Why i Quit Youtube…

Summary

Antonio Garza returns to YouTube after a hiatus, candidly discussing his absence, personal struggles, and the evolution of his life. He humorously addresses rumors about his financial status and the assumption that he's returning for money. Garza expresses gratitude for his fans, shares past experiences, and hints at future content. He also touches on his love life, current beauty routine, and the importance of self-acceptance, all while maintaining his signature humor and authenticity.

Takeaways

• 😃 Antonio Garza returns to YouTube after a long hiatus, surprised to be back and acknowledges it feels crazy.
• 🤔 Antonio humorously admits they still claim to be a YouTuber on taxes, even though they've been inactive for a while.
• 😂 Jokes about being broke, not paying taxes, and lacking brand sponsorships, but emphasizes they're not coming back solely for money.
• 😊 Expresses gratitude to fans for their support and reflects on the honor of still being recognized in public.
• 😅 Mentions feeling 'old' when people say they've been fans since childhood, despite being only 20 years old.
• 😬 Antonio opens up about past challenges, including schizophrenia and personal struggles during the YouTube break.
• 🤣 Lightheartedly talks about realizing their old content was cringy and refers to their past self as a 'pick-me'.
• 💄 Shares a PR unboxing from ColourPop, reminiscing about nearly collaborating with major brands like Sephora.
• 😍 Confirms they have a boyfriend now and discusses the boost in confidence that came from being in a relationship.
• 👋 Ends the video with gratitude for fans, reflecting on personal growth and hinting that LA had changed them temporarily.

Q & A

What is Antonio Garza's relationship with YouTube?

Antonio Garza used to be a YouTuber and has returned to the platform after a hiatus.

Why did Antonio Garza take a break from YouTube?

Antonio mentions being lazy, broke, and confused as reasons for his break from YouTube.

What does Antonio Garza think about the perception that he is broke?

Antonio addresses the perception by stating he has a nice house, some debt, and hasn't paid his taxes, but he doesn't clarify his exact financial status.

Why does Antonio Garza believe brands won't sponsor him?

Antonio suggests that brands won't sponsor him, implying it could be due to his past inactivity on YouTube or his current financial situation.

What personal reasons does Antonio Garza have for leaving YouTube?

Antonio alludes to personal reasons but does not specify them in the script, indicating a desire to discuss them further.

What was Antonio Garza's initial plan for his return to YouTube?

Antonio initially wanted to do something big and life-changing for his return but later decided against the pressure to make a grand comeback.

What does Antonio Garza think about his old YouTube videos?

Antonio finds his old videos annoying and believes he was the worst, showing a change in his self-perception over time.

Did Antonio Garza ever consider starting a podcast?

Yes, Antonio almost started a podcast but decided against it, possibly due to the amount of content he had to catch up on for YouTube.

What was Antonio Garza's relationship status when he recorded the script?

Antonio mentions having a boyfriend, indicating he is in a relationship.

How does Antonio Garza feel about aging and being perceived as old?

Antonio dislikes feeling old and is sensitive about his age, as he expresses discomfort when fans remind him of how long they've been watching him.

What does Antonio Garza think about the current state of YouTube and the internet?

Antonio reflects on the changes in the internet and YouTube, noting the absence of certain personalities and the evolution of the platform.

Outlines

00:00

🎥 Return to YouTube

Antonio Garza starts the video with a candid admission of his long absence from YouTube, expressing surprise at his return. He humorously mentions his appearance and the assumption that he's broke, which he playfully refutes by mentioning his nice house and minimal debt. Antonio acknowledges the rumors about his financial situation and the suspicion that he's returning for money, but he also admits that no brands are sponsoring him. He expresses genuine remorse for leaving his audience and misses them, intending to share personal stories and reasons for his absence, including his mental health struggles.

05:02

👁️‍🗨️ Self-Reflection and Honesty

In the second paragraph, Antonio reflects on his past YouTube videos, finding them annoying and cringeworthy, which contrasts with his previous self-perception. He discusses his past as a 'stoner' and how his responsibilities on YouTube led him to quit bad habits. He also humorously addresses a potential PR package from ColourPop, expressing a desire for sponsorship despite his current lack of brand interest. Antonio talks about the changes in his life and online persona, emphasizing how much he has evolved since his early YouTube days.

10:02

💖 Personal Growth and Acceptance

The third paragraph sees Antonio discussing the loss of community as many YouTubers left the platform, reminiscing about past peers like Jenna Marbles. He shares his personal growth, including his newfound confidence and acceptance in a relationship, which he sees as a significant part of his self-discovery. Antonio also humorously addresses the expectation versus reality of his first boyfriend. He concludes with a heartfelt thank you to his audience for their support and encouragement to return to YouTube, expressing hope that he hasn't changed too much and a commitment to continue making content.

Keywords

💡YouTuber

A YouTuber refers to a person who creates and publishes videos on the YouTube platform. In the script, Antonio Garza mentions being a former YouTuber and his return to the platform after a hiatus. This term is central to understanding the video's theme of a content creator's journey and return to sharing online.

💡Lazy

Lazy in this context refers to a lack of motivation or effort. Antonio jokes about being labeled as 'lazy' during his absence from YouTube, suggesting that his inactivity was due to more complex reasons than mere laziness. This term helps to humanize the creator and adds a layer of humor to the video.

💡Broke

Broke typically means having no money or being financially insolvent. The script plays with the idea that Antonio is 'broke' and that this might be a reason for his return to YouTube. It's a recurring joke that adds a candid and self-deprecating tone to the video.

💡Confused

Confused in this context implies a state of uncertainty or lack of clarity. Antonio mentions being 'confused' as one of the reasons for his absence, suggesting that he was unsure of his path or direction during his time away from YouTube. This term adds depth to the narrative of his personal journey.

💡Sponsor

To sponsor, in the context of YouTube, means for a brand to provide financial support or products to a content creator in exchange for promotion. Antonio mentions that no brands will sponsor him, indicating his current lack of commercial support and adding a layer of authenticity to his return.

💡Pikme

Pikme is a slang term used to describe someone who is unattractive or not socially desirable. Antonio reflects on past perceptions of himself as a 'pikme' and how that might have influenced his online persona. This term is used to explore themes of self-image and acceptance.

💡Stoner

A stoner is a slang term for someone who frequently uses cannabis. Antonio discloses a past as a 'stoner' before his YouTube career, revealing a part of his life that contrasts with his image as a content creator. This term is used to add a layer of personal history and growth to the narrative.

💡PR Package

A PR package refers to a package sent by a company to an influencer for promotional purposes. Antonio mentions receiving a PR package from ColourPop, a cosmetics brand, indicating his past or potential partnerships with brands. This term is relevant to the video's theme of a creator's relationship with brands.

💡Collab

Collab short for collaboration, refers to a joint effort between two or more parties, often used in the context of content creation. Antonio talks about almost doing a collaboration with ColourPop, which would have been a significant milestone in his career. This term is used to highlight missed opportunities and aspirations.

💡Boyfriend

A boyfriend, in this context, refers to a romantic partner. Antonio mentions having a boyfriend, which is a significant personal detail that adds a layer of intimacy to the video. It also contributes to the narrative of personal growth and acceptance.

💡Glam

Glam stands for glamorous and refers to a style or appearance that is elegant and stylish. Antonio associates 'Glam' with his makeup and persona, indicating a key part of his personal brand and aesthetic as a content creator. This term is central to understanding his creative identity.

Highlights

Antonio Garza returns to YouTube after a long hiatus.

Antonio admits to being lazy, broke, and confused about his absence.

He addresses rumors about being broke and not paying taxes.

Antonio misses his audience and apologizes for being away.

He plans to share personal stories and reasons for his absence.

Antonio reveals he almost started a podcast.

He discusses his past as a stoner and how YouTube changed his habits.

Antonio unboxes a PR package from ColourPop and praises the brand.

He reflects on his past YouTube videos and feels he has changed significantly.

Antonio expresses his admiration for Jenna Marbles and a past encounter with her.

He talks about his insecurities regarding aging and being perceived as old.

Antonio discusses his relationship and how it has boosted his confidence.

He mentions a failed collaboration with ColourPop and another brand.

Antonio shares his makeup routine and signature look.

He talks about his love for glamour and how it represents different aspects of his life.

Antonio thanks his audience for their support and encouragement to return to YouTube.

He jokes about his content frequency being tied to his rent payment.

Antonio discusses his experience with cosmetic fillers and their side effects.

Transcripts

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hey guys what's up it's me I'm here

hello

oh my

God why am I so red I'm

dying

finally hey guys what's up it's me

Antonio Garza and I'm back it's true

this feels really crazy because if you

know me you know that I used to be a

YouTuber even though I still say I am on

my taxes which I haven't paid by the

way we're just going to get ready today

you think after for 5 years I'd be able

to come up with a different video idea

and you were wrong so I didn't think I

was going to come back to YouTube for a

long time because some could say I was

lazy some can say I was broke I say that

I

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was confused I know that half the

internet thinks I'm broke and you guys

think that I'm coming back just for the

money and maybe that's true because I

haven't paid my taxes why does everyone

think I'm broke like I have a really

nice house I have only a few thousand in

debt and I haven't paid my

taxes the whole allegation of me coming

back to YouTube and like posting just

for money I don't want you guys to think

that because no Brands will sponsor me

so I'm not getting any

money anyways before we start with the

shenanigans and the craziness I have to

say I miss you guys so much being able

to do this is really crazy and I've

taken that for granted for a lot of

years this is my apology guys get ready

I really feel bad that I've left you

guys in the dust I mean it was for a lot

of personal reasons which obviously I'm

ready to air out and tell everyone

everything that's gone wrong in my life

ever starting with my birth but

seriously I just feel bad and I miss you

guys and I still think about you guys

every day and every time I meet one of

you guys in public which is crazy that

you guys even still remember me I am so

honored and it like never feels old it's

just crazy and I love you

guys thank you for making me famous okay

also if you ever meet me in public and

you come up to me and you say oh my god

I've been watching you since I was like

12 and you look like you're like

35 I'm going to be pissed like does that

mean I'm

old I don't know I'll fully have like

people my age coming up like my age

coming up to me saying You Raised Me you

raised me as a kid you got me through

2016 I get that so much guys I wasn't on

YouTube in 2016 this is what I was doing

in

2016 like that's just y'all are crazy

stop making me feel old you guys it's

disgusting I don't like feeling old I'm

20 years old I'm not even 21 I can't

even buy a

drink with my real

ID wouldn't it be funny if like you got

a fake ID and like face tuned like the

photo for your like ID picture that'd be

funny if someone did

that um anyways guys I what was I saying

oh you guys think I'm old and

fat I decided to come back today because

I'm

bored and because I feel like it and

because I miss y'all he's been screaming

at me to film every day in my

ears also guys I'm schizophrenic I have

been off of YouTube for for 2 years and

what that means is that I've gone

through so much in my life I'm going to

tell you guys some stories today some

stories from my pre-youtube days things

that you guys never knew about me from

back in the day and also some reasons

why I've been gone and I also have a lot

of things to say guys I almost started a

podcast I almost became a

podcaster that's disgusting why did I

almost do that I still might do it cuz I

have so much I have two years to catch

you guys up on plus more but yeah I have

a lot of reasons a lot of things to talk

about so should we just get started

Maybe

I don't

know okay so after 3 years off YouTube I

keep making things up it hasn't even

been 3 years it's been like a

year also if you've seen any of my Tik

toks in the past 3 years just pretend I

didn't make them that wasn't me that was

a clone by originally when I thought of

coming back to YouTube I was stuck on

this for a really long time cuz I was

like I need to do something really big

lives need to change if I'm coming back

to YouTube I have to do something crazy

but then I realized like I'm not like

Dan and Phil like I don't think anyone's

going to be that excited I think this

video might get I'm not kidding seven

views and if that happens I don't even

care I'm just happy to be with the go

the guys the go the guys of you who

y'all the people who still care about me

if you're watching this great and if

you're not watching this die okay I have

so much to say I'm practically throwing

up so let's get started I'm going to do

my eyebrows off camera

oh what I was saying

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earlier I'm ugly who remembers that I'm

ugly did you guys forget I wish I

could okay eyebrows are done they're

uneven you think that for my first video

back I would try hard I I lost my

eyebrow pencil I lost it and you can't

blame me don't guys who loves Taylor

Swift okay okay guys as I was doing my

eyebrows I was watching my old YouTube

videos and turns out that I'm really

annoying and turns out that I'm the

worst and it's funny cuz I'm just

realizing this right now I used to watch

my old YouTube videos and think like h i

was the clean I guess I just woke up

being conscious today now I'm pissed off

because I'm like okay so have I always

looked like a fool to you guys have I

always been like the worst have I always

been an embarrassment to society let me

know

because I used to be such a Pik me I was

a pikm me I'm saying it now and you know

what there's nothing wrong with being a

pikmy except that no one's going to like

you so if you guys think I was

disgusting a few years ago just let me

know and if you think I was perfect

check yourself in to like I don't know

the clinic or something guys do you want

to know a fun facts about me YouTube

YouTube YouTube if you're watching this

just skip past a minute we're adults now

this is the thing about coming back to

YouTube that I'm really excited for is

we are adults if you're 13 don't listen

to what I'm about to say would you guys

believe me if I told you that I used to

be a stoner and I used to

smoke before I started

YouTube not one of you was like well

maybe y'all were I don't know I don't

know about my vibe I just watched my old

YouTube videos and as I said I I was the

worst

so I guess it kind of makes sense that I

was a stoner but just know that this is

behind me this is behind me my behind

is me when you guys were watching me

like I was never obviously never doing

that I had quit by that point really

because when I started getting

responsibility of being a big YouTuber

also went my bad habits it's funny cuz I

don't think anyone would have ever

guessed that about me that's just funny

Who's

laughing it's a bad habit I started in

high school so in that era of like my

very early videos that's what I filled

my time with YouTube video making and

being a crack addict and my advice to

you guys out there as an old person guys

just don't do that especially if you're

under 18 Susan please don't demonetize

me I haven't paid my taxes oh my God

wait I just remembered I have a PR

package to open up with you guys not

only am I broke and irrelevant these

days Brands don't even like it like I

tried to get PR from like Too Faced and

they were being Too Faced because they

didn't send me I'm just kidding I

don't actually think I even tried so is

it my fault let's do a PR package on

unboxing PR package unboxing thank you

to colourpop everyone go byy colourpop

everyone spend money okay so this is the

I'm tote palette no it's that's

tote palette uh this is really cool

packaging get into this who else forgot

about him he's over but this is cool

tone Brown palette this is stunning and

colourpop is cheap easy reliable fun

good colourpop sponsor me please I don't

know if I'm supposed to to say this but

at this point I don't care but I was

going to do a collab with colourpop that

was my dream for years I should have

done it I was offered to do him with

another brand as well really big Sephora

brand I actually turned it down cuz they

were wanting to pay me like $3 which

looking back I should have done it

anyway cuz it's like even if I wasn't

getting paid it doesn't matter cuz that

would have been so sick to have like an

Antonio Garza like collab in Sephora

that would have been insane but I'm dumb

I regret everything but

anyways why am I not do my makeup guys

every time that I remember that I used

to post videos on YouTube it's really

crazy to me because I kind of don't

remember it like I do but like that

version of me is so different from who I

am today and I feel like I've said that

the past like three videos I've made it

really is true and it's crazy how much

you change if you guys think back to how

you were back in like 2020 2019 it's a

big shift I really hope that people

still care and not care about me but

just care about like

each

other girl what the is you talking

about I think something really big was

lost when a lot of people left the

internet I mean it's crazy thinking back

to like when I was posting a lot who

else was posting at the time I mean we

had like

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me Jeffree

Star Jenna Marbles guys I miss Jenna

Marbles I met her once very briefly and

I cried after guys I saw du leipa last

night no offense to Doula peep the leapa

nators the DU leipa nators the duip

nators but I just didn't even like

care I it just goes to show you how much

I care about Jenna Marbles is that I

cried for like days after I met her like

it was just

crazy I'm the new Jeffree

Star anyways I'm going to fix this ey

Shadow I'm going to cut my creases my

creases my Crees my Rees M Reeses Reeses

Pieces all

done I didn't blend out my chin

Contour

oh mg that is so embarrassing that is

really really

embarrassing did you guys see that the

whole time you didn't but like what if

you did that'd be really

awful oh wait I think I fixed it perfect

guys I do have a boyfriend let's finally

just clear the big fat elephant in the

room I never actually thought that I

would ever get to a point where I would

be accepted by someone it didn't seem

like that was ever going to be a

possibility for me just because of who I

am and I truly believed that but then I

realize that I'm the queen I actually

think I got a lot of confidence after

being in my relationship I realized

my value no one's perfect and I don't

think I'm perfect and I still managed to

find you know someone who wants to be

with me I guess I had this expectation

for getting a like my first boyfriend of

like oh when I get a boyfriend life's

going to be perfect and it's definitely

not but that's fine and I've learned

like that's cool like I just now have a

person who like gets me and we have fun

and we're like cool and like thank you

to cash app for not sponsoring this

video but for bringing me to the Eros

store I think I was supposed to post

something on Instagram for them and then

just never did this is why no Brands

like me cuz I'm real

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makeup's all

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die Glam is life Glam is power Glam is

love Glam is fun Glam is me I am

Hollywood okay oh hey guys I'm back this

is my makeup all done my signature look

but I haven't had my hair like this in a

really long time and I like it with this

it's like crazy makeup and I didn't feel

like doing my hair kind of vibe kind of

like a like a I'm going to get in the

shower after this kind of vibe you know

what I'm

saying thank you guys so much for

watching I really hope that one this

video makes it to the internet if it did

go me for editing it and you're seeing

this go you for watching it and

supporting me cuz that means the world

and thank you to everyone who has

screamed at me the past few years to

telling me to get back on YouTube thanks

to all of you truly it means a lot that

you guys are here and I'm like it means

more than you could ever know I hope I

didn't change too much you know I think

I did change I think La changed me and

then I changed back recently I I just

changed I went back to normal I was a

freak for a while but we don't talk

about it we'll talk about it but we

don't talk about it you won't see me

again until my rent is trust just

kidding I want to keep standing and

talking to you guys but I have a feeling

this video might be 3

hours okay sorry I thought someone was

like next to me

um I'm beautiful these days like I

haven't even gotten filler in a really

long time cuz my lips got way too

ballooned up and filler is migrating

like to my brain and I I think that's

why I'm like becoming I'm like really

stupid with that being said I love you

guys I'll be back soon xo xo me

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