HisWattson opens up on Vaxlon REPLACING his 2nd RETIREMENT from ALGS & TSM ImperialHal's response!

HisWattson, a professional esports player, discusses his decision to retire from competitive gaming for the second time. He explains that despite being a talented player, he was not enjoying the game and felt it was affecting his mental health. HisWattson also mentions that he found the time commitment for practice and competition to be too demanding, impacting his social life and other interests. He emphasizes that he believes Vaxlon, who is taking his place, will be more passionate and perform better. HisWattson assures that the decision was amicable and beneficial for all parties involved, including his teammates and the organization. He also states that he has no plans to return to competitive play and intends to stay with Furia, the team he was a part of.

Takeaways

• 🎮 The speaker initially enjoyed playing competitively but eventually lost interest, feeling it was more of an obligation due to his skill level.
• 🚫 He quit the first time due to lack of enjoyment and only returned after being convinced by his peers and the prospect of playing with preferred teammates.
• 💰 The speaker highlights the financial aspect, stating that he can make more money from content creation than from competitive gaming prizes.
• 🤝 He agreed to play with the condition that he could leave if he got bored, which he felt was a fair agreement given the unsigned status of the team.
• 📉 The speaker's passion for the game decreased over time, prioritizing other interests like swimming, content creation, and social life.
• 🕒 He describes the grueling schedule of professional gaming as similar to working a second shift, which negatively impacted his social life and well-being.
• 😔 The speaker felt guilty for not being fully invested in the game, especially when he saw others, like Vaxlon, who were eager to play.
• 🤔 He questioned the fairness of his participation when his heart wasn't in it, and how it affected his teammates.
• 💡 The decision to step down came after a small disagreement related to content creation, which made him realize the incompatibility of his commitments.
• 📉 The speaker's mental health suffered as he felt the pressure of performing at a high level without the desire to be there.
• 🤝 The transition to Vaxlon joining the team was amicable and supported by all parties involved, aiming to benefit the team's performance and the speaker's well-being.

Q & A

Why did HisWattson initially decide to retire from competitive gaming?

HisWattson initially decided to retire because he wasn't having fun playing competitively and felt like he was just going through the motions due to his talent, rather than genuine enjoyment.

What did HisWattson do before rejoining the competitive scene?

Before rejoining the competitive scene, HisWattson did a PR grind with Madness and Keon, during which he had a lot of fun and they achieved significant success.

Why did HisWattson consider coming back to play for Furia?

HisWattson considered coming back to play for Furia because they were having a hard time and Henry, from Furia, asked him about his willingness to play. However, he made it clear that he would only play with Madison Keon, which he knew was unlikely.

What were the conditions HisWattson set before agreeing to play for Furia?

HisWattson agreed to play for Furia on the condition that if he got bored or started disliking the game, he could leave and they could find a replacement for him.

Why did HisWattson decide to leave the competitive scene again?

HisWattson decided to leave the competitive scene again because he found that his passion for other activities outside of gaming was diminishing, and he was not enjoying the intense practice schedule, which affected his mental health and social life.

How did HisWattson feel about his role and responsibilities on the team?

HisWattson did not enjoy his role and responsibilities on the team, which contributed to his lack of passion and eventual decision to leave competitive gaming.

Why did HisWattson feel it was unfair to his teammates to continue playing?

He felt it was unfair to his teammates because he was not passionate about playing, which affected his performance and could potentially hold the team back. He knew that there were other players, like Vaxlon, who were eager and passionate about playing.

What was HisWattson's financial perspective on competitive gaming?

HisWattson mentioned that he could make more money from content creation, such as his YouTube videos, than from winning competitions, which influenced his decision to focus on other activities.

How did HisWattson's mental state affect his performance in games?

His lack of enjoyment and passion for competitive gaming led to a poor mental state during games, which in turn affected his performance negatively.

What was the general sentiment among the Furia team regarding HisWattson's decision to step down?

According to HisWattson, everyone at Furia, including Vaxlon, Keon, and Henry, was happy with the situation and supportive of his decision to step down.

Does HisWattson plan to compete again in the future?

Based on his last two experiences, HisWattson has no plans to compete again and intends to stay with Furia for a long time, focusing on activities he enjoys more.

Outlines

00:00

🎮 The Struggle with Competitive Gaming

The speaker discusses their initial foray into competitive gaming, highlighting the lack of enjoyment they experienced. They mention being persuaded to continue playing due to their skill level but eventually quit. After a hiatus, they returned to competitive play with friends, enjoying success and fun, but later faced a dilemma when their team needed them. Despite initial reluctance, they agreed to play under certain conditions, such as being allowed to leave if they lost interest. As time went on, the speaker found their passion for other activities overtaking their commitment to gaming, leading to a decision to step back from competitive play.

05:02

💰 Prioritizing Life Over Gaming

The speaker elaborates on their decision to leave competitive gaming, emphasizing the financial, physical, and mental toll it took. They compare the income from content creation to the rewards of competitive gaming, stating that the former is more lucrative. The speaker also discusses the impact of their gaming commitments on their social life and personal well-being, and how it led to a decline in their enjoyment and performance. They express concern about being a liability to their team and the fairness of taking a spot that others, who are more passionate, would cherish.

10:02

🤝 A Mutually Beneficial Change

The speaker describes the transition process and the reactions of their teammates and the organization. They assert that everyone involved with the team, including themselves, is content with the change, and no one has been wronged. The speaker believes that their replacement will perform better and bring more passion to the team, which is beneficial for all parties. They also address the question of why they didn't finish out the competitive season before stepping down, explaining their lack of desire to continue and the mental strain it caused.

15:02

🏆 The Conflict with Competitive Nature

The speaker reflects on their role in the team and their intrinsic conflict with the competitive environment. They admit that their performance was the reason for the team's poor results, not due to a lack of skill but a lack of desire to participate. The speaker expresses their belief that they are not a competitor at heart and that their mentality is detrimental to the team. They also mention their past experiences with other rosters and how, even at the height of their career, they felt ready to leave competitive play. The speaker concludes by stating their intention to stay with the organization in a non-competitive role and their request to the team's management to prevent them from rejoining the competitive scene.

Keywords

Comp

Short for 'competitive,' in the context of the video, it refers to the competitive gaming scene, specifically professional esports for the game Apex Legends. The narrator discusses his experiences and feelings regarding his participation in competitive gaming.

Retirement

In this script, retirement refers to the act of stepping back or stopping participation in professional gaming. The narrator mentions his second retirement from competitive gaming, indicating a prior instance where he had considered or taken a break from the competitive scene.

ALGS

ALGS stands for 'Apex Legends Global Series,' a professional esports league for the game Apex Legends. The narrator discusses his relationship with ALGS in terms of his participation and eventual departure from competitive play.

TSM

TSM is a professional esports organization known as 'Team SoloMid.' The script implies a connection to the narrator's career, possibly indicating a past or current affiliation with the team.

PR Grind

PR Grind refers to the process of playing and ranking up in the Public Rank system of a game, aiming to achieve a high rank or skill level. The narrator mentions doing the PR grind with specific players, highlighting a period of focused and competitive gameplay.

Unsigned Team

An unsigned team in esports terminology is a group of players who do not have a formal contract with an esports organization. The narrator discusses the implications of being an unsigned Pro Player, emphasizing the lack of financial support and stability.

Roster Spot

A roster spot refers to a player's position on a team's official list of members. The narrator talks about keeping a roster spot and the conditions under which he would leave the team, indicating the formal structure and commitments within esports teams.

Content Creation

Content creation involves producing digital media such as videos, streams, or articles, often for platforms like YouTube or Twitch. The narrator compares his enjoyment and financial success in content creation to his experiences in competitive gaming.

Mental Health

Mental health refers to a person's emotional, psychological, and social well-being. The narrator discusses the impact of his competitive gaming career on his mental health, indicating the pressures and challenges faced by professional gamers.

Passion

In the context of the video, passion refers to the narrator's enthusiasm and love for playing the game. He contrasts his waning passion with that of another player who is eager to take his place, highlighting the emotional commitment required in professional gaming.

Second Shift

A second shift typically refers to a work schedule that starts in the afternoon and ends late in the evening. The narrator uses the term to describe the timing of his practice sessions, which interferes with his social life and personal well-being.

Highlights

HisWattson discusses his decision to retire from competitive gaming for the second time.

He initially continued playing due to his talent, despite not enjoying it.

HisWattson had a lot of fun playing with Madness and Keon during the PR grind.

He was approached by Furia to help them when they were struggling.

HisWattson agreed to play only if he could leave if he got bored.

HisWattson found that his passion for other activities like swimming and content creation was diminishing due to the demands of competitive play.

He decided to quit playing competitively after realizing it was affecting his mental health and social life.

HisWattson felt it was unfair to his teammates to continue playing without passion.

Vaxlon is willing to replace HisWattson, who believes Vaxlon will perform better.

HisWattson makes more money from content creation than from competitive gaming.

He emphasizes that leaving competitive play is a win-win situation for everyone involved.

HisWattson does not plan on rejoining Furia's competitive roster.

He wants to be transparent about his reasons for leaving to manage expectations.

HisWattson's enjoyment of playing does not correlate with the team's success.

He admits that his lack of passion negatively impacted the team's performance.

HisWattson expresses relief at being free from the pressures of competitive gaming.

He asks his manager, Henry, to prevent him from returning to competitive play, no matter how much he might complain.