er ist sich seiner Gewichtsprobleme bewusst und plant, abzunehmen, auch wenn er sich selbst in Bezug auf sein Äußeres nicht im Fokus hat.
- 🎲 Er teilt mit, dass er an einem Dungeons & Dragons-Spiel teilnehmen wird und sich auf das Erreichen von Meisterstatus in Street Fighter 6 vorbereitet.
Q & A
Welche Gründe führten dazu, dass der Content-Ersteller seine YouTube-Videos pausieren möchte?
-Der Content-Ersteller möchte seine YouTube-Videos pausieren, weil er finanziell ausreichend ist und keine Motivation hat, mehr Geld zu verdienen. Er findet auch, dass das Bezahlen seines Mitarbeiters Dualis und die Steuerarbeit, die damit verbunden ist, lästig sind.
Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Beziehung zu Dualis und dessen Waschmaschine gesagt?
-Der Content-Ersteller zeigte Verständnis für Dualis' alte Waschmaschine aus den 80ern und erwähnte, dass er sie ihm jetzt gekauft hat, um ihn in einen besseren Zustand zu versetzen.
Wie bezeichnet der Content-Ersteller seine zukünftigen Videos?
-Die zukünftigen Videos werden 'Raw' genannt, was bedeutet, dass sie kaum bearbeitet und möglicherweise mit einigen Schnittstellen versehen sein werden, aber keine intensiven Edits.
Welche Empfehlungen hat der Content-Ersteller für die Zuschauer, wenn sie Feedback haben oder ihn erreichen möchten?
-Der Content-Ersteller empfiehlt, auf Discord zu gehen und ihn im 'Ask the Irish Channel' zu taggen, anstatt auf YouTube-Kommentare zu warten, die er nicht oft liest.
Was hat der Content-Ersteller über sein Leben und seine Zuschauer gesagt?
-Er hat sich für die Unterstützung seiner Zuschauer bedankt und betont, dass er ohne sie nicht dort wäre, wo er heute ist. Er drückt auch aus, dass er das Glück anderer teilt und dass dies ihm eine Lebensabsicht gibt.
Wie geht der Content-Ersteller mit negativen Reaktionen oder Hassern seiner Zuschauer um?
-Er sagt, dass er keine Grollkämpfe führt und keine Rache plant. Er ist offen für ehrliche Gespräche mit Hassern, verlangt jedoch, dass sie nicht überdramatischen oder nutzlosen Fragen stellen.
Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Beziehungsleben in den letzten Jahren gesagt?
-Er hat durch einige Beziehungen in den letzten Jahren gelernt, dass er in Bezug auf Beziehungen eine apathische Person ist und dass er sich für das Zusammensein und Kuscheln mehr interessiert als für sexuelle Aspekte.
Was hat der Content-Ersteller über sein Leben in Kansas und seine Bewegungsgründe gesagt?
-Er mag Kansas, weil es viele gute Essensoptionen hat und er dort seit drei Jahren lebt. Er hat auch Fiber-Internet, was für ihn ein großer Vorteil ist und das verhindert, dass er zieht.
Was hat der Content-Ersteller über sein Aussehen und seine Selbstwahrnehmung gesagt?
-Er ist sich seiner Gewichtszunahme bewusst und fühlt sich selbst als fett, was durch frühere Erfahrungen beeinflusst wird. Er plant, Gewicht zu verlieren und ist bestrebt, gesünder zu leben.
Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Zukunftspläne und sein Interesse an einer Familie gesagt?
-Er sagt, dass er bereit ist, eine Familie zu gründen, wenn ein zukünftiger Partner dies möchte, obwohl er sich selbst nicht als besonders bereit dafür hält.
Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Erfahrungen auf TwitchCon und LCS gesagt?
-Er hatte auf beiden Veranstaltungen viel Spaß und war dankbar für die freundliche Behandlung. Er traf viele alte Bekannte und Teamkollegen wieder und empfand die Erfahrung als herzwarm.
Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine Meinung zu sozialen Medien und Twitter gesagt?
-Er hat eine unangenehme Erfahrung mit dem 'Für dich'-Abschnitt auf Twitter beschrieben und sagt, dass er sich nicht mehr dort einmischen wird. Er warnt auch seine Zuschauer davor, ihm auf Twitter zu folgen, da seine Präsenz dort rückläufig ist.
Was hat der Content-Ersteller über seine bevorstehenden Pläne und Aktivitäten gesagt?
-Er erwähnte, an einem DND-Spiel teilzunehmen und sich auf das Erreichen des Meisters in Street Fighter 6 vorzubereiten. Er plant auch, weiterhin Gewicht zu verlieren und gesünder zu leben.
Outlines
🎥 Content-Pause und Lebensaktualisierung
Der Sprecher kündigt eine Pause im Content-Upload auf dem Kanal an und erklärt, dass er zuvor nicht damit gerechnet hatte, längere Zeit mit YouTube-Content und -Bearbeitung zu verbringen. Er erwähnt, dass sein Mitarbeiter Dualis jetzt einen modernen Waschmaschinen hat, was auf eine frühere Geschichte zurückgeht, in der Dualis einen sehr alten Waschmaschinen zeigte. Der Sprecher betont, dass er keine Motivation hat, mehr Geld zu verdienen, da er bereits genug verdient hat und eine gute finanzielle Situation hat. Er teilt mit, dass zukünftige Videos roh sein werden, da er keine Zeit oder Motivation hat, sie zu bearbeiten, und fordert die Zuschauer auf, Vorschläge für neue Inhalte oder Feedback im Diskurs zu hinterlassen.
🙏 Danksagung an die Zuschauer
Der Sprecher bedankt sich bei seinen Zuschauern für ihre Unterstützung während seines Internet-Lebens als Dyr us. Er betont, dass er ohne sie nicht dort wäre, wo er heute ist, und dass er ihre Unterstützung sehr schätzt. Er reflektiert darüber, was er ohne sie möglicherweise getan hätte, und wie sein Leben durch die Unterstützung der Zuschauer und durch seine Karriere als professioneller League of Legends-Spieler verändert wurde. Er betont, dass er nicht verschwinden wird und weiterhin aktiv bleibt, und bittet die Zuschauer, ihm über Discord zu kontaktieren, falls sie Fragen oder Bedenken haben.
🏠 Leben im Lockdown und persönliche Herausforderungen
Der Sprecher teilt, dass er in den letzten fünf Jahren sein Haus kaum verlassen hat, bis er letztendlich die LCS Finals besucht hat. Er beschreibt, wie es ihn empfunden hat, alte Teamkollegen und Rivale zu treffen und wie herzhaft es war, viele Fans zu treffen, die ihn noch erinnern und ihm für seine Unterhaltung dankbar sind. Er reflektiert über seine Einsamkeit, da er derzeit single ist und wie es ihn beeinflusst hat, auch wenn er sagt, dass er damit zurechtkommt. Er erwähnt auch, dass er in der Vergangenheit Beziehungen hatte, aber er hat gelernt, dass er sich nicht für viele der Dinge interessiert, die in einer Beziehung üblich sind, und dass er eher zurückhaltend ist.
🤔 Selbstreflexion und Lebensumstände
Der Sprecher spricht über sein Selbstbild und seine Beziehung zu seinem Körper, da er in den letzten Monaten Gewicht zugenommen hat. Er beschreibt seine Bemühungen, wieder abzunehmen und wie er sich selbst wahrnimmt. Er reflektiert auch über seine Beziehungsleben, seine sexuelle Orientierung und seine Erfahrungen mit verschiedenen Partnern. Er sagt, dass er sich in Beziehungen oft unwohl fühlt und dass er auf der Suche nach einer Person ist, die seinen Lebensstil und seine Interessen akzeptiert.
📍 Wohnort und Lebensstil
Der Sprecher erklärt, dass er sich in Kansas aufgesiedelt hat und dass er es dort gut findet, insbesondere wegen der guten Lebensmittelvielfalt. Er betont, dass er nicht mehr in Texas lebt und bittet seine Zuschauer, ihn nicht mehr nach Texas zu fragen. Er teilt auch mit, dass er gerne so bleibt, wo er ist, da er einen gemütlichen Lebensstil hat und nicht viel unternimmt, außer zu Hause zu bleiben und zu spielen.
💬 Soziale Medien und öffentliche Wahrnehmung
Der Sprecher reflektiert über seine Erfahrungen mit sozialen Medien, insbesondere Twitter, wo er sich in einem Missverständnis über einen Post eines anderen Users wiedergefunden hat. Er erklärt, dass er sich nicht mehr in die 'Für dich'-Sektion von Twitter begeben möchte und dass er seine Präsenz auf den sozialen Medien reduzieren wird. Er betont, dass er sich auf sein Leben konzentriert und nicht darauf, was andere über ihn denken.
🎲 Zukunftspläne und Interessen
Der Sprecher teilt mit, dass er an einem DND-Spiel teilnehmen wird und dass er sich auf die Herausforderung freut, die Meisterschaft in Street Fighter 6 mit dem Charakter Zangief zu erreichen. Er erwähnt auch, dass er versucht, Gewicht zu verlieren, und dass er bereit ist, eine Beziehung oder sogar eine Familie zu haben, sollte er den richtigen Partner finden. Er endet mit einem Dankeschön an seine Zuschauer und betont, dass er auf sein eigenes Tempo und seine eigenen Bedürfnisse achtet.
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Keywords
💡Washing Machine
💡Content Pause
💡YouTube
💡Laziness
💡Financial Stability
💡Raw Videos
💡Discord
💡Life Update
💡Self-Consciousness
💡Relationships
💡Twitch
💡Dungeons & Dragons (DND)
Highlights
Content on the channel will be on pause due to Dualis getting a new washing machine.
The channel's videos will be raw and unedited due to the creator's lack of motivation for editing and tax work.
The creator expresses satisfaction with his current financial status, not feeling the need to earn more money.
Viewer feedback is welcomed on Discord, but the creator asks for genuine concerns and not time-wasting.
The creator acknowledges getting older and feeling less connected to certain aspects of internet culture.
A heartfelt thanks to viewers for their support throughout his online career as Dyrus.
The creator discusses the emotional impact of attending the LCS finals and reconnecting with the community.
Mentions of loneliness and the importance of viewer support in providing a sense of purpose.
The creator's realization of being bi and his preferences in relationships.
His current relationship status and the challenges he faces in forming meaningful connections.
The creator's move to Kansas and his appreciation for the local food options.
A discussion on the creator's body image issues and his efforts to lose weight.
The creator's experience at TwitchCon, including meeting friends and enjoying the event while under the influence.
His participation in an upcoming DND campaign with friends and a VTuber.
The creator's reflections on his social media presence and his decision to be less active on Twitter.
A final message of appreciation to viewers and a sign-off.
Transcripts
why hello there and welcome to another
DARS vlog
today I'll be talking about the content
on this channel
a little bit of a life update and a
message to you guys my viewers
um starting with the content uh it's
gonna be on pause
dualis has his washing machine now so
um
basically the story behind that is one
day he showed me a video of what his
washing machine looked like and it was
it looked like something from the 80s so
God I just oh my God that's not why I
hired him but I wasn't planning on going
this long with uh YouTube content and
with editing and such
but
it was bad so he's got that now so he's
probably in a better place now and
um
ultimately
uh the reason is because videos on this
channel mostly kind of go even when it
comes to paying him
and when it comes to like
you know getting paid on YouTube uh but
I mean the other reason is because I'm
ultimately lazy because I don't want to
do tax work
and I don't really care about making
money since I'm made enough to make do
like I'm good in life I'm not rich but
I'm not poor just just good I don't
really have motivations to make more
since
uh all the motivations I've had have
kind of come the past or things have
happened it is what it is
um
yeah so
uh any more videos on this channel will
be Raw
and what I mean by that is that there
will just be no editing maybe some
clipping here and there I have like some
free software but I won't really be
uploading that much if you have any
interests or suggestions and wanting me
to upload on YouTube and it gives you
Joy uh if you have feedback the other
posting in the comments because I
probably won't read it I'm reading
YouTube comments doesn't really happen
that often unless the video pops off uh
what you should do is you should go to
my Discord and tag me in the ask the
Irish Channel
um
and just let me know that you're from
this video and I'll give you my honest
answer my proper response uh and please
don't waste my time with stupid
statements or questions I'm I'm just
like you know I'm getting old
I I I can't really
I see a lot of things as cringe now but
it's not a big deal I just
I don't know I'm just in a different
generation now or something I I I'm just
like I'm actually just getting old
so don't worry too much about it but if
you have a question or Genuine concern
or anything like just let me know
they're out and I'll try my best to
answer you
um
I guess the next thing is my life update
uh but before I give the life update I
guess I'll just give a message to you
guys my viewers
um
so
what I was gonna do was explain things
that happened in my life but a lot of
you who have followed me already already
know because I've said it over and over
again so I don't want to overload you
guys with the same [ __ ] but basically
what I want to say is thank you guys for
supporting me throughout my internet
life as dyrus
I'm not going anywhere or anything I'm
just saying that like I wouldn't be
where I am today
without your support
and
I mean I can't really say it enough like
I would have been working some part-time
job somewhere or working in the police
force or some [ __ ] I don't know what I
would have been doing
um
but
uh because I became a professional
League player and because I became
popular and because I've had the support
of my viewers I was able to make enough
money from streaming and playing
advertisements and doing sponsors and
and be where I am today and be like in
an okay place so for that I thank you
guys
um a lot of people that share the
sentiment are watching anymore because
you know they have their own lives here
but if you're still here like I still
appreciate you just as much
um what matters right now is in this
moment rather than like what was
um
yeah I have nothing to do with my life
right now and making you guys happy
makes me happy and I know that's weird
to say because I always sound miserable
in my life like I always complain or do
something like you know you know how I
am if you've watched my stream
um
yeah the way my brain works is like when
other I see others happy I'm happy and
when I see others sad I'm sad like
that's just the way my brain works and
so by having you guys around it gives me
purpose
um
and once I find something I get addicted
to then that purpose is fulfilled
because I give that entertainment or joy
and it goes back and forth and it's just
it's just good for me
So yeah thank you guys for that
um the bat the downside of the message
is that I'm only one person
so the thing is
if you're watching this now and you've
had a negative reaction from me it's not
because I'm specifically targeted on you
as a viewer as one person
it's just that I've had so many
interactions they all mixed together and
my mind just gets overloaded and not not
to mention it comes from playing games
too much my video game addiction all my
life all the excuses you can think of
you know
um
if you're one of the people watching
this video that are hate watching which
is very rare it doesn't really happen
that often most of them kind of just
aren't really worth even talking to but
if you've gotten to this point you
probably have some kind of resentment if
POS like if you do
um this message is basically to say that
if I hurt you I don't hold grudges I
don't want to make others feel bad
and I'll just be completely transparent
with my thoughts like I just I don't
care enough to do all of that Revenge
Grudge [ __ ] like that's just not just
not me
um
I won't be playing a tug of war game
like I'm not your friend I'm not your
enemy I'm just me
so if you're [ __ ] pissed off at me
you can feel free to leave me a message
at the Discord too if you want an honest
answer like if you be over dramatic then
it's probably not going to end well but
I'm just saying like I just don't want
any of that like this I don't
I don't care enough but it's weird for
me to say because I do care
but I don't it's just yeah anyways
that's that love you guys thank you so
much for watching I'm gonna get into the
Life Update part now
um frequently asked questions
I guess for in my life I haven't really
left my house for the last five years
um until recently this last year I went
to the LCS finals the LCS 10. I got to
meet some old teammates some old rivals
um got to talk to a lot of people
and that was just very like heartwarming
for me because as someone who hasn't
been around in the league scene for a
while or hasn't really talked to anyone
that much in a while
I just
fell
lost and not relevant anymore because
you know I don't play the game so they
don't care about me more so all the hot
the thoughts in my head kind of jumble
and I think worst case scenarios but
when I went to The League finals
um
like a lot of my friends like they were
just the same as they always were they
haven't changed a bit there's a lot of
fans who just loved me and I just I I
couldn't hold it and I uh I really
teared up a lot because people
um
they remember me as I was and they
thanked me for like the entertainment I
gave them and that just made me really
happy like because I haven't really
been around
for a while
and so
the thing about that is that I've been
usually fine
but
God I'm just repeating basically when I
was in a relationship none of that was a
problem because no matter what happened
I had someone to rely on but now because
I'm single and because I only have
myself to rely on and besides talking to
my friends like you know sometimes it
gets lonely even for me and I'm not
trying to like look for anything like I
don't regret anything and I'm where I am
today like I'm I'm completely like fine
with it all and I'm over it as it is but
I
I've had moments of weakness and I've
made mistakes
not not big mistakes like you would
imagine I just kind of blow things out
of proportion
um
but
just hearing that and talking to people
and having it like be like really
heartwarming like even
uh my old rivals were treating me like
good close friends like Po belter uh
Smithy like they really lifted up my
spirits even if they don't now that
um I appreciate them a lot for
how I was treated at the lake thing I
got to see turtle
I got to see Barry uh Berg for a bit a
little bit awkward but you know he's the
still same old good guy
he's all grown up now
because when I first met him he was just
a little beard
God I sound old anyways yeah I um
going to that really helped me a lot
because I haven't left the house for a
long time all that stuff so I went there
I had a lot of fun I uh got out of my
shell for a little bit
and that was good uh right uh sponsored
me to go there and I uh don't regret it
at all a shout out to my agent Justin
for that I doubt he'll watch this but if
he does I'll be surprised he's uh
he's uh doing good things
thinks he's like
he's got his own company and stuff
man I'm I'm just talking like I'm old
God anyways moving on so the next thing
that happened in my life from last year
was I went to twitchcon I went to an
Airbnb with a bunch of my VR friends a
bunch of good friends good people thank
God they're normal enough because anyone
in VR is [ __ ] crazy or has some kind
of issue
um
but yeah I went to twitchcon
and I'm not sure if I should be saying
this but
uh weed is legal in California
and one of the first things we did was
went to one of those legal
weed shops and I got those like 10 piece
like fruit roll-up gummies
uh like I don't even know like
watermelon
and I was just blasted the entire
twitchcon trip uh if you saw me at
twitchcon you could probably tell but I
was just not
there and sober not not a single second
that I was there I was sober I had the
most fun ever it was actually crazy like
oh my God the first day I didn't even
think I would be able to get my
twitchcon badge I didn't even know if I
had a badge like TSM said they had like
some stuff set up for me but it was like
really vague but I just showed up I said
my name and I got treated like a VIP at
twitchcon and I was just so thankful for
that because God I did not want to wait
in line I did not want to [ __ ] do all
the [ __ ] [ __ ] everyone else has to do
I know it's like some first world
problem but I you know I've done this
[ __ ] so much like dude I come on let me
let me yeah
I'm not taking up that much space I I
don't stay for that long I'm just
looking saying hi to people and I'm out
like I'm doing my thing you know
so I was blasted at twitchcon and I
somehow made it to the badges
and
I mean it was like the day before
twitchcon and so a lot of things were
kind of a blur but I've had the main
things to note was I got to meet a lot
of my VR friends
um some notables was like nags
uh he's like one of those content
creators for vr's nicest guy I've ever
met speaking of nicest guy I ever met I
got to see Dan Den
um
uh some of you guys don't know him but
he's uh it's Reggie's brother
Andy's brother for TSM
um it's so weird to explain it this way
but yeah nicest people I've ever met in
my entire life like
oh man
this is crazy it was a crazy last year
for me like it's been like an emotional
like
roller coaster like I've been going
through it and after twitchcon and the
league thing in the league finals like
my life just became like back to normal
I mean obviously all the hype things
that I've had for league and being a pro
is not back to normal but like it's fine
like I don't I don't really care too
much anymore I'm not really doing
anything
um
I guess other things at twitchcon other
than seeing my friends I got to see my
old teammates again I got to see odd one
and God I have a story for you guys so I
was going to one of the bnbs or no no I
was going to A Team Liquid party it was
like one of those like public private
parties I don't [ __ ] know
and
I was already blasted and I had some
drinks I saw a beard parf odd one
I got to see a special at some point on
the trip and that was cool I got to see
I don't think I saw turtle at twitchcon
but I got to see special which was
surprising uh photography seemed to be
doing good
um I got to talk to T1
laughs
he's so friendly just nothing but last
with that guy
um I got to
I got to see a lot of people it's all
kind of a blur now because I'm doing
this vlog
and talking about this so many months
later like I usually just upload this
stuff because in the past I'd be like oh
I want to share all my experiences I'm
living life but now I'm old and I'm
doing things on my own pace
so you some of you guys would be like
what the [ __ ] are you talking about
anyways
um
so for twitchcon
yeah
I just keep repeating myself
it was good for me
I'm uh I'm in a better place now in life
uh 31 years old now you might notice
that I might be looking a little bit
different
uh I weigh 230 pounds at the moment when
I was at twitchcon I was
198. so I gained a lot of weight since
the last eight months but I lost a lot
of weight on the way to those occasions
by coincidence and I looked pretty good
there
so
yeah I'm getting old
I have like one of those dad bodies
basically but I mean I could still work
it like I'm I'm my body's in a place
where if I just worked out I would
actually look pretty good but I'm too
lazy and I don't really have any love
interest at the moment so I haven't
really done any of that but I'm also on
a diet again not like a strict diet but
I'm slowly losing weight again I uh I
lost like six pounds in the last two
weeks I know that's not how it actually
works but I mean I think the higher your
weight you are the more weight you lose
faster so I just I'm just on my
healthier diet where I eat salmon
lettuce cherry tomatoes chicken maybe
rice sometimes and I get like one fiber
bar a day or something because eating
too many of those makes me feel sick
speaking of which I've had like insane
allergies because my house has been
Dusty that's why you hear the little
uh fan in the background that's just the
air purifier
um
let me think
hmm
yeah I'm just
2 30 for me is I I feel fat I've been
bullied growing up and I'm super
self-conscious of it of being fat
and I feel like I'm fat right now and
some of you guys might say oh you look
fine well in my eyes and my brain like
I'm always gonna think that because of
the experiences I've had throughout life
it's not a big deal right now but yeah I
haven't really been using webcam on
stream because I'm self-conscious
um but I'm on my way back down so when I
feel good again maybe I'll use webcam on
stream again honestly the only reason
why I use webcam in the first place is
because when I was around 19 years old
people were like oh show us your face
show us your face and I showed my face
after I was like at the most jacked
point of my life and they're like oh my
God you're so hot oh you know and that's
where the [ __ ] whole league thing
started
but now I'm 31 and now I mean I think I
look okay but I don't really
yeah I don't really it's not really a
Focus right now I'm just playing games
and just trying to do the bare minimum
being healthy
um I'm six three so
even though I'm this weight I don't look
that bad because of my height but if I
was shorter God it would be so much
worse that is the only thing I like
about being tall
and that's just a nice privilege to have
and I'm grateful for that
um I guess the next thing to talk about
oh
um I noted them that I'm single now
but I've been through like some
relationships in the last couple of
years not very long ones
but
um
I've realized in life with that what I
want out of girls is that
well or guys I'm kind of I found out
that I'm bi
um not for all guys but just some of
them
uh
I guess you would just be calling them
fem boys which is kind of embarrassing
to talk about I won't talk about too
much but basically
I've went through a couple of
relationships and I've realized that
a lot of relationships play this tug of
war game
where
you have to like put a certain amount of
effort or you and you want it back and
that depends on who you're talking to
but for me all I really care about is
playing games
and when I'm with like a significant
other like I appreciate their company
and cuddling but I don't care about like
sex I don't care about uh
uh I don't care about doing a lot of
things I'm very apathetic as a person
and so if they don't tell me
I won't do [ __ ]
so I basically the point I'm very is I'm
a terrible boyfriend
I didn't know what it meant to be in a
relationship for a very long time and as
I grow older I'm now understanding that
to be in a relationship you need to give
and take and you need to put more effort
into it
but the kind of person I am it's just
really hard too so I'm just waiting for
that day I find that significant other
that basically is fine with me
but I'm not really in a rush I'm not if
not if nothing happens I don't care I'm
also
finally ready to like start a family
um well maybe I'm not that ready
but I'm like if if a significant other
wanted to start a family I would I would
be okay with that because in the past I
would always reject it because I don't I
never thought I was ready for it and the
truth is is like if I keep saying that
I'll never be ready it's not really a
priority
I don't really care
enough
but
yeah basically what I'm talking about is
that
yeah relationships for me is as a person
have caused me a lot of emotional
distress and I just don't
really want them as much but I but I
want the company so it's like it's like
a seesaw like seesaw effect of like what
I won I don't know I hate that side of
me I I [ __ ] hate it I really hate
like being that emotionally uh
influenced
um
uh so another thing is I live in Kansas
right now
uh some people that come to my twitch
streams are like hey how's Austin Texas
and I'm just like
bro I haven't lived there for five years
I've lived in Kansas for the last three
years
um I kind of like it here
because there's a lot of good food
options surprisingly a lot of like
Asians live here so I get a lot of like
Chinese food Japanese food Vietnamese
food and I love all that because I'm
from Hawaii
um I'm half white and half Chinese
myself and like 160 Native American
Cherokee I have like a really flexible
I don't know tastes taste buds so the
food here is good but most importantly I
have a t fiber and that is one of the
reasons why I haven't moved here from
Kansas having fiber compared to not is a
huge difference a massive difference
like it's just it's not even close like
I I
appreciate it too much to move
uh the living prices here are pretty
good
and I have a few friends here not that
many but
just a few I don't really do anything I
don't really leave the house so it
doesn't really matter that much
I'll leave the house when I'd and
absolutely have to like the covid shot
or if I'm going on a trip
um
yeah
so that's that
I don't think I'll move for a while
because I'm lazy
but I'm good where I'm at I live in
Kansas
please don't ask me if I live in Texas
like if you hear this like I just
I'm so tired of answering the same
questions over and over anyways this is
an FAQ
um next thing is uh my Twitter well I
guess it's called X now
I posted
a comment to one of TF blades posts and
I don't really know TF played I don't
really watch him but he was a mutual on
League
and I woke up one morning and I saw a
comment to his post saying I didn't
really read his post but I saw someone
say that league is a children's game and
you need to get off the internet and
those two things just annoyed me because
league is the game that made my life
basically so that annoyed me for that
like I was a professional at that and
then
uh getting off the internet I hate the
idea of people on Twitter telling other
people what to do but the reason why
they did that is because his post was
actually really bad and I didn't realize
that so what I replied to is like who
the [ __ ] do you think you are and it
wasn't about the post that TF blade made
it was more about like those two things
that they said
and I mean that was a mistake I I do not
want to post in the for you section ever
again on Twitter because what happened
there is I retracted League fans
Minecraft fans
uh V tubers fans
uh
K drop uh K stands so I got a whole mix
of those kinds of people in the reply
saying all kinds of terrible [ __ ] to me
besides like one or two people that were
generally confused on why I put the pose
so
I apologize to the one or two people
because you know I
I don't I don't want to hurt those
people like there's no I don't have a
reason to and then for everyone else I
basically said well oh I [ __ ] up
my bad you know and one guy I I have one
[ __ ] parasol severe I was like I just
took a jab at them basically
but it's whatever now I'm not getting
involved with the for you section on
Twitter I might post on Twitter more now
uh when I have things to post
actually I don't know don't don't follow
my Twitter in fact if you're watching
this video on YouTube like I If you want
to unsubscribe that's all good like it's
not a big deal like I you look at my
social blade for my my uh
Twitter and all that
and twitch like it's all in the red the
the league phase has ended a long time
ago
there there's no personal feelings or
bad grudges they're just they're moving
on with our lives
um uh speaking of which for twitch I
still stream on Twitch every once in a
while I've been playing
uh Street Fighter 6 and I've been
playing a character named Zangief
because I love griefing people if you
know my personality I enjoy that
um so I still stream on there
um but yeah everything else I don't
really use I guess I use Tumblr once in
a while at events but yeah so that's
basically been my life I wake up I play
games I eat food and I go to sleep the
only thing that's happening of relevance
for me recently is I'm going to be in a
DND campaign
with uh sterez the DM with a couple of
my friends sure foreign Gully and then
we have a v tuber named selin
she's she's okay I guess and then uh
Apex Pro player named the nocturnal and
he used to play league too so I know
uh known from that too
so that would be an interesting d d
campaign
um
and then other than that I'm just trying
to get the masters of Zangief which is
the league equivalent of
I guess Masters in league so
yep that's what that's my life update
um I'm probably gonna be losing weight
again because
since I am
uh a human being that gets
flustered I'm going to want a
significant other sooner or later
um
but if not then whatever that's life
anyways thanks for watching thank
uh God I hate repeating myself
appreciate you guys have a nice day
peace
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