Why Pepe Herrera Left The Country and Quit Showbiz For A While | Toni Talks

Summary

Pepe Herrera candidly shares his journey to stardom, including landing his big break in the musical 'Rak of Aegis.' He then rapidly rose to fame, taking on multiple acting projects, but this took a toll, triggering severe burnout and mental health issues. He recounts his struggles with depression, rage, and suicidal thoughts during travels abroad. Upon returning home, Pepe committed to therapy and healing. He emphasizes the importance of acknowledging one's trauma and emotions. Pepe also touches on using mindfulness practices for grounding, the profound power of forgiveness, and aiming to break destructive cycles to create healthy spaces for the next generation.

Takeaways

• 😊 Pepe's childhood dream was to become a performing artist
• 😖 He experienced burnout and rage from overwork
• 😢 He went through depression, rage episodes and suicidal thoughts
• 🤔 He realized he needed professional help and healing
• 💡 He learned about the links between childhood trauma, anger and depression
• 👪 Becoming a father motivated him to heal himself
• 🙏 He reconciled with his parents and forgave them
• 🔁 He continues therapy and practices gratitude to stay grounded
• 😌 Apologizing to his daughter helps break cycles of trauma
• 💞 Conversations about spirituality and inner child brought insight

Q & A

What was Pepe's first trigger that made him realize something was wrong?

Pepe had a trigger while driving on EDSA when he got pulled over by a traffic enforcer. He snapped at his handler who was trying to diffuse the situation, yelling at her until she was crying and trembling. This loss of control was a wake-up call.

How did Pepe get his big break in show business?

Pepe got his big break playing the role of Tolits in the musical Rak of Aegis. He caught the attention of director Charo Santos-Concio when he whistled the theme song to her show Maalaala Mo Kaya during a performance.

What happened that made Pepe decide to leave show business in 2017?

Pepe experienced severe burnout and mental health issues like rage, depression, and suicidal thoughts. A traumatic episode on a cable car in Switzerland was the final trigger that made him realize he needed professional help and to take a break from work.

How does Pepe say his daughter Payapa helps in his healing process?

Payapa senses when Pepe is triggered or upset. Her hugs and affection help calm and heal his inner child. Pepe also uses Payapa's childhood innocence to practice patience and improve how he handles his anger.

What revelation did Pepe have about the cause of his depression?

Pepe learned that depression can mean a 'deep rest' that the mind and body need from constant work and distractions. It can also come from suppressed anger that was not expressed.

How did Pepe's parents help in his healing journey?

Pepe's parents acknowledged the trauma he experienced growing up and apologized for their mistakes. These honest conversations helped release a lot of built-up pain and resentment.

What daily practice did Celeste teach Pepe that he still does?

Looking in the mirror, telling yourself "I'm proud of you", and setting a self-care commitment for the day. This helps Pepe embrace and heal his inner child.

How does Pepe describe being an ENFP personality type?

As an ENFP, Pepe is energized by spending time with people but also needs alone time to recharge. He is one of the most introverted extroverts who needs a balance of social stimulation and solitude.

What meditation practice helps Pepe focus on gratitude?

Using gratitude beads with 108 beads, and thanking God, Mother Earth and the Universe for each thing he is grateful for.

How did Pepe's stint working on a cruise ship influence his career?

Seeing the show team perform each night made Pepe realize he wanted to pursue performing full-time. It cemented his childhood dream.